Dear Rachel and Readers,
Psalms 85:10 Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.
What am I implying by starting this blog with this scripture. First of all there was a time at first last September and October where I wanted Rachel to hurt. Then God brought my heart to a different place. By November I had realized that He had different plans for me. I got sick and in December I was faced with my own mortality. I was given guidance and love by lots of people to just love Rachel even if she wasn't respondent and give her love. So I did. Instead of seek vengeance over her all I have wanted was for her to forgive me. I have forgiven myself. I have moved on past the petty hurt that she inflicted on me and realized how beautiful I am. I am forgiven through Christ for what ever I did to her. Should I care if she forgives me. If I were a selfish person it wouldn't matter but deep inside I truly love her. I have taken this story worldwide in attempt to show her how much I love her and her son Jonathan and to show that when God give you love that is pure and unconditional you will be able to withstand any test. The only naysayers I have had were a couple of Pastors and Reverends from Canada from the New Church but even if they are God's servants they are still just men and like I don't question there calling and have had nothing but respect for them. They in turn should respect my calling and that I know what I am here to do. My love for Rachel has always been about the Lord. So am I seeking revenge through writing this blog. No! They say "The Pen is Mightier than the Sword" That is so true. I could have done so many hateful things to get back at Rachel and try to make her life miserable but instead I picked up my pen and so did my friends and family and they wrote her Church. The Church of the New Jerusalem or simply the NEW CHURCH. By using my thoughts and what was true instead of making up lies and slandering Rachel, EVIL DID NOT WIN. Even though I am harsh sometimes on here it is the truth. It is my story to tell and it did and is still happening. I have a whole half years worth of correspondence between Rachel and I that I used to write a book with. Have I put it out yet. No actually I am waiting for her response. I am waiting to see if she will be able to forgive me in the next couple of weeks. If she is reading this it has been over a year now Rachel and our last fight was on Sept 25th 2010. Can she rise to the occasion and show true Christian spirit and forgive and be forgiven. Or will she be contradictory of the NEW CHURCH teachings of forgiveness, love, and charity. So far she has been the former. I have used my pen to reach out to her and others in the NEW CHURCH because no matter the religious differences they are still my sisters and brothers in Christ. Every human being on this earth is one of God's children and whether they follow HIM or not they are still my sisters and brothers. I have to live as an example in loving even my enemies. Rachel was my dearest most trusted friend and she started treating me cruel and like an enemy. At first I lashed back with the same venom and vitriol that she was spewing at me. I realized though that I was much more. I realized that I could fight a Spiritual Battle of Love instead of an evil battle of hate and retaliation. Atheist believe in Evil without the existence of a God. We as Christians know evil on such a different plain. When we submit ourselves to our Lord we are giving up the need to participate or be part of evil. The more we love others and give ourselves to HIM the less we have to worry about the evil of loving oneself and becoming self absorbed. Man is selfish and hedonistic by nature but he also has the ability to show love, humility, and propinquity for his fellow man. I fell in love with Rachel Myatt because of her kind nature and her ability to love. In my darkest hour when I needed a friend and someone to be there for me. She turned her back on me. What she doesn't know that what I am doing is showing her that no matter how she treats me. I love her, I forgiven her for her acts against me, I love her unconditionally, and no matter what she does I care for her and always will. I will never forget the things she said but I used the pain and hurt she inflicted on me to transcend to another level. I went from a level of hurt and despair to one that is full of love, hope, and joy. I am putting my heart and soul into this project to show her I love her and even if she doesn't respond people all over the world will know that I LOVE RACHEL MYATT and that I chose to forgive and go on loving her even if she decides not to do the same. Just like my blog last night though I believe Rachel and her family will transcend the notion they have of me and see that I truly do love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt so much that he is willing to let the whole world know. So Rachel I want you to know if you are reading this today. I am not going to walk away from anything I am doing. It is about to get bigger and more wide spread. If you want to forgive me and talk then just email or call. If I am not available I will make a time that we can talk. You can't say I haven't reached out to you before I took such actions because I have many times. I have even reached out to your Church. I am going to fight a battle of Spiritual warfare and the only justice I want to be dealt to you is love. I will entrust you again with my true friendship and faithfulness. If someone I love has wronged me or I have wronged them I fight to make things better. You can continue to sit back and hide in Dawson Creek, British Columbia and pretend I don't exist and I will continue to be a force of love, a soldier of truth, and a man that cares about you and Jonathan so much. I leave you with this scripture today and the hope that in the next couple of days you will end our war and make peace with me my dear friend. The fight I participate in is to constantly love others and follow in Christ example and not take pride or pleasure in hurting others. I want to be humble and wash the feet of my brothers and sisters. You were and are still my most loved sister Rachel and in the end the only place I wanted to be was by your side loving our God with you and Jonathan.
Psalms 85:10 Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.
