Dear Rachel,
First of all Sept 25 which was a Monday last year was the last time we spoke on the phone.
What would Jesus do in this situation? Do you think He would hold a grudge against someone who loved Him and cared about Him. Of course not? Our Heavenly Father taught us about forgiveness, patience, long suffering, and humility. While there was a time when I wanted you to hurt in time I began to remember how much I loved you and I thought about two people. I thought about Lord Jesus Christ and my mother. Jesus was without sin but he welcomed all those who were sinners into the kingdom of God. He cast no lots on anyone but He opened His heart and His teachings to those who were unlikely by most to be reciepients of the love of God. Prostitutes, Theives, Murderers, and all sorts of sinners. None of us is without sin and none of us is perfect so who are any of us to judge one another. I thought of my mother about a week before she got sick. She must of knew in her heart that she was going to die but I saw her on the phone telling all the people that she had problems with that she loved them and she wanted to make peace with them. I was inspired and after she died and you started fighting with me I sat down and thought about her doing this and just broke into tears. All I want is for you to know I love you and my love is and always has been true. You spent so much time trying to get rid of me instead of listen and try to understand where I was coming from at my time of grieving. I was ready to give you all of me the good and the bad and I loved you for your good and bad qualities. I saw lots of things I didn't like about you but the good outweighed the bad and that is why I never gave up on you before I came to Canada and that is why I am not giving up on your now. I want you to think about it Rachel. The greatest sin we can have is to just give up and not struggle to do what is good. Am I right or wrong? What we think is right and what is good is always the question at hand. Doing what was right to me a year ago was trying to return back the hurt and hatred that you had so freely and easily given to me. It was not my nature as I am not a vengeful person but in the end I realized that love is the only way that I will prosper and truly be free. I am free Rachel Myatt. I love you with all my heart and God has given me a love so great for you that I can do anything and I will do anything to show you that I care and that you and are true friends and that this is meant to be. I am the man who will give my life for you and Jonathan. I love Christ and I still want to worship with you. I have nothing but love for your family and I care deeply about you. I still wonder what you think about this blog or when you found out I sent letters to the New Church Worldwide about how I loved you even after you abandoned me. I want you to know I never did it to hurt you, embarras you, or put you down. I did it to make you see that God's love, forgiveness, and unconditional love is the only way. I could have hated you and gave into evil but each day I pray for you and Jonathan and just let God know I love you. I would like you to come back into my life, I would love for us to start over, I would love to see your smile and Jonathan's smile again but all I can do is put it in God's hand and for now He says to keep loving you and to keep writing, letting others know of my love for you, and never giving up faith or hope. I love you with all my being and heart Rachel Myatt and I love your son that much too. I will leave you with these scriptures today and a song by Bruce Springsteen called Atlantic City my favorite of his because the chorus has the words "Everything dies baby thats a fact , and maybe everything that dies someday comes back." I put my faith in the Lord you will come back and I continue to pray and campaign and put my faith in God first not man. I love you Rachel and Jonathan. I hope you know how much. What Would Jesus Do? He would make peace, He would reconcile, He would want us to love each other instead of have this animosity, hurt, and distance. Rachel Myatt you are the love of my life and I don't hate you, I don't want you to hurt, I truly care for you and I would lay my life down for you and Jonathan and that is a promise to the Lord. I love you that much.
Matthew 21:21-22
21 Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done. 22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” I ask God every night that we reconcile and make peace I love God and He is my strength therefore Rachel I have never given up on you. Though you may not understand why I am led to do what I am doing He does. Even though God guards man's free will He also gives us a choice how to act on His Word. I will continue to love you and believe in that love because it is of the Lord.
Romans 8:7
The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so.While you constantly think of free will and self in dealing with me I have submitted my grievence to the Lord. If I relied on my emotions and the weakness of my flesh I would have sought revenge on you. God's law and His love always come first. This is one reason I will never turn my back on you even if you choose not to hear.
2 Corinthians 5:18
All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation.
Rachel I want peace with you. I want us to love each other and be civil again. I care for you and Jonathan very deeply. That scripture in 2nd Corinthians is proof that God calls for reconciliation and that we should end this and be in each others lives again. Whatever you have done to me I have forgiven it. I love you too much to worry about what you did to hurt me anymore. I know that I love you and Jonathan more than anyone in the world and I am willing to do anything or go anywhere to get you back. Its has nothing to do with being obsessed, infatuated, crazy, or anything a lesser person who doesn't see in my heart might say. It is all about God's love. I love you through Christ as my best friend. Please come back to me.
I leave with you with a powerful cover of Bruce Springsteen's Atlantic City by one of my heroines Kim Fox. She inspired me alot and I told her back in 2004 how her songs had given me strength during a tough time in my life and she wrote me back. I loved and respected her even more that she took the time to care about one of her fans. I love you Rachel and this song is a passionate song for you. I hope you come back to me I love you and your family even if you cant see that I know you know it in your heart. I miss you Ray Ray.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kUs4fL13lg
I Love You Rachel Myatt with all my Heart. God Bless
"You cannot build character and courage by taking away a man's initiative and independence." - Abraham Lincoln
First of all Sept 25 which was a Monday last year was the last time we spoke on the phone.
