Venomous Tongues/Snakes Who Decieve/ I Hate White People

This is A Message To Rachel Myatt,  the Myatt and Friesen Families, and  To Pastor Coleman Glenn.   You have no idea what your judgment and hypocrisy has done to me as a person.  Especially you Pastor Glenn.  I want everyone to know of your relationship in contrast to mine.  I want people to know how you as a Pastor tried to downplay my dreams when you were carrying on the same kind of relationship across the other side of the world, but mine didn't matter my heart and my love for Rachel didn't matter.  It was ok to make excuses for the evil that Rachel did but its ok for you date a girl over the internet and talk to her and court her but my love for Rachel was never real.  People like you should be stripped of their position in clergy.  Maybe that wont happen but people outside of the New Church need to know what kind of two faced people reside in the New Church.  I dont care about your reputation because you are too busy putting up everything all over the internet and spreading your joy and happiness and then talking about how we should be happy and want other people to be blessed but not once did you see the good in the love I had for Rachel nor her family.  You need to be exposed and so for that Pastor Coleman Glenn and for you Rachel Myatt I dedicate this new song by Christian band Flyleaf to you called.  "Fire Fire"

 

To Rachel and the Myatt Family I am saddened that you would pretend to have so much love for me than encourage Rachel to abandon me at a crucial time in my life.  Truth be told I loved and do love she and Jonathan as much as I say I did and they meant everything to me. There was no two people on earth I wanted to start a family with but that was all ruined by self pride, misinformation, lack of communication, and just plain bigotry.  Maybe you(The Myatt family say to yourself how can we be bigots we accepted adopted children of color? Its more than that in which make ones a biogot or prejudiced.  I heard it in Rachel's voice and I know that someone made her feel ashamed of me.  So I wont apologize for what I have to say next.  Whoever said such unspeakable things towards me and my family and instilled them in Rachel may they be cast in to the lot of the lowest devils that Swedenborg talks about and may their evil be binded by their toungue because I and my mother had nothing but love for you.  You wished ill of a dying mothers dream of a son to just love and be loved and you mistook my grivieng for mental illness and that was just a cop out and a cowardice.  I am no longer afraid to say what needs to be said nor spread the word.  Myatt family if you feel you need to sue me or file litigation for me loving you and trying to make peace with you on this blog and telling my story go right ahead. If you and Rachel want to set an example for the New Church as a whole go right ahead.  Bishop Kline I will call you out right here and now and say if you want to allow Pastors such as Pastor's Cooper and Glenn to ruin your legacy go right ahead I will speak on them and I will not hesitate to speak on you and the evils in the Church you lead right now. 

You will never hear me say I hate a person because of their skin color or religion and because someone's views are different than mine doesnt mean I cant love them as with Agape,  Romantic,  or God's love in General.

 

Example: In the current U.S. Presidential election I am voting for Mitt Romney.  I did not vote for Obama last time either because of his far left idealogy. Nor did I vote for John McCain I voted Libertarian. Mitt Romney is also a Mormon in which I have many problems with their religion.  I grew up with two Mormon friends and they were the most loyal good friends a guy could have.  The problem I have with Mormanism is that until 1970 human beings who happened to be black were not held on the same level as European or white people.  If people in the New Church dont realize that people like the Myatts and Rachel who had a black boyfriend who lived in the Southern U.S. who has friends that are white as snow and are redneck and live in trailers but I still love those people like my flesh and blood can love a so called Redneck girl from Northern Canada then they are missing the point.  At the time I was not in the best physical shape but I love riding horses, mudding, 4 wheeling, and climbing any and everything.   I dont want to fit any stupid stereotype for black people,  I hate the race card, and I hate bigotry and that is what I am fighting against that I see in the New Church.  I also hate arrogance, selfish love of self, and pride.  I am not doing what I am doing to hurt Rachel, the Myatt family, Pastor Glenn or the Church of the New Jerusalem but God is using me as in instrument of His love to show them the error of their ways.

I want you to leave you with a video by Everclear about Racism called "Heart Spark Dollarsign" please listen to the words and take the message to heart.  To the CLERGY of the Church of the New Jerusalem you and the Myatts are not even aware of what a warrior and revolutionary like me is capable of doing in the name of peaceful Revolution.  Reaching out to me and making peace is better than being my enemy but Rachel chose to treat me with the old George W. Bush Adage "If You Aren't With Us, You Are Against Us."  I can level the room with protest from all over the country and not only will Rachel and her family be shamed and embarrassed it will bring much reproach on the Church but as a Christian I am reaching out to you Rachel, Myatts and Friesens, and COTNJ.  You were warned, you were given the white flag, you were loved but I cant promise you that will last too much longer.  If you dont take away anything from this blog take away that we all just want to be loved and fit in and when you have people like Rachel who play with people's good hearts, their love, and their livelihood adn treat them like they are nothing then you get people willing to fight and go to extremes.  Question is is Rachel ready to put her family and her faith in this situation. 


May God Bless Us All and find someone with the strength and love to understand my message because the hour and the day is coming where what I have to say will affect 1000s and it will be all on Rachel and her families head when it could have been prevented with a peaceful phone call or a simple I love you and I am sorry.

I love you all Byron
God Bless

I Love You Rachel : Peace is What I Seek

Dear Rachel,
I lie awake every night thinking about how much I love you and Jonathan and that has never changed.  If any man every loved you and believed in you it is me.  Nothing negative I have said negates the fact that I love you with all my heart and I am just hoping and praying you will put aside all the poison, the anger, the hurt that keeps you from making peace with me and and call or write.  I am hurting too but I write and I am willing to let the whole world know I love you.

Songs For Rachel 3 : Final Beauty(I Will Always Love Her)

Dear Readers,
The song above is "Mint Car" by the Cure.  I wanted to end this installment of Songs For Rachel with beauty.  If you read the words to this song or listen to the passion and happiness that Robert Smith(This is from the Cure's album Wild Mood Swings and the Cure are known for dismal depressing lyrics) put into the music and the delivery.  This is how much I love Rachel and Jonathan.  I wanted to wake up to her face every morning, kiss her forehead, let her know she was my best friend and being in her arms and with Jonathan was the happiest I had ever been.  Rachel just couldnt be patient and see that I was torn apart inside and that I would heal and I would have been more of who I was before.  Instead she took it as weakness, depression, and me being damaged and if she had of known how much I loved her and Jonathan and talked to me then maybe things would have been different.  This and the songs that follow represent the love that I still have for Rachel.


1. I Bought You - Tsunami Bomb https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y9f5by8kE-g   This song is about meeting someone who you admire and them being a disappointment.  I loved Rachel and I believed in her and I apparently was a disappointment to her because of the condition I was in. I loved her and though I couldnt give her all of me I gave her all of me that was there. My mother died I couldnt help that so I went on living and loving the best I could.  I am sorry that believing in you and Jonathan and not smiling when I was geocaching were grounds for you not loving me Rachel.  I did my best.


