A Dedication To My Friend and Sister in Christ I Love and Cherish.
"The Letters To Rachel Project"
This site is not meant to demean nor defame my friend in anyway it is a heartfelt attempt at peace and reconciliation
It was Jane Child a young Canadian woman who made me truly fall in love with female musicians. Her 1989 album simply titled Jane Child was important to me for one reason other than the music. It says Written, Produced, and Performed by Jane Child. She did it all by herself. At 19 and 20yrs old the fact that someone put in work like she did I was amazed. The music was amazing and ahead of its time.
When Rachel Myatt and her cult New Church got under my skin a couple of years ago I always wanted to know this. They want people to embrace both the good and evil but they dont want to admit to there existing a Satan or a Fallen Angel. They don't want to admit to Original Sin because they don't take Adam and Eve figuratively. To them it is just a fairy tale and illustration. It is also the reason they will always be a cult. Swedenborg was a self indulgent, wannabe intellectual, he may have been smart scientifically. He left holes open in his interpretation of the Bible that a pound of Swiss Cheese couldnt fill. It is amazing that these pseudo intellectuals who call themselves evolved are so Pagan and so backwards in their thinking. They worship Swedenborg and denounce the Father and the Son and remade Him into a selfish Human god to satisfy their need for evil, lawlessness, and wrong doing. So to the New Church and selfish, lying, backstabbers like Rachel Myatt I dedicate the song Monument by Jane's Father the late great Ricky Hyslop of Canada to all you. Enjoy
Its Thanksgiving Day in the U.S. and I am completely alone. My parents are both dead. My brother has a steady relationship. I have been lied to cheated on and abandoned to the point that holidays are the saddest time of year for me. Last year the girl who I thought finally would love me just used me to get presents for herself and her kid then split two days before Christmas. I learned that the world is a cruel place. In the last month I had my wallet, Ipad, and all my personal documents stolen. Instead of become defeated it just made me work harder and made me more upset that good people keep getting kicked down. I no longer trust anyone but God. I leave it all in His hands. I sit alone in this house today. I remember Rachel Myatt and everyday it stings. I loved you very much and not a day goes by when I dont think about you. You destroyed what little faith I had left in women. Before I die I promise you though the whole world will know of you. I still have a story to tell and the time when I am willing to share that with the whole world is nearing. I've had songs for 4yrs and ones I've just written. Ive taken guitar lessons, bass lessons, keyboard lessons to make sure what I share with the world is the deepest and truest music so you and your family The Myatts, The Friesens, and Bakers know what harm and hurt you put in my heart. I loved you and believed in you. Now my heart is empty and all it wants is revenge. Not the kind where I go crazy and hurt people physically. I am much to intelligent and smart to hurt others that way. I want you the kind of revenge where you stop to think that maybe your New Church Doctrine is racist, extreme, and self centered. I want the kind where you wake up and see that your lies, your cowardice, and your selective prejudice and racism hurt people. I want you to know Rachel Myatt that I am coming for you. I am coming for you through words, through song, and through pain. You can hide where ever you want to or even change your name. People know the truth and you know the truth. The next man you give yourself to I hope he knows what a liar, what a fake, and what an untruthful person you are. I still hate you and I hope you choke on all your evils that you would rather embrace instead of someone who truly loved you.
Above is a video from an episode of the original Degrassi High series entitled "Showtime". I have this in my video collection at home because I grew up watching it I was a teenager when they were and it was very interesting to me. They touched on subjects that other teen oriented shows wouldn't. Sex, Pregnancy, HIV, Bullying, Abortion, Rape, and this episode is about Suicide. If you have not read my reason for this blog existing then you need to go back to the beginning. I felt like I should die because Rachel lied to me, said she loved me, led me on, and then turned her back on me when she said she would be there. She slept with me, then tried to act like nothing happened, and worst of all she made promises she couldn't keep. All of those things including my mothers death hurt more than you could imagine. In the Degrassi story the character who kills himself, Claude has spent a year trying to make amends with Caitlin his ex, he also is looked on as an outsider at school, his parents had just divorced, and he feels totally alone. We all have been there but he never tried to talk to anyone about it and he selfishly tried to make others feel guilty about his actions in the end. While I know wanting to die was wrong I had every right to be in as much pain as I was. Rachel and her family had promised to be there for me and I even had their words in plain proof that are on my blog. Instead of open arms and understanding when I told them what was on my mind and what I was going through I got mean and disgusting people telling me I was crazy and mentally ill not knowing what I had been through. A person that loved Rachel enough that 3 weeks after my mom died I came to see her. My mom wanted that too. She told me to live my life, love Rachel, and to be good to her. I was also told I didn't fit in and Rachel and her family are bigots of the selective type. Because I am African American I wouldnt fit in with those good old Canadian Rednecks but I live in Texas with the Original Rednecks a term that originated with Southern people of American Origin. I am sure I would have done just fine being a Native Texan all my life. I have more than one Good Ol Boy or Gal for friends. Its ok for her sister to adopt children of Black or African Origin but there was a problem with me. Wasn't I someone child, didnt I just lose my mother. Because I am an adult Racism is supposed to hurt any less. No it hurts more because I understood it. Then on top of Everything Rachel and her family hid behind the most bigoted rigid Dogma of the Church of the New Jerusalem who are the biggest bunch of hypocrites ever. They say don't do one thing but go ahead and do the same thing secretly behind your back. The reason why I am writing this today is because I did truly love you Rachel Myatt. I think you are a sad excuse for a friend, a girlfriend, and a mother. You set such a bad example with men for your child and when he sees how you treat men he is going to take from that. My mom didn't have the best example in my dad but it was because of my mom I learned not to treat women like my dad did. I learned to respect them because of her respect for men whether it be my dad or others. I am still angry at you and I am still campaigning against you and the New Church. That will stop the day you reach across the line and make peace but until then this is a resurgence and a rebirth in my crusade against you and the Church of the New Jerusalem.
