Dear Rachel,
All I know is I love you and I won't spend too much time recanting the story. This is they day last year you walked away from me when I needed you most. I truly was and still am in love with you and you could never imagine the damage that was done in the months that follow. If you wanted me to hate you and just go away it didn't succeed because love always wins over hate. My mother was sick my entire childhood and adult life so I was expecting it at sometime I didn't expect it when I was coming to be with the woman I love. I thought that you would show compassion on my broken soul and you said you would be there for me. The time I spent with you and Jonathan was the happiest time of my life and being in your arms and with your family meant so much to me. I wont apologize for being torn apart when you walked away from me. I will say I am sorry if I hurt you in anyway. I wish you could just do the same. I can never look another woman in the eye or trust anyone because I did trust you. I trusted you in the Lord as a truthful good Christian woman. So I can no longer open my heart the way I opened it to you. It hurts to look at children and other people with families knowing that all I wanted was to hold your hand and watch Jonathan grow as our love grew. I would have loved you, toothless, old, gray, with no hair. I would have been in love with you till the day I died and beyond. Rachel Myatt as you reflect on this day, remember I will always love you. God's love is eternal, patient, long suffering, and kind. When we walk in His footsteps and imitate His love then we can do no less. I did give into evil at first and wanted you to hurt like you hurt me but now I just want the world to know I love you so maybe you will see that a man truly cares for you. That you got deep into my soul and my heart and I felt love from you. That you deserve to be loved you just have to let yourself be loved. You told me that I deserved to be loved and you were glad that I wanted it to be your love. My love for you is still here. It won't change and the longer you deny it the stronger it grows. I am not infatuated with you, I am not obsessed, I am not on some mission to hurt you or sabotage your livelihood either. I am someone who truly loves you and will go to the ends of the earth, the bottom of the sea, and the depths of hell and still come out loving you. You mean so much to me Rachel Myatt so if you are reading this today it has been a year. I kept my promise to you to always love you. I have shown you that I am not going to walk away from you. If you want to miss out on that true love its your loss. I never had anything but a pure heart for you. When you hurt me I could have turned to drugs, other women, become a bitter hateful man and just hate everyone. I didn't though. I cried a lot of tears, did a lot of soul searching. Put my faith in Christ. I read the Bible. I reached out to people of faith in both your Church and ones I know and go to. I love you Rachel Myatt plain and simple. I LOVE YOU. I have never used those words so freely in my life or so many times because they are for real with you. So you can continue to live a life where you hurt people and run from the damage you inflict or you can learn to make amends, be a true friend, love people for who they are no matter their differences and reap the benefits of real love. God's love. Last year was the Worst Day of My Life when you abandoned me but with God there is always hope and love. There is always a second chance with HIM. I love you Rachel Myatt. This is my declaration of hope. This is me reaching out to you and your family to show you that a man would do whatever it takes to love you and Jonathan. You can open your heart to me again as my heart has never left you. I hope you have a blessed day Rachel Myatt. I will never stop loving you. I dedicate this song you today Rachel it is by Letters To Cleo its called "Wasted" when you left me this was one of the songs that kept me alive. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWYJWu72jZw&feature=related I will always love you even if you keep denying me your love, your friendship, and your forgiveness.
God Bless You
Ephesians 4:2
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
All I know is I love you and I won't spend too much time recanting the story. This is they day last year you walked away from me when I needed you most. I truly was and still am in love with you and you could never imagine the damage that was done in the months that follow. If you wanted me to hate you and just go away it didn't succeed because love always wins over hate. My mother was sick my entire childhood and adult life so I was expecting it at sometime I didn't expect it when I was coming to be with the woman I love. I thought that you would show compassion on my broken soul and you said you would be there for me. The time I spent with you and Jonathan was the happiest time of my life and being in your arms and with your family meant so much to me. I wont apologize for being torn apart when you walked away from me. I will say I am sorry if I hurt you in anyway. I wish you could just do the same. I can never look another woman in the eye or trust anyone because I did trust you. I trusted you in the Lord as a truthful good Christian woman. So I can no longer open my heart the way I opened it to you. It hurts to look at children and other people with families knowing that all I wanted was to hold your hand and watch Jonathan grow as our love grew. I would have loved you, toothless, old, gray, with no hair. I would have been in love with you till the day I died and beyond. Rachel Myatt as you reflect on this day, remember I will always love you. God's love is eternal, patient, long suffering, and kind. When we walk in His footsteps and imitate His love then we can do no less. I did give into evil at first and wanted you to hurt like you hurt me but now I just want the world to know I love you so maybe you will see that a man truly cares for you. That you got deep into my soul and my heart and I felt love from you. That you deserve to be loved you just have to let yourself be loved. You told me that I deserved to be loved and you were glad that I wanted it to be your love. My love for you is still here. It won't change and the longer you deny it the stronger it grows. I am not infatuated with you, I am not obsessed, I am not on some mission to hurt you or sabotage your livelihood either. I am someone who truly loves you and will go to the ends of the earth, the bottom of the sea, and the depths of hell and still come out loving you. You mean so much to me Rachel Myatt so if you are reading this today it has been a year. I kept my promise to you to always love you. I have shown you that I am not going to walk away from you. If you want to miss out on that true love its your loss. I never had anything but a pure heart for you. When you hurt me I could have turned to drugs, other women, become a bitter hateful man and just hate everyone. I didn't though. I cried a lot of tears, did a lot of soul searching. Put my faith in Christ. I read the Bible. I reached out to people of faith in both your Church and ones I know and go to. I love you Rachel Myatt plain and simple. I LOVE YOU. I have never used those words so freely in my life or so many times because they are for real with you. So you can continue to live a life where you hurt people and run from the damage you inflict or you can learn to make amends, be a true friend, love people for who they are no matter their differences and reap the benefits of real love. God's love. Last year was the Worst Day of My Life when you abandoned me but with God there is always hope and love. There is always a second chance with HIM. I love you Rachel Myatt. This is my declaration of hope. This is me reaching out to you and your family to show you that a man would do whatever it takes to love you and Jonathan. You can open your heart to me again as my heart has never left you. I hope you have a blessed day Rachel Myatt. I will never stop loving you. I dedicate this song you today Rachel it is by Letters To Cleo its called "Wasted" when you left me this was one of the songs that kept me alive. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWYJWu72jZw&feature=related I will always love you even if you keep denying me your love, your friendship, and your forgiveness.
God Bless You
Ephesians 4:2
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
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