2. Its A Pose - Nellie Mckay https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6q6HKiF83aI This song is a look at how men are the evil in the world.  How a lot of men will fake to get what they want. I never wanted sex, to play with Rachel or Jonathan. I was and am truly in love with her.  I was patient and waited my whole life for someone like her and she accepted me then rejected me all in one moment and so how was I supposed to feel being played with and betrayed.  Sometimes men become like the men in the song because of women's actions.

3. Pretty Girl - Sugarcult https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0neh4spY8g I thought Rachel trusted me and loved me and I made her feel like this and when we I told her I loved her she believed it.  The fact I would go through so much to be with her should have shown her I was truly in love with her but she squandered it and I am still in love with her and think she is the most beautiful person ever.

4. Around My Heart - X https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o6Ri9gJnBHo  This band is celebrating their 35 Anniversary and on Saturday I will get to see them.  I was 10 yrs old when this came out. It has gotten me through many broken hearts.  Exene Cervenka and John Doe the singer and singer guitarist respectively were a couple and some of their music documents their tremoltous relationship.  Exene also has child with Viggo Mortensen for you Lord of The Rings movies fans he was "The KING" Aragorn.  The beautiful thing is that after the relationship went sour and one of the other members found Christ,  X was able to put aside their differences to just make music and share their gifts with the world.

5. Lost In You Eyes - Deborah Gibson https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Fahv-IxLaE I have no shame in telling anyone she is one of my musical inspirations.  I bought her second album "Electric Youth" on vinyl in 1988 when Cds and cassettes were the prefered method of listening to music and I believe through Christ the title of her 3rd album and first single from that single which was "Anything is Possible"  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07oiNi6NuPA  I got lost in Rachel's eyes and I still love her just as much and care for her as much as the first day I told her I loved her.  She can ignore that or she can embrace that.

7. One Hundred Stories - Alkaline Trio https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWdthBqaWhg I love Rachel so much and this song represents how deeply I fell in love with her.

8. Breaking Up - Violent Femmes https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LDL5g4G_OwY  This song is simply because Rachel abandoned me not knowing how much I truly cared.
9. Lacuna Coil - 1.19 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wsl64vYq4NE When Rachel abandoned me she called me a loser, put me down, said I was damaged, messed up and to someone who is grieving and has lost a parent it was the most evil thing ever.  I needed love and I found out just how many people were there for me and it was very few.  This song was there for me and it helped me grow and it is one reason this blog is still around.  I am not a loser. I am strong,  I will never back down.


10.  Merry Christmas Will Do - Material Issue
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuMb8-5906k  For returning my Christmas Card two years ago. For ignoring my plea for peace.  For putting your burden on the backs of others in your family and in the New Church this song is for you Rachel Myatt.  I loved you and Jonathan with all my heart and if you truly were the Good Christian Woman your sister Amanda once said you were then you would realize a man truly loves you and even after all the cruel things you did to me I am still waiting here with open arms trying to reach out to you but pride, arrogance, and bigotry keep you from making peace with me.  I hope that things change in the next couple of weeks but if they dont I want everyone here to know I love you and Jonathan.  God bless you and your family.


love Byron 

Songs For Rachel 3 : Interlude(Madness, True Love, and Ascertaining Reality)

Dear Rachel and Readers,
When you truly love someone then there is nothing you wont do to let them know.  "Madness" by Muse has been an inspirational song and has pushed me into the limits and parameters of if I do really love Rachel Myatt.  Yes I love her. I love you Rachel beyond all space and time and maybe you think I am crazy, I am weird, different, or maybe you agree with me and believe in the good in my heart.  The point is I believe in myself and I love Rachel and Jonathan with all the grace and good God gave me and that this love is real.  So November will be a month of spreading that love to others.  Rachel you can change your name, move, do whatever you want because you can't hide from God's love.  You can't hide from someone who loves you because in most cases that love was meant to be and even if it didnt seem like at first.  If a person loves you that much and you ignore it then you are ignoring a lot of good in your own heart.



Thank you for your time.

Songs For Rachel 3: Beautiful, True Love, Friendship

Dear Readers,
 My name is Byron.  I was, am, and always will be in love with Rachel Myatt.  Since Rachel is Canadian I wanted to use one of my favorite songs by Canadian band - Joydrop.  The album this song originally came from "Metasexual" out roughly about 1999 in the States and they tried playing some some of the songs here but it never caught on.  This song has never left my heart.  It is about how we are superficial, how we only see outside beauty instead of see what is in someone's heart and how beautiful they are inside.  Rachel had many flaws, insecurities, and lacked in many different departments but I loved her and felt she was a suitable mate and best friend because I could accept those lesser parts about her.  I never wanted to settle I chose her because I thought she was the best.  I love her and her son with all my heart and the only thing I want for Christmas is peace with her.  I would take her back and love her in a minute, sure I have said some harsh things and I have lost a lot trust and respect for her but everyone deserves a second chance.  Today instead of blast her and talk down I want to share with you happy moments of music that make and made me think about being with Rachel and Jonathan and how much I love them.  If Rachel and her family are reading then I hope they read this and contact me.

Songs for Rachel : Chapter 3


1. Alex Chilton - The Replacements.  - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8gFbr5rcVk 
I used to dance around to this song and dream of being with Rachel and Jonathan and have a family. I was so happy and in love with her.  Its one of the few happy memories I have left.  The song is about Alex Chilton of seminal 70s rock band Big Star who influenced many musicians.  It influenced me to love and believe in Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart.

2. New Mistake - Jellyfish - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHvgQDRpA-s If you love the Beatles or any classic rock band this was my generation's underated band.  Gen X's lost gem.  Rachel was the only woman with child that I ever wanted to marry and she is the only woman I have fully, completely, been in love with.    I love Rachel and Jonathan so much and this song is dedicated to them because I wanted to have both of them in my life as my loves, my strength, and happiness.

3. Looking For A Place To Happen(live)- Tragically Hip - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jm98RbKtrVc  I had almost given up on love and I had spent 5 years alone and when Rachel came to me God let me know she was the one and that I was going to have to fight for her.  I love you Rachel Myatt you were and are my place to happen and I would go to the four corners of the earth to let you know how much you and Jonathan mean to me and I cant make you see that it is up for you to open your eyes to that.

4. All Yours - Metric - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZFSpYfyk2s for a brief moment I thought Rachel loved me and the lifetime of being hated, ridiculed, bullied, and played with came to and end. I thought I was truly loved and I had a true friend in Rachel.  Now there are days when I feel like I should just lay down and give up because she betrayed that.  I love you so much Rachel and if we had of gotten married I wanted that song played to let you know you were and are the one.  I will never love again I belonged to you Rachel Myatt.

5. Sadness Pt 1 - Enigma - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4F9DxYhqmKw Just because not having you in my life is sad I miss you and love you and Jonathan.