What am I implying by starting this blog with this scripture. First of all there was a time at first last September and October where I wanted Rachel to hurt. Then God brought my heart to a different place. By November I had realized that He had different plans for me. I got sick and in December I was faced with my own mortality. I was given guidance and love by lots of people to just love Rachel even if she wasn't respondent and give her love. So I did. Instead of seek vengeance over her all I have wanted was for her to forgive me. I have forgiven myself. I have moved on past the petty hurt that she inflicted on me and realized how beautiful I am. I am forgiven through Christ for what ever I did to her. Should I care if she forgives me. If I were a selfish person it wouldn't matter but deep inside I truly love her. I have taken this story worldwide in attempt to show her how much I love her and her son Jonathan and to show that when God give you love that is pure and unconditional you will be able to withstand any test. The only naysayers I have had were a couple of Pastors and Reverends from Canada from the New Church but even if they are God's servants they are still just men and like I don't question there calling and have had nothing but respect for them. They in turn should respect my calling and that I know what I am here to do. My love for Rachel has always been about the Lord. So am I seeking revenge through writing this blog. No! They say "The Pen is Mightier than the Sword" That is so true. I could have done so many hateful things to get back at Rachel and try to make her life miserable but instead I picked up my pen and so did my friends and family and they wrote her Church. The Church of the New Jerusalem or simply the NEW CHURCH. By using my thoughts and what was true instead of making up lies and slandering Rachel, EVIL DID NOT WIN. Even though I am harsh sometimes on here it is the truth. It is my story to tell and it did and is still happening. I have a whole half years worth of correspondence between Rachel and I that I used to write a book with. Have I put it out yet. No actually I am waiting for her response. I am waiting to see if she will be able to forgive me in the next couple of weeks. If she is reading this it has been over a year now Rachel and our last fight was on Sept 25th 2010. Can she rise to the occasion and show true Christian spirit and forgive and be forgiven. Or will she be contradictory of the NEW CHURCH teachings of forgiveness, love, and charity. So far she has been the former. I have used my pen to reach out to her and others in the NEW CHURCH because no matter the religious differences they are still my sisters and brothers in Christ. Every human being on this earth is one of God's children and whether they follow HIM or not they are still my sisters and brothers. I have to live as an example in loving even my enemies. Rachel was my dearest most trusted friend and she started treating me cruel and like an enemy. At first I lashed back with the same venom and vitriol that she was spewing at me. I realized though that I was much more. I realized that I could fight a Spiritual Battle of Love instead of an evil battle of hate and retaliation. Atheist believe in Evil without the existence of a God. We as Christians know evil on such a different plain. When we submit ourselves to our Lord we are giving up the need to participate or be part of evil. The more we love others and give ourselves to HIM the less we have to worry about the evil of loving oneself and becoming self absorbed. Man is selfish and hedonistic by nature but he also has the ability to show love, humility, and propinquity for his fellow man. I fell in love with Rachel Myatt because of her kind nature and her ability to love. In my darkest hour when I needed a friend and someone to be there for me. She turned her back on me. What she doesn't know that what I am doing is showing her that no matter how she treats me. I love her, I forgiven her for her acts against me, I love her unconditionally, and no matter what she does I care for her and always will. I will never forget the things she said but I used the pain and hurt she inflicted on me to transcend to another level. I went from a level of hurt and despair to one that is full of love, hope, and joy. I am putting my heart and soul into this project to show her I love her and even if she doesn't respond people all over the world will know that I LOVE RACHEL MYATT and that I chose to forgive and go on loving her even if she decides not to do the same. Just like my blog last night though I believe Rachel and her family will transcend the notion they have of me and see that I truly do love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt so much that he is willing to let the whole world know. So Rachel I want you to know if you are reading this today. I am not going to walk away from anything I am doing. It is about to get bigger and more wide spread. If you want to forgive me and talk then just email or call. If I am not available I will make a time that we can talk. You can't say I haven't reached out to you before I took such actions because I have many times. I have even reached out to your Church. I am going to fight a battle of Spiritual warfare and the only justice I want to be dealt to you is love. I will entrust you again with my true friendship and faithfulness. If someone I love has wronged me or I have wronged them I fight to make things better. You can continue to sit back and hide in Dawson Creek, British Columbia and pretend I don't exist and I will continue to be a force of love, a soldier of truth, and a man that cares about you and Jonathan so much. I leave you with this scripture today and the hope that in the next couple of days you will end our war and make peace with me my dear friend. The fight I participate in is to constantly love others and follow in Christ example and not take pride or pleasure in hurting others. I want to be humble and wash the feet of my brothers and sisters. You were and are still my most loved sister Rachel and in the end the only place I wanted to be was by your side loving our God with you and Jonathan.
They will wage war against the Lamb, but the Lamb will triumph over them because he is Lord of lords and King of kings—and with him will be his called, chosen and faithful followers.”
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