Dear Rachel,
As you sit in Church every Sunday do you think about what God really wants for you?
Do you think about all the people you have hurt and the situations you have created for yourself and ever wondered how easy it would be to face those people or situations instead of just run from them. I know I do. Everything that we leave unfinished and undone is a chance in life we have to better ourselves. You want to know why all this is happening? It is happening because God chose to show you love in your life. He showed you a person who loved you unconditionally and then you tore me down. You hurt the other men in your life but when you hurt me instead of me just walking away angry or trying to get even with you I have something greater than that. True love.
How easy it would be to pick up the phone, write me a letter, or email me and start talking to me again. How easy it would be to just make peace. Instead you have to read this wondering what I am doing next. What am I writing or sending out or planning next. All that I do is because I love you. I realized a long time ago in the power of forgiveness, the power of prayer, and the power of God's love first and foremost, we are set free. So while you were taking your Doctrinal class on Free Will the other day think about if God guards mans Free Will then I am free to do as I please to write about you and send out what ever? I believe it is partly my will but I also believe that God has a hand in it. He is the one guiding me in writing this blog right now. There is a right way to do this and there is a wrong way to do this and the wrong way would be for me to be consumed by hate and evil and to continually lash out against you and curse you like you did me. Instead I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I am going to continue to do that regardless if you hear the message or not. I know you hear it but you choose to keep ignoring it. It will ring louder and clearer in the months to come as I put out my materials for the general public. Right now I am just creating a buzz and getting people ready for it. I hope that you never treat another man like you did the ones before me and never again like you did me. I really and truly love and care for you. I can't believe anyone would not only destroy a friendship but turn their back on someone they said they loved and would be their for and be so selfish. I will never and would never turn my back on you Rachel Myatt. I love you and Jonathan and I pray everyday for you to be safe and that I love you. I don't pray for you to come back, I don't pray for you to love me, I just pray for you because I love you two plain and simple. I have more love in my heart than to just be selfish to people. I only wanted to be loved after years of abuse, lies, and mistreatment and I believed in you Rachel Myatt. So while you are sitting in Church today listening to Pastor Glenn remember this one thing. Are your really living the life God wants you to? Hurting people, not forgiving, putting others down for not believing like you? It sounds pretty selfish and one sided to me and not the side of God. I would and still would put you and Jonathan before myself. Do you know why I have kept the same picture up on here for the whole year. It was to remind me of how much I care for you too. Since you abandoned me its all I have left of the two people I would give my life for. Maybe you didn't believe a man could love you that much or your family didn't under stand but I do feel that way about you. I love you I hope you think about this today. I hope your day is blessed and I wish the Myatt and Friesen families many blessings and good will of the Lord on this Sunday.
Philippians 2:3-4
As you sit in Church every Sunday do you think about what God really wants for you?
Do you think about all the people you have hurt and the situations you have created for yourself and ever wondered how easy it would be to face those people or situations instead of just run from them. I know I do. Everything that we leave unfinished and undone is a chance in life we have to better ourselves. You want to know why all this is happening? It is happening because God chose to show you love in your life. He showed you a person who loved you unconditionally and then you tore me down. You hurt the other men in your life but when you hurt me instead of me just walking away angry or trying to get even with you I have something greater than that. True love.
How easy it would be to pick up the phone, write me a letter, or email me and start talking to me again. How easy it would be to just make peace. Instead you have to read this wondering what I am doing next. What am I writing or sending out or planning next. All that I do is because I love you. I realized a long time ago in the power of forgiveness, the power of prayer, and the power of God's love first and foremost, we are set free. So while you were taking your Doctrinal class on Free Will the other day think about if God guards mans Free Will then I am free to do as I please to write about you and send out what ever? I believe it is partly my will but I also believe that God has a hand in it. He is the one guiding me in writing this blog right now. There is a right way to do this and there is a wrong way to do this and the wrong way would be for me to be consumed by hate and evil and to continually lash out against you and curse you like you did me. Instead I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I am going to continue to do that regardless if you hear the message or not. I know you hear it but you choose to keep ignoring it. It will ring louder and clearer in the months to come as I put out my materials for the general public. Right now I am just creating a buzz and getting people ready for it. I hope that you never treat another man like you did the ones before me and never again like you did me. I really and truly love and care for you. I can't believe anyone would not only destroy a friendship but turn their back on someone they said they loved and would be their for and be so selfish. I will never and would never turn my back on you Rachel Myatt. I love you and Jonathan and I pray everyday for you to be safe and that I love you. I don't pray for you to come back, I don't pray for you to love me, I just pray for you because I love you two plain and simple. I have more love in my heart than to just be selfish to people. I only wanted to be loved after years of abuse, lies, and mistreatment and I believed in you Rachel Myatt. So while you are sitting in Church today listening to Pastor Glenn remember this one thing. Are your really living the life God wants you to? Hurting people, not forgiving, putting others down for not believing like you? It sounds pretty selfish and one sided to me and not the side of God. I would and still would put you and Jonathan before myself. Do you know why I have kept the same picture up on here for the whole year. It was to remind me of how much I care for you too. Since you abandoned me its all I have left of the two people I would give my life for. Maybe you didn't believe a man could love you that much or your family didn't under stand but I do feel that way about you. I love you I hope you think about this today. I hope your day is blessed and I wish the Myatt and Friesen families many blessings and good will of the Lord on this Sunday.
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