6. Late in the Night - Heartless Bastards https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YaCKdHDYBJQ
I stay up somedays and day dream about Rachel and Jonathan like I did before all this happened and I wonder if she realizes that someone is truly in love with her and that this is not an infatuation, addiction, or obssesion. You were the first woman I had ever truly trusted.

End Part 1

The Golden Rule : Do Onto Others - Rachel's Arrogance Led to this Love Explosion

Dear Rachel and New Church,
Rachel you were my best friend.  I told you all my secrets, put my trust in you through Christ and you spit on it all.  It was your arrogance and your indecisiveness that put you in your situation.  You try to hide and make me look like the bad guy but people know all to well how much I love people and your guise and rouse wouldn't pass for a minute.  November all across the U.S. and Canada I will show you how much love I have for you and it will touch you and your family.  Just remember that people will see love in my heart and caring and the fact that I put my heart and soul into everything.  You could make the names of Myatt and Friesen be honorable but you sully the great people in your family by your actions constantly Rachel.  All I know is I wil stand up to that with love and continue to show you worldwide.  In November there will be some surprizes.  All I wanted was peace from you and your family Rachel but just remember two years ago just a couple months after my mother died how you so evily returned my Christmas Card.  I still have it in my closet for all to see if I wanted to put it up here but I wont.  You can leave your legacy of love or you can be bitter and hateful Rachel Myatt.  The choice is yours in the end.  I will speak on you and your family in a way you never imagined soon and I want others to know how you spoke on me and mine when all I did was reach out to you for love.  I dont care if you sue me because nothing you can do can hurt me now.  I would rather be poor, broke, and full of love than a hateful, judgmental, bitter person who doesnt realize her blessings like you.


God Bless ALL

Forgiveness is A Gift From God, Everybody Deserves A Second Chance(Is the Church of The New Jerusalem Different or just like the other Churches)?

Please take the time to watch from 4:28-4:55 as a prelude to this blog.

 

 

Dear Readers,
Everyone makes mistakes and says things that hurt other people.  Everyone deserves a second chance and for those who have read this and seen the power of forgiveness and love that flows through my heart I thank you.   I have my hand, my arms, and my heart out to Rachel willing to end this but she would rather stay stuck on foolish pride and prove me right about what I have been saying about the Church of the New Jerusalem.  Rachel you have a chance before the world to prove that the people in the COTNJ are different.  You can be forgiven by me and forgive me upon this platform for all to see, or you can continue to let this grow bigger and you become a living, breathing , example for all others to see.  I love you and Jonathan Rachel so I want to just say this to you, your family, and the Church.



To The Church of the New Jerusalem(New Church), Rachel Myatt, Myatt, Friesen, and Baker Families and Pastor Coleman Glenn and his Family.


You say you want to be the Church of Change, the one that helps bring people together through the Lord but instead of accepting others you find reasons to divide.  The Bible says that I should forgive Rachel and Rachel should forgive me but not once have I heard anything back from Rachel at all.  If she wants to ignore me for the rest of my life fine but it also gives me the right to deal with things the way I am going about them.  By being selfish, caring only about my feelings, and writing my story all over the world I am only trying to show her how selfish she and others in the New Church were being towards me.  Each time I pass out a flier, or write a blog it is devoid of feeling for Rachel and her families feelings which is the opposite of how I feel. I do love them.  I am in effect writing to show Rachel that there are consequence for each thing we do in life.  By not contacting me, by being scared to face up to the love and friendship she has in me she brings her family, the Church, and others in the fold reproach and shame.  She has to worry about what and where I am distributing materials to and who? If she had of made peace with me maybe we would be in each others life again or maybe, just maybe I would have moved on and wished her well. 

I want to stress 3 things I did in the relationship that Rachel did not do.

1. I was always honest with her, good and bad, I told her the truth and never had a reason to lie to her.
2. I gave her an amicable honest way out of the relationship, she chose to be cruel and lie to me and give me false hope.
3. Over the course of this blog I have promised to pull down this blog, and stop all campaign activity against both she and the New Church if she took a minute to pick up the phone and make peace with me.
It is not my fault she does not value someone with true Christian morals and someone who would fight against all odds to love her and make peace with her.

Pastor Coleman Glenn you are a big disappointment as a servant of God.  You carry on a long distance relationship with someone same as I did and then have to audacity to judge or question my love for someone and in the middle of it I lost a parent and you have no idea what dynamic that put into everything.  I am happy for you but I have no respect for you and I will not hesitate to use you as an example of hypocrisy and name you as one of the biggest hypocrites of all the the New Church. As for your "Lesser Evil" if Rachel had of told the truth and had of been kind none of this would ever happened but it keeps snowballing.  Two years now? Little White Lies may seem like the lesser evil but its just better to be honest and do what is right.  Doing what is right may always not be what feels good but sometimes it is what is necessary.  I am sorry you thought so little of my love for Rachel and didn't see as a person in my situation yourself how much being in love with her meant to me. You reap what you sow.

 

Lastly to the Myatt family, you are all very selfish. Look around at all the blessings you had and all I ever wanted was to love you all.  I havent had an easy life and I should either be in jail or dead by societies standards.  As a black man I should have 2.5 kids and have all these things thrown on me but I overcame all the stereotypes and at 37  I am a single Christian man who still believes in love.  I wanted to give my all to Rachel and Jonathan and I wanted all you to be my brothers, sisters, aunts, and mothers and fathers too because all I really have now is my little brother and my sick Dad who I watch over.  All they wanted was for me to go love Rachel and Jonathan and you dear Myatts and everyday that I dont hear from one of you or you pretend like I dont exist is another day my heart breaks and I get jaded to believe that there are good people in the world.  I dont get on here to slander Rachel but to show her my disgust with both her and all of you.  She had a man who was barely alive love her enough to come see her at one of the lowest points of his life but he believed in Jonathan and herself.  You are not thankful for all the blessings in your life, all the kids, the grandkids, and just being full of love.  That is all that I wanted and I am sorry for whatever reason any of you didnt like me or had to lie to me but the things that Rachel said to you and about me were just ludicrious. Pastor Glenn writes a newsletter about being happy for others to be blessed but you didnt and dont want that for me do you Myatts? Part of that process would be Rachel making peace with me.  I am a fighter,  Christ is my Rock, My Shepherd, My Father, and My Strength so here I stand before you tonight Rachel and the Myatts and say do you have the courage to make the first move? Or is everything I say true and my newsletters and campaign go on telling of a young lady, her church, and her family and how they abandon and turn their back to certain people and still claim to be a Christian.  I have nothing but love for you all but it it means I have to make a campaign and put each one of your names on it along with Rachel and ask for Peace with you around the world before anyone contacts me I will and you know I will.  The choice is up to you Rachel and Myatt family.  Words are the greatest weapons and music will help me continue to voice my expressions.

So I ask you  Rachel, Myatt and Friesen Family, Dawson Creek New Church,  COTNJ worldwide and Pastor Coleman Glenn.  I your brother Byron come to you in peace and ask that you come to me in peace and end this.  Rachel my sister it is you I need to hear from so if you or your family read this share it with each other.  This is my last attempt before Christmas before I spread my Christmas Campaing of love for you all.