What would Jesus do in this situation? Do you think He would hold a grudge against someone who loved Him and cared about Him. Of course not? Our Heavenly Father taught us about forgiveness, patience, long suffering, and humility. While there was a time when I wanted you to hurt in time I began to remember how much I loved you and I thought about two people. I thought about Lord Jesus Christ and my mother. Jesus was without sin but he welcomed all those who were sinners into the kingdom of God. He cast no lots on anyone but He opened His heart and His teachings to those who were unlikely by most to be reciepients of the love of God. Prostitutes, Theives, Murderers, and all sorts of sinners. None of us is without sin and none of us is perfect so who are any of us to judge one another. I thought of my mother about a week before she got sick. She must of knew in her heart that she was going to die but I saw her on the phone telling all the people that she had problems with that she loved them and she wanted to make peace with them. I was inspired and after she died and you started fighting with me I sat down and thought about her doing this and just broke into tears. All I want is for you to know I love you and my love is and always has been true. You spent so much time trying to get rid of me instead of listen and try to understand where I was coming from at my time of grieving. I was ready to give you all of me the good and the bad and I loved you for your good and bad qualities. I saw lots of things I didn't like about you but the good outweighed the bad and that is why I never gave up on you before I came to Canada and that is why I am not giving up on your now. I want you to think about it Rachel. The greatest sin we can have is to just give up and not struggle to do what is good. Am I right or wrong? What we think is right and what is good is always the question at hand. Doing what was right to me a year ago was trying to return back the hurt and hatred that you had so freely and easily given to me. It was not my nature as I am not a vengeful person but in the end I realized that love is the only way that I will prosper and truly be free. I am free Rachel Myatt. I love you with all my heart and God has given me a love so great for you that I can do anything and I will do anything to show you that I care and that you and are true friends and that this is meant to be. I am the man who will give my life for you and Jonathan. I love Christ and I still want to worship with you. I have nothing but love for your family and I care deeply about you. I still wonder what you think about this blog or when you found out I sent letters to the New Church Worldwide about how I loved you even after you abandoned me. I want you to know I never did it to hurt you, embarras you, or put you down. I did it to make you see that God's love, forgiveness, and unconditional love is the only way. I could have hated you and gave into evil but each day I pray for you and Jonathan and just let God know I love you. I would like you to come back into my life, I would love for us to start over, I would love to see your smile and Jonathan's smile again but all I can do is put it in God's hand and for now He says to keep loving you and to keep writing, letting others know of my love for you, and never giving up faith or hope. I love you with all my being and heart Rachel Myatt and I love your son that much too. I will leave you with these scriptures today and a song by Bruce Springsteen called Atlantic City my favorite of his because the chorus has the words "Everything dies baby thats a fact , and maybe everything that dies someday comes back." I put my faith in the Lord you will come back and I continue to pray and campaign and put my faith in God first not man. I love you Rachel and Jonathan. I hope you know how much. What Would Jesus Do? He would make peace, He would reconcile, He would want us to love each other instead of have this animosity, hurt, and distance. Rachel Myatt you are the love of my life and I don't hate you, I don't want you to hurt, I truly care for you and I would lay my life down for you and Jonathan and that is a promise to the Lord. I love you that much.
Matthew 21:21-22
21 Jesus replied, “Truly I tell you, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, ‘Go, throw yourself into the sea,’ and it will be done. 22 If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer.” I ask God every night that we reconcile and make peace I love God and He is my strength therefore Rachel I have never given up on you. Though you may not understand why I am led to do what I am doing He does. Even though God guards man's free will He also gives us a choice how to act on His Word. I will continue to love you and believe in that love because it is of the Lord.
Romans 8:7
The mind governed by the flesh is hostile to God; it does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so.While you constantly think of free will and self in dealing with me I have submitted my grievence to the Lord. If I relied on my emotions and the weakness of my flesh I would have sought revenge on you. God's law and His love always come first. This is one reason I will never turn my back on you even if you choose not to hear.
2 Corinthians 5:18
All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation.
Rachel I want peace with you. I want us to love each other and be civil again. I care for you and Jonathan very deeply. That scripture in 2nd Corinthians is proof that God calls for reconciliation and that we should end this and be in each others lives again. Whatever you have done to me I have forgiven it. I love you too much to worry about what you did to hurt me anymore. I know that I love you and Jonathan more than anyone in the world and I am willing to do anything or go anywhere to get you back. Its has nothing to do with being obsessed, infatuated, crazy, or anything a lesser person who doesn't see in my heart might say. It is all about God's love. I love you through Christ as my best friend. Please come back to me.
I leave with you with a powerful cover of Bruce Springsteen's Atlantic City by one of my heroines Kim Fox. She inspired me alot and I told her back in 2004 how her songs had given me strength during a tough time in my life and she wrote me back. I loved and respected her even more that she took the time to care about one of her fans. I love you Rachel and this song is a passionate song for you. I hope you come back to me I love you and your family even if you cant see that I know you know it in your heart. I miss you Ray Ray.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9kUs4fL13lg
I Love You Rachel Myatt with all my Heart. God Bless
"You cannot build character and courage by taking away a man's initiative and independence." - Abraham Lincoln
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