Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Friday, September 9, 2011

Alive By The Grace of God: I Love You Rachel because of His Love

I just wanted to tell you I love you before I go to sleep.  I wish you knew how much. I wish that you would let go of whatever it is that holds you back from forgiving me and being in my life again. I wish you and Jonathan many blessings and I will not give up my hope, my faith, or my love for you through Christ. If you have been thinking about all the things I have said take a minute to read one of my letters to you.  Pull out my scrapbook.  Or just listen to one of the Cds I made for you. I was a man who truly loved you Rachel. It transcended all time and space and to me you were the most beautiful person in the world.  I loved you flaws, imperfections, and all. You and Jonathan were the ones I would have set the world on fire for and your love was the spark to ignite the flame. I am sad you can't forgive and neither one of us may never forget but that is what life is about and we are both better people than to hold onto evil. When you left me I was so sad I didn't listen to music for 6 months straight and you know how much I love music. I barely went a day without bursting into tears and every time I thought of how much I loved you I and how you said you loved me my heart just sank.   This day almost killed me last year but I stayed alive because I love you and I knew God's love would make it right.  I knew it would be selfish to take the precious gift of life God have given to me and throw it away. I also know its wrong to hate you, to want you to hurt like you hurt me, or to stop loving you just because you were cruel to me. I love you dear sister. I wonder why you treated me like an enemy when you were my most trusted friend.  I still believe in you Rachel Myatt and I pray about you everyday.   I do love you and Christ love is what will make you see that eventually.  God Bless you.

Rachel you are my best friend. I have not went a day thinking about how much I love you. I have felt as if though you have been on a long vacation and I am waiting for you to come back.  I love you with all my heart and I leave you with these two scriptures and also that I still ask of your forgiveness and I forgive you for any wrong that was done against me. I put it all aside now and I am going to focus on letting you know that I truly care for you. Think of all the good us being friends did and the relationship it led to. We were both skeptical about loving someone and we made it happen.  I would never turn my back on you even when you doubted me and yourself. I still love you just as much and my friendship and love for you always came before the romantic relationship.  I will always be in love with you as my best friend and that will never change. Question is will you be able to let the pain go and forgive me?

Isaiah 43:18
“Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.

Luke 6:37
[ Judging Others ] “Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.


I love you Rachel Myatt. I make no excuses for loving you. I don't regret my love for you. I am proud of all I have done and said worldwide to let you know I love you. I thank God everyday for HIS strength and guidance.  Its your loss if you didn't appreciate my friendship, my loyalty, the true love I had for you.  I realize everyday how beautiful I am.  The love I have for you and Jonathan is so intense and pure and I wont let it be tainted by hate, hurt, or evil.  I dedicated this song to you today by The Morning Benders called "Excuses" having you in my life was incredible.  I only looked for the good in you if I had of searched out all the bad I never would have came as far or loved you so much.  I wish that you could have done the same for me.  I know there is  so much good in you and eventually you will realize my love for you.  I am using this song as an example about how much I loved you and how I wanted to be one with you. ttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7jgmgE-QDzA&ob=av2n

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