I end it with this.

God Bless You ALL and Amen.

 

The Worst Canadian Girl

To The Myatt Women,
I just want all the men in Canada to know Rachel Myatt is a shitty girlfriend, a two faced friend, and a horrible person for ever saying anything about my mother or me at the time.  If I wasn't a loving person I would have trashed her in ways unthinkable but I still have love for you and your family Rachel. I am sorry that you cant comprehend that someone might actually care for you as much as I did but I did.  Somewhere I think I still might but for Christmas this year, you are going to get the gift of exposure.  Thanks for the crappy treatment, disrespect of my family, and no regard for true love, friendship, and integrity.  Whatever you bring on your Church and Family you did it yourself.  Don't blame me for telling the truth and dont go crying slander because you opened your freaking mouth, talked shit, and someone stood up to you and the people around you who were snake oil salesman.  I am sorry you would disrespect my family when all I did was love you.  I wish I never met you, never gave you my love, my time, nor my friendship,  you are a fucked up, miserable, person Rachel Myatt and God only knows why I spent almost two years writing a blog to someone who acts like a spoiled bitch.  You didn't even deserve this but you do deserve to be outed and put on display for ever saying anything ill toward my family.  I loved you and Jonathan and would have died for you.  You know what? Out of all the Canadian woman I have met you are the worst because the others I dated are still my good friends. You use people abuse them and manipulate them, and when things don't go your way you try to blame them for everything make them some kind of villain to support your own fucked up cowardice and insecurities, so may all that fall back on you and your family and your bitter and hateful lies and attitude consume you.  You sick two faced bugger!!!!

How Women Like Rachel Hurt Single Mothers Reputations and Chances in Relationships

Dear Readers,
The above clip is from one of my favorite movies called "Personal Velocity" It is about 3 different women in 3 different situations and how they deal and cope with them.  Delia's story was about finding and loving herself after being in an abusive relationship.  I wanted to write this blog today to let people know how deeply women like Rachel making it hard for single mothers to find good men and how easy it is for bad man to take advantage of them.  The way Rachel treated me has traumatized me to never even look at a single mother again.  They disgust me.  I had a woman who was interested in dating me lie to me the other night about having a child.  She told me that she did finally knowing that I would not give her the time of day otherwise.  I was honest with her and I told her I could not give her what she wanted and I told her about Rachel and how Rachel betrayed and played with my heart.  I am going to tell a story and if it hurts Rachel I am sorry it needs to be told so that you understand the extent of her betrayal, lies, and her actions.


Rachel had a child with a young man who got two other ladies pregnant at the same time.  In the end the young man chose one of the other ladies and it left Rachel bitter for a long time.  Though she acted like she had gotten over him in the end she was still in love with him and when we were together or would talk she would talk about him subconsciously not knowing how deeply that hurt me.  I had been hurt by other girls too but Rachel was my focus and loving her was all I wanted to do. My past made me want my future to be about her and Jonathan.  Ladies and Gentleman not only did I live almost 2000 miles away but I was willing to give up everything to be with her and Jonathan ,her son. I wanted to be there for both of them. I wanted to be the stepdad full time that Jonathan's biological dad couldnt be.  I wanted to give him all my attention, play with him, help him in his choices, and love both he and Rachel in an enviroment that I thought was humble and Christian.  Boy was I wrong? Rachel had a good man right in front of her and what did she do? She pushed me away, cursed me, said ill things towards me and my deceased mother.  She said I was damaged, a loser, psycho, and all these other things and she had said these same things to me about the guys before who tried to date her.  The problem is not me or the other guys.  Rachel is the problem and she is the one who needs to take a look in the mirror.  She uses her faith "The Church of the New Jerusalem"  http://www.newchurch.org/ as a reason to treat men bad.  She said no guy could ever love her because of her faith.  She uses that faith to justify the evil that she says and does. Fact of the matter is my mother had just died.  I had promised Rachel I would come be with her and Jonathan and I did.  My mother on her deathbed wanted me to go see them instead of watch er die but I told her I could not.  When I got there to Canada because I was a little slow and lethargic I guess Rachel took that as me not being interested in things and she used that against me. I loved being with her family and I loved doing everything we did together but I was in a greiving state and as my girlfriend who promised to be there for me and understand I thought that is what I would recieve.  Instead a couple days later I got a text telling me we could be together and no explanation.  I was at work. I broke down in tears and later that night I almost died. For 3 months I was in a catatonic state where I barely ate, I cried, and I hurt like I never hurt before. I realized then that no one that selfish, evil, and self centered was going ot hurt another man like that.  So I started this campaign to let Rachel know not only that she missed out on a good man and best friend but to address others on how people in the Church of the New Jerusalem view relationships with men.  She has two other sisters who have multiple kids out of wedlock.  She also has treated two other men the way she treated me but they were supposedly Canadian.  I was willing to give up my country, my family, and come worship with her in British Columbia.  I was selfless, I wanted to raise Jonathan as my own, and I loved both she and him.  She messed it up though.  What Rachel also doesn't realize is that she is setting an example for Jonathan and how his relationships with women will affect him in the future.


Message to Single Mothers Everywhere
Playing games with a man who truly wants a family, a loving wife and partner, and children is just wrong and when Rachel and her family can own up to what she did then maybe I can let this go. So many women complain about wanting someone real and I gave her courtship, true friendship, and kept my promises and was met with deception, lies, and ridicule.When a good man comes along then actually give him a chance. If he wants to have a family, is good to you and your children, especially if he is childless and has lots of love to give then you may want to think twice about letting him go.  Men and Women should guard their hearts but don't be so bitter and hateful from all the other relationships that you close your mind to the good that could be in your life.  I told Rachel because she had a kid I could never be with her she told me I would never be with her.  In the end we did end up with each other for short while and it was because those doors or ignorance were knocked down for both of us.  I now find myself in that position again but this time I probably wont break it.  When you hurt the men who treat you good and you embrace the men who abuse you and treat you bad, men look at that.  A man like me will become jaded and bitter because I see an abusive man with a nice woman who deserves much more knowing I could love her but not getting the chance.  I love Rachel Myatt with all my heart and this blog is not because I hate her or want revenge, it is because I want her to see and take responsibility of how she acts and treats people.  For all the single mothers out there who find nice guys, keep them, love them, appreciate them and you just might be surprized how the world might change.  Rachel I am truly sorry that you and your family could not see how much I loved and still love you and Jonathan but it has changed my life.  You were the one and still are the one but you didnt love yourself enough to see blessing was at your feet.
A Page out of the New Church Book
http://www.newchurch.org/about/news/eric-carswell-take-responsibility-sermon.html

I put my faith in God and this is all in His hands. I write, I love, I hurt, I believe, but only Rachel will open her eyes in her time, and it will only be through God this will come to an end.
I love you Rachel and Jonathan Myatt.

