Dear Rachel and Readers,
It has been exactly a month since I have written anything on here. That was done for a reason. It was to give me time to reflect and make good on the promises of the things I said I would do to show Rachel Myatt that I love her very much. Rachel is one of my dearest friends, she is like my sister, my love for her is immeasurable. I am still seeking peace with her and I still seek anyone who reads this to keep us in your prayers and pray that we find peace. I had time to actually do a writing campaign to Rachel's Church worldwide. I did it because I love her and I want her back in my life. I sent letters around the world telling people of how much she and Jonathan mean to me and how things went from loving to a disaster and how instead of hate her and treat her like she did me I only have love in my heart for her. She is the most beautiful woman I have ever met but instead of embrace the love and intelligence she has she lets the insecurities get in the way. I know how that feels because I used to let that happen but never again. I believe in myself and if I didn't I would never have put myself out there to love Rachel and trust her with my heart. So I am back and I have not given up on Rachel and never will. Rachel loves me and deep inside I know it. It will take the help of her Pastor, Her family to see where my heart really is and always has been, and it will take God's love to return what was lost between us. I love Rachel Myatt unconditionally, whole souled and unwavering. I will not give up hope. It is not a false waning hope but a hope in the love the Creator gave me, a hope in the love of true friendship, the hope that if you believe and give your all good things will be accomplished. Rachel my dear if you or your family is reading this. Please come back into my heart. I love you and each day that has passed by without you is like a day with a piece of my soul missing. I lost my mom and while I am living I will never be able to see her again but I know that you are out there and alive and it hurts that someone I love so much pushes a love so true and pure away. I think the world of you and Jonathan so today on June 30th, 2011 I Return to Form and start this blog again for the world to see and the woman I love. I lost the woman who loved me most in the world in my mother last August but another woman loved me and I saw her as my equal, my best friend, and my confidant. That woman is Rachel Myatt and I will continue to love her and seek reconciliation with her. To end this blog with a person who lost everything only to regain it because his faith. I look to a scripture about a very brave and faithful man Job. Rachel knows I love her and that I was nothing but a good man to her and Jonathan so that is why she runs. She tried to make me look bad in the beginning to others like I was sick, mentally ill, obsessed, and other cruel things but as the months have gone by she has had to sit back and reflect on all the things I said. I know she has actually think maybe this guy does really love me after all this time he took to let others know he loves me. He talks about how he loves me and my son. Send me stuff even if I don't reply. Has talked to Pastors and Reverend from my Church worldwide and has a don't give up attitude. Yes Rachel I love you that much and it is only going to get bigger now. I had a month to decide if I loved you and if it was worth carrying on and the time. Yes I love you with all my heart so I will end this blog today with this scripture. My suffering and pain has been great but I have never given up my faith and in because of my faith there is love for Rachel and Jonathan Myatt.
Job 24:13-17 13 “There are those who rebel against the light,
who do not know its ways
or stay in its paths.
14 When daylight is gone, the murderer rises up,
kills the poor and needy,
and in the night steals forth like a thief.
15 The eye of the adulterer watches for dusk;
he thinks, ‘No eye will see me,’
and he keeps his face concealed.
16 In the dark, thieves break into houses,
but by day they shut themselves in;
they want nothing to do with the light.
17 For all of them, midnight is their morning;
they make friends with the terrors of darkness.
I will continue to walk in the light and love you Rachel. You hide, take down your pictures, stop putting up movies and doing all the things you love because of what you did to hurt me scared that I will use that against you. I only seek truth and forgiveness from you and with you. I am out in the open for all to see and my words will continue to ring out all over.
Job 42:2 2 “I know that you can do all things;
no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
My love for you Rachel and Jonathan is a gift and a calling from God. I may have seen some rough spots and some pain but I am steadfast and unmovable according to God's Will. I am someone who loves you very much and my friends and family have nothing but faith in that love so you can continue to ignore it or you can embrace it. My arms are wide open and my heart belongs to you.
Thank you