God Bless ALL

Church of the New Jerusalem and The False Face of Christianity

Religion is Dangerous - It Impedes Human Progress Like A Virus. Its A Global Opiate for the Masses. It numbs us with feel good magical thinking and inflates our egos -   Taken from From  Punk Rock Jesus  by Sean Murphy


I want RACHEL MYATT, the MYATT family, and Pastor Coleman Glenn and anyone in the Church of the New Jerusalem or anyone of religious belief to think about what was just said and to focus on the part in red.




You say you want to be the Religion of Change well come on New Church, Church of the Jerusalem!!!! All I see is Pastor's preaching one thing yet doing and living another ...........Pastor Coleman Glenn step right on down shun and tell a person what they are not doing is right while secretly you are doing almost the same thing behind the curtian.  Myatt family pretend to not be biased and redneck and treat some black people good cause they are children and threat other ones like dirt because they lost a relative even though they had nothing but love for you and even believed and cared about Rachel.  A good man was on her doorstep but because they are grieving lets call them crazy and abandon them and also lets try to embarass them and call them mentally ill and say that they dont love God so being evil towards another looks justified.  You want to be the religion of acceptance but you dont accept anyone.  You want to argue your points but when someone makes valid points that make you look bad you make excuses and to me all Swedenborg did was make up rules and take the parts of the Bible to make his own selfish life have meaning.  We already have that its called hedonism and you cant put lipstick on a pig.   Just call it by its name.  You say you want blessings for other people but maybe about 2 people wanted any blessings toward me and God will bless those people 10 fold.  The Myatt family and Rachel and the others who should be reaching out for peace with me well they hide and cower like the Bitches they are(Yes I said it because their arrogant, daughter, sister, aunt, or whatever the hell she is to them couldn't be a woman and step up and take responsibility for what she did) She deserves every bit of what I have said and am going to say and the longer she stays silent the louder my voice gets and I dont care who I hurt because no one cared when I was hurting. All I got was ridicule and excuses and when I tried to be the better man and show that I truly loved her I got Pastor's like Derrick Lumsden crying that I was being unloving when he didnt even try to read into any of the story.  We are all accountable for our actions.  I am accountable for what I say and do on here and I am aware of it.  So I press on.  Rachel will have to deal with what she did and it will ring in her ears like a firecracker before I am done.  If she truly wanted change she would have picked up the phone and made peace with me by now but she and and her family like being a spectacle and bringing reproach on the New Church.  Rachel likes being selfish and evil.  So maybe I should try that because that seems to be the way of the false lord nowadays.   I am willing to talk with anyone who has some sense but I still wait for one of the Myatts especially Rachel or Shelly Jane to step forward.  When they do and admit this was about Religion and it was disrespectful to me and my mother then I will end this until then I am going to go rampant and nothing you can do or say will stop the campaign or where I am taking it. It is simply freedom of speech and expression of my distaste with Religion especially the evils of the Church of the New Jerusalem.   Because of Rachel and her family I dont even believe in Christmas and I have a special story to spread around the world for Christmas called "How the Church of the New Jerusalem Made Me Not Believe in Christmas"  Im done with your lies and you thinking I was just some kind of joke this is real and you are a bunch of lying wankers.

Opening Yourself Up To Ridicule and Using It : To Rachel and Shelly Jane Myatt

This is especially to Rachel , and her mother Shelly Jane Friesen Myatt, and to Pastor Coleman Glenn.  I want to apologize first for the nature of some of the words in this video if you do not have an open mind about the point I am trying to make then please do not watch it. 

This clip is from the movie "8 Mile" starring rap superstar Eminem which is loosely based on his life.  It is the final battle scene between him and his nemesis in the film Poppa Doc.   The reason why he wins the battle is because all the other people had to throw at him he goes ahead and admits all that is true that the other person was going to use against him.  He accepts who he is and makes it his strength not his weakness.   If a lot of people havent seen that is what I have been doing the course of this blog then they are missing the point.  I have held nothing back I have told about all the bad things that happened in my life to the whole world now . I told about being molested,  racist,  my views on sex and courtship,  Rachel and I being intimate, and yes I am a little bit crazy but I am not mentally ill or mentally sick and if I would I would accept it and move on and not let some hateful person like Rachel or Jane say ill things about me and bring me down.  At first it did but now because I have built up something that makes them look bad because of what they said they have to run and hide.  I dont have to because I was truthful.  Pastor Glenn was carrying on a long distance relationship much like I did with Rachel and is about to be married but tried to judge me for what I am doing.  That is ok that hypocrisy especially as a servant of God will soon slap you right back on the face.  Rachel and Jane have tried to hide everything on the internet and not post anything up or put in in private in fear that I might exploit it.  The fact that I have that much power over you is ludicrious if you were so proud of talking shit about me and my momma you would not have to hide.  If you were truthful about your bigotry you wouldn't have to hide.  Just go ahead and say it Jane you thought Rachel was too good for me and that Rachel was coearced by you and others to blow me off and lie to me.  Ill stand behind that statement. Just admit Coleman that you and the people up in the Dawson Creek New Church dont really want any people of color up in your Church hell Coleman I saw maybe 2 Black People on your whole facebook page.  Just admit you want to be Redneck and keep us darkies out and not breed or love your daughters or sons? I have more respect for people who are out with their prejudices than people who coyly and slyly try to hide behind them.  I have all the ammuniton I need now.  I do know about you trying to get sites to block my blog and if it doesnt stop then I will just keep putting it up in different places and print more of my newsletter and blogs on paper.  I am not standing down to you people.  I loved you Rachel, Jonathan, and Jane all I ever wanted to do was come back and be a part of your lives but I was ridiculed and damaged so much then Rachel laughed at my pain and my hurt and I will never forget that.  So I hope those that read this understand where I am coming and why I will just press.  I have nothing but love for Rachel , the Myatt, Friesen, and Glenn families but they have to understand the nature of what they essentially created in judging me.


God Bless ALL

Love To Rachel and Shelly Jane

To Those who Judged my state of mind and physical well being.  To those who would say ill things toward my ill mother.  To those who couldnt see my love as a blessing in their lives.  Here is the shape of things to come. I will just pray for you.  I will continue loving you. I will continue to see you as friends and family even though you turned me away.  Love conquers all.  While you are busy ignoring me.  I am busy spreading the message of love for now and for Christmas.  I know my mom forgives you.  I forgive you.  I only wish the best for you even though you thought ill of me. 

God Bless  ALL

Premonitions of Truth

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All the lies that kept snowballing.  The attempts to hold the truth back.  That time is over......


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The Truth Worldwide
11/13/12

A Christmas Wish 3 : Peace with Rachel, the Myatt, & the Church of the New Jerusalem

First I dedicate 4 A.M by Gwen Stefani to Rachel and Jonathan Myatt because every since I have loved them this song has been a testament to how much I love them.  If you listen to the words its about truly loving someone Gwen wrote it about her then baby Kingston.  I think it is endearing song about true love and if any of you haven't truly read my blog and only tried to find bad in it then you have not read my blog.  I love Rachel and Jonathan more than she or her family could ever know and God has given me a love well greater than anything I have ever experienced.  I love you Rachel so today I ask for peace with you.


A Christmas Wish 3.

The past two years all I have asked for from anyone is not for material things but for people to pray for peace and reconcilation between Rachel and I.   Love is what I believe in and peace at a time when Jesus was brought to earth to bring about a peace and love in our hearts is what Christmas should be about.  If Rachel and The Myatt family cannot find it in their hearts to make peace with me after 3 Christmases then that is truly sad.  It is a testament to where their hearts are as a family and an example of the Church of the New Jerusalem.  I have nothing but love for you all and if you truly understood the tears I still cry for Rachel and Jonathan and how real my love is and was then you never would have coerced or made Rachel think that I didnt truly love her or wasn't meant for her.  After all I did to be with her I know she loved me and wanted to be with me someone said something to hold her back and make her feel like she wasnt worth of my love because I always heard her hesitation.  May God forgive that person and may they think different after they see how determined and how much I love her and Jonathan.



My Father in the Heavens,
Today I ask for your love, your guidance, your serenity, peace, and patience.  I ask that you bless all the Myatts, Friesens, Bakers, and Pastor Coleman Glenn and his family.  I ask that you continue to steer me on a path of love,  reconciliation, and peace.  To all those who try to put me down I will continue to love.  To all those who hate me I will take with me your example and show kindness and may they slap both of my cheeks and I still call them brother or sister.  I ask that you keep me walking on your path to righteousness and love. 

Amen.


If you read this and you believe in the love that I believe in then say a prayer for peace and that will be the only Christmas Wish I have again this year.  Each prayer and thought does matter.  Thank you for your time. 

Silence : Makes Me Speak Louder

I want to say everything yet very little in a few sentences today.  Rachel Myatt I love you more than anyone in the world and the longer you keep silent the greater my cause and my love becomes.  It is up to you and the people around you how far that you want that to go.  The video above is from Australia's the Grates.  When Rachel first came into my life I sent her a picture of Patience the singer and I dancing around. I sent her a bunch of pictures of me with my favorite singers and most of them were women.  What she could not understand is that I love and respect women as my equals and I know that a man has a different place in the universe as does a woman but we also compliment each other.  Rachel asked me how she could compete if I knew all these beautiful women.  I told her my love was for her and I would never stray I was truly in love with her and I still am.   No matter how crazy the Myatt and Friesen family thinks I am or anyone in the New Church for that matter I really am in love with Rachel and its not romantic love its a love that transcends boundaries beyond that so that is why I have kept up what God wants me to do and that is to continue to love her and believe in her.  Rachel you are my best friend.  You can continue to keep silent and ignore me but I wont stay silent and my voice grows louder everyday.



The terrible silence went on. It became more and more like a face, a face not without sadness, that looks upon you while you are telling lies, and never interrupts, but gradually you know that it knows, and falter, and contradict yourself, and lapse into silence.

—Perelandra by C.S. Lewis

“I have learned now that while those who speak about one’s miseries usually hurt, those who keep silence hurt more.”

C.S. Lewis If I have hurt you or your family in anyway dear Sister then I am sorry but I am not sorry for loving you, believing in you, and not giving up on you and Jonathan and I will not keep silent on that front.  I will speak louder, and with more vigor, and confidence because I truly love and care for you.

The Love Rachel Never Deserved : I Hope The Myatt Family is Happy

Rachel never deserved my love at all.  Everytime a blessing is in front of her she abuses it.  She uses her faith the Church of the New Jerusalem as a crutch and reason to treat people a certain way.  It seems like it is her whole reason for being.  That is fine if you want to be brainwashed and manipulated into thinking you are superior or intellectually on a higher plain but from what I saw its just some New Age Redneck Babble about denying a lot of God's rules and replacing them with Swedenborg's words and his thoughts.  Jesus should always come first.  The 60's freelove thing happened a long time ago.  Some of us were raised gentleman and I was raised never to kiss and tell but Rachel in her case had to be humbled. God has had a plan all along.  He knows how much I love Rachel and I have never stopped loving her but I also dont forget the things she did or said.  I thought my love was worth giving away to her and that she acted like she wanted to give me her love "hence the saying in the picture box above".  I hope that you are happy Rachel Myatt and the Myatt family. I leave you with these notes for examination of how much you meant to me and how your actions have changed me as a person.


1. I have very few people I trust and call friend but you were my best friend.  I will never trust another woman again.


2. I told God I would never give another single mother a chance, when I met you I loved you with all my heart and Jonathan and wanted nothing but to be with both of you forever.  Now if I see a single mother or one tries to flirt with me I wont give them the time of day. They disgust me because of you.


3. The fact that a foster mother and single mother could be so cold, evil, and arrogant.  You are supposed to be loving,  kind, and accepting and you werent very accepting of me just losing my mother.  I loved you and Jonathan enough Rachel where I did everything I could to get to you and you had to make up bullshit things like I didnt like geocaching which I do and did and that I didnt like doing the things you did.   You would lie to get your way and that shows no integrity.  I have severe respiratory problems and have since I was born but I still climbed the falls with you and your mother and Jonathan.  I still go to the gym and work out 4 times a week. I walk,  jog, and I never let anyone tell me I cant do something because of my condition.  So the simple fact is you wanted to make things up.


4. I have never seen anyone use their faith so profusely to hurt another.  You deserve this blog and my newsletter telling everything and you deserve to hide in shame because you never appreciated my friendship, my courtship, my true love, nor my determination and the fact that I never gave up on you.  Many woman would be scolding you and to this day friends of mine hate you for how you have changed me.  I believed in true love and I only wanted it with you Rachel Myatt.  You think that everytime you screw someone over that God will just make things right for you and you can be selfish and treat people how ever you want.  That is not the way God works.  He is not here for your personal pleasure to use as a scapegoat.  Now do you see why I say that the New Church shows forms of hedonism, Satanic displays of self love, and humanistic in nature not God's form of love. 


5. Rachel you set an example for single moms, foster moms, and people in the Church of the New Jerusalem so everytime someone reads this in the printed newsletter, online, or anywhere you bring reproach and shame to not only your family but your faith and to yourself. 




I loved you Rachel Myatt with all my heart and you pretended to love me and want to be in my life, all the while setting me up for cruel joke and abandoning me when I needed a friend the most.  Should I feel guilty for telling this story to as many people as I have or will.  No! Because I came to you as my Sister in Christ,  I came to the Church,  I came to your family and no one replied who truly needed to and that was Rachel or the Myatts.  I have nothing further to say.

If You Have To Know How Much I Love You Today Rachel Myatt.........

Dear Readers,

I open with this scripture from the Song of Solomon

2 . I am the rose of Sharon,And the lily of the valleys.
Above are the songs "Rose of Sharyn" by Killswitch Engage and "Song of Solomon" by Kate Bush.  I have been a fan of both for years and own the albums each respective song was taken from.


Rachel Myatt was to me the most beautiful flower I had ever seen and I loved and still love her very much.  I was willing and still am to give my life for her and once you have smelled the sweetest flower of fields no others will do.   I have many women that want to date me and I do go out on dates I am not sitting around moping but I know the person I love is Rachel Myatt.  I do not care if people want to make me out into less than someone that is truly in love with her.  I know what is in my heart.  I love Rachel and Jonathan like my own flesh and if she wanted me to stop all this all she had to do was come to me and I would stop the blog, the campaign, and anything I am doing.  I love Rachel enough to just walk away from her for ever but it has to come from her lips.  If you want all this to end then step forward Rachel.  I will leave you alone for the rest of your life but it seems like deep inside somewhere you might be realizing that someone truly loves you and maybe your family sees that too.  I am a man  who believes in you.  You were and always will be my special flower and I don't think I can ever love anyone again because I am so in love with you.  Remember how you read all those Stephanie Meyer "Twilight Saga" books for me Rachel?  Well it was because I believed in true love forever and those books struck a chord with me not so much of the story but because of what Bella had to go through to eventually have love of her family, friends, and suffer against all odds to be happy.  Rachel I ask you today to open your heart to me again.  The only thing I want for Christmas is peace with you again.  I love you Rachel Myatt and everyday you deny me your love a piece of my soul dies. I leave you with this prayer.


Our Heavenly Father
Thank you for our daily bread, the love kindness, and guidance you give us.  Thank you for each breath of life we take.  I want to thank you for bringing Rachel and Jonathan in my life and today just bless them.  Bless Rachel's entire family Myatts, Friesens, and Bakers.  Bless Pastor Coleman Glenn and his family, his fiancees family, and all his congregation.  Bless the Church of the New Jerusalem.  I ask you to bestow blessings and watch over all of your Children and to help each and everyone of us to see our true potential in this life you have given us.  Praise be in your name.

Amen



Rachel Myatt, you are my flower, my Rose of Sharon, my heart, my soul, and the only person I have ever loved as much.  Please come back to my heart. I miss you and Jonathan everyday and tears are still shed,  sadness still looms, and most of all there is true love above it all.  I love you with all my heart and I will never stop.  I hope that you will soon end this silence and see that like the song I once put on a cd for you http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sICCvG4peps "I Am The Man Who Love You" That continues to hold true my dear and it always will.

I want you to think about this dear Rachel.  I love you enough I am willing to walk away from you forever and never, write, say, or even speak your name again - Yet you hesitate to contact me.  Is it because you deep inside are beginning to realize how much I love you and that no other guy would ever make a fuss over you like I have or is it just foolish pride.  If you pick up the phone and call me I will stop it all the blog,  campaign, songs, videos in one moment I will end it all but making peace with me means nothing to you because I have made that promise for months so there must be something else holding you .  I love you and if you choose to respond my arms are wide open to you and I will keep my promise.  You have to have the courage though to open your heart to that..... All the people who have been sucked into this your child, your family, your church, me, my friends and family, Pastor Glenn and others and a phone call could end it all.  You have the power to change something or you have the power to ignore it and let it get bigger.  You Decide...................................

Up From The Ashes/The Underdog Will Rise/ God's Plan in His Time

Dear Readers,
Rachel, her family, and all those New Church people who scoffed at me for being brave enough to call her out never thought things would go this far.  As the holidays roll around I reflect as I am about to do something that is going to make the situation grown in size and contact.

God always had a plan.  Part of His Plan was for me to find out just how strong I was.  At my darkest moment when I could have ended I didnt because I loved Rachel and Jonathan.  I told Rachel that if I lived that there would be a fight one like she had never seen before.  That was God sending those words through me at the time because I was so full of hurt, rage, and despair after she abandoned me I didnt even want to think of what was next.  I know part of this fight was to humble Rachel to the fact that she cant treat people the way she has me and others.  I honestly do love her and she treated all that was good and special about our relationship like it was a joke.  Later in the week I am going to write a special presentation called "How Single Mother Like Rachel Ruin Men's Perception of Single Mothers" Rachel complained no one wanted to love her and accept her the way she was and there I was willing to put it all on the line to just give my life to her and Jonathan and to her it was like I was a doormat. I still love her very much and I hope from time to time she reads this and understands the depth, brevity, and seriousness of what she did.

I dedicated the song "The Underdog" by Texas band Spoon because this best represents my life and what I aspire to be.  I never give up,  I always love, and in the end I know its God's love above man that will continue to lift me, shape my perception of things, and bring me closer to eternal life.  I wont live my life hypocritical to the things I say. I wont be like some of these New Church Pastors writing certain things online but living the exact opposite or secretly doing things behind others back while advising others to live a certain way.  No I rose from the ashes and through it all I know that God has a plan for me.  Rachel is about to experience a big part of that plan and it will send her star status in the New Church over the edge.  She will be known as "The Girl Who Set fire to Someones Heart and Started a Revolution"  So remember Rachel you and your family can hide, not put pictures up on the net, not post on youtube, do whatever but that just shows how I affected you.  It shows that Rachel admits guilt for what she does and though she tries to make me out as some villain and her the victim to protect her and Jonathans identity she knows that she is just a coward.  I would never do anything to hurt a child but I will continue to keep a picture of two people I love on the net.  I would never do anything to exploit children.  I will expose his mother and I will make it known the kind of person you are Rachel Myatt because no man ever deserves the cruel and dishonest nature you have as a woman.  You ruin it for single mothers everywhere and when I write that selection maybe you will think about what you truly did.  Until then Rachel Myatt, Myatt, Friesen, and Baker Families,  New Church Worldwide have a good week there is more to come and for my holiday campaign Love, Good, and Truth will shine bright and in the end Rachel will have to look in the mirror and she when she turned her back on love why this is all happening.  Its happening because God allows it and wants it to happen.  Not cause of my selfish free will......

I Love You Rachel Myatt, I am still calling out for peace with you Sister.  I love you and Jonathan with all my heart. No matter how ill you treat me, or ignore me, or try to make me look bad.  My love for you was a covenant and promise I made to God and I will always honor that.

Romans 12:2

² Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.


God Bless ALL

How Deeply The Myatt Family and New Church of Dawson Creek Hurt and Changed My Life

First Take A Look At 15:30-16:08 and that is the only Part that Matters for this Blog

Please Look at 13:25-40, 14:45-22:20, 32:30-35-15, and finally 40:15 - 44:25



To the Myatt Family, Pastor Coleman Glenn, To The Church of the New Jerusalem and To Rachel Myatt.


If you want to know how much I truly love Rachel Myatt and was hurt and betrayed by her then watch the above videos at the points listed.   I saw across all lines, ethnicity, nationality, religious, and creed to love Rachel because God put that love in me to never see anything but love and good in people.  It is betrayal like Rachel's that makes people bitter and turns what is good in them into evil.  When Robert Reed's Character talks about one part of the family the transgressor hurting the rest of it then one should think I can forgive her but she not only hurts her Natural family but also her Church family. Rachel Myatt was my best friend and I love her more than anyone on earth but what she did and said to me almost killed me inside and it has changed me into someone totally different.  I do not know how to be racist or judgmental of people because of religion or ethnicity.  My fathers family originated from Africa and my mothers family originated from Wales and were white.  My great great great grandfather was a Mason and we all know that Mason's in the purest form cannot be anything but Caucasian men.  I come from a family that accepts everyone and loves others no matter their differences.  I recently found out I might have some white relatives I never knew about because of someone I met who lives in my city here in my hometown both I and the person I met started look into the possibility of being family.  I want the Myatts to know you have personally hurt me on a level that I will never forget and that Rachel and Jonathan were the loves of my life.  My life will never be the same again and the pain that was cause by the actions of both the Myatt family and the Church of the New Jerusalem will continue to shape my life.  My campaign has just begun.  If there were anyone brave enough from the Myatt family to step forward since Rachel hides I would maybe change my mind on things but they know in their hearts what someone or some people said to Rachel changed what could have been true love and they have damaged something beautiful.  I just continue to pray and love and if you want to know why I continue to do the things I do.  It is just that.  I love Rachel and Jonathan and I will never break that promise I made.

Rachel you turned your back on me when I needed you most and then cursed me over things I couldnt control. I never wanted my mom to die and I couldnt make myself be any more than I was at the time.  One thing I know is that my promise to be with you and Jonathan I wanted to keep and so I did and you punished me for it and all the secrets I told you, you used those against me and tried to say I was mentally ill and it was in that moment I realize how truly evil people could be especially people in the Church of the New Jerusalem.  I would never promise to be there for someone then turn my back on them, shun them, and pretend like they didnt exist like you did to me.  If you want to know why all this is happening New Church it is because of the self love you teach along with Swedenborg's and not of giving of yourself to others or being loving or charitible to others before yourself.

God Bless All

The Church Of New Jerusalem - Redneck Cult in Canada - A sign of things to come

Dear Readers,
Since we all know that the Church of the New Jerusalem doesnt pass judgment on others or constantly put down other Christians I am just going to let you leave the title of this blog up for interpretation.  I wont speak but let the song give you an idea.  I have a newsletter about to go into circulation about Rachel's cultish talk to me and how certain Pastors saying things that were very disturbing and cultlike. Saddest thing of all they didnt want any of us dark people to love any of them up there.  I only tell what I know and what they let become true.  So the part about this being a sign of things to come.  It is a sign of what Rachel has led me to share with the world. 


God Bless ALL.

Slavery to Our Own Sin - Why Rachel Cannot Make Peace With Me

RACHEL MYATT, PASTOR COLEMAN GLENN, MYATT FAMILY, AND CHURCH OF THE NEW JERUSALEM.


Rachel needs to really think about the evil that has been done and how while she thinks hiding and ignoring me is for the best in the end she is the slave to what she has done.  I know I am free because I no longer hold anything back.  Yes I love her and I hurt and wish she would come back but I am no longer chained to what she did.  I share it with others so that she wont do it to others and so that the Church of the New Jerusalem knows what kind of people that it has in its fold misconstruing and destroying their message.  Just take a brief moment to look at this passage from one of your own books today. For all those who want to judge me and say what I am doing in my campaign is wrong it is wrong to you because you choose not to see the evil that is being done in your organization or that Rachel did to me.  You choose not to see that I love her so much I kept my promises to her, I have put myself out to the world, shared my feelings, and true love and I no longer have any fear.  I have more love than some people can ever imagine.  My sister Rachel I love you. I am calling on you to lay down you weapons and come back to my heart and arms.  Only you can choose that my friend.


New Jerusalem and Its Heavenly Doctrine.  142.
142. Doing evil by free choice looks like freedom, but it is slavery, because that freedom comes of self-love and love of the world, and these loves are from hell. Such freedom is after death actually turned into slavery, for a person who indulged in such freedom then becomes in hell a lowly slave.
But doing good by free choice is real freedom, because it comes of love to the Lord and love towards the neighbour, and these loves are from heaven. This freedom also lasts after death, and then becomes true freedom; for a person who enjoys such freedom becomes in heaven as it were a son of the house. This the Lord teaches in these words:
Everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin. A slave does not remain in the house for ever; the son remains for ever. If the son makes you free, you will be truly free. John 8:34-36.

Myatt Family : You Cant Stop God's Love, The Determination of the Oppressed, Good vs Evil.

Dear Myatts, Friesens, and New Church

I love Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart.  After all the cruel words, the ignorant allegations against me, the judgmental state of my well being : I still have love for you all.  I never saw color, religion, creed, nationality, or anything loving Rachel Myatt.  Myatts, Friesens, and New Church you fail to see the nature of my battle and that God comes to those with strength, courage, and humility and gives those people great power.  He has given me the power to love so my story is my strength.  My constant love for Rachel and Jonathan is my passion and my truth.  Maybe one day Rachel will realize the damage she has done and maybe not.  One thing that is for sure I never gave up on her she was part of the struggle I face on a daily basis.  I dedicate the song "You Cant Stop Us Now" by Nas from the album originally called "Nigger" this is to symbolize the strength of black people through the ages.  While I do not listen to a lot of rap or hip hop this statement and the picture made me love this album and what it stood for.  You can oppress people religiously, spiritually, and physically but with God on ones side you cannot take that away and that is why I have persisted.  Rachel has no idea how much love I have and what is about to take place but it is going to be grand. 


God Bless All

Imagine Love, Forgiveness, Integrity: Imagine This Blog Ending and Peace Happening

Dear Readers,
Imagine a world full of love, less judgment, and more acceptance.  Imagine people who hurt each other making peace.  I dedicate these songs "Imagine" by John Lennon as reinterpreted by A Perfect Circle and "If I Fall Back Down" by Rancid.    The Rancid song is about true friendship and integrity and lately I have been looking at the New Church site and seen alot about it but if people like Rachel have none how does that reflect on the Church as a whole.  If you betray and lie to those people who are true friends, honest, and loyal to you like Rachel did to me. I just want people to stop and think about why I am doing this blog and still telling this story about a relationship gone sour.  It is because I truly did love this person and they stabbed me in the back in so many ways that the only way I know to make things right is to kill her with kindness, love, and to let the whole story be told to as many people as possible.  John Lennon would have been 72 yrs old this year and he would have been saddened by the way the people treat each other.  If Christ were walking the earth today He would be ashamed that people like Rachel would profess to be of His Word but not practice it.  All I know is I love you Rachel but I have to make this as public as possible so that you and Church of the New Jerusalem people dont misconstrue God's Word to hurt others.


God Bless ALL