Dear Rachel,
I am not sorry for loving you. I am not sorry for believing in you and Jonathan and never giving up on you.
I am not sorry for wanting to love you whole souled, unconditionally, and with all my heart.
I am not sorry for taking my love to your Church and telling others worldwide.
I am not sorry that I care about you enough to continue showing that I care and wanting to forgive you and have you in my life.
I am not sorry for all the good times we had, for falling in love with your smile, your heart, your son, and our friendship.
I am not sorry for praying every night that one day I will see you again
I am not sorry for letting your family know that I love you through letters or whatever I have done in the form of correspondence.
I am not sorry that God loves me so much He gave me a love that knows no limits for you.
I am not sorry for believing in your faith, your love, and that you will eventually look at all I have done and said and realize that I am a man who loves you, believes in you, and that wants to be with you.
I am not sorry that I chose you over the other women who wanted me
I am not sorry that I am still in love with you
I don't have to be sorry for anything Rachel Myatt because God loves me and I choose to keep caring about you. I am not sorry for anything that happened between us because it made me stronger. I could hate you. I could do things to make you hurt but why would I do that. It would only hurt you and Jonathan, affect your family, and livelihood. The love I have for you is true, honest, real, and unconditional. I will not turn my back on you and I will continue to be strong and love you even if you turn a deaf ear and blind eye to what I am writing and doing. I know you are better than that though Rachel because I know you have a good heart and everyday that you read this you are getting closer to picking up the phone, emailing me, or writing me. I know you know that a good Christian man loves you and will go to the ends of the earth for you and your son. I hold no animosity or hate for you. I can be kicked down, spit on, beaten and bruiesed but in the end God loves me and gives me all the strenghth I need to persevere. I want you back. I love you and Jonathan. I want the best friend I ever had in Christ to come back into my heart and into my arms. I miss you Rachel. I love you.
James 1:2-3
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance
Musically speaking Rachel tomorrow I am going to see Blink 182? How does this fit into the universe of you and I. I remember a couple of years ago when the guys got mad at each other even though they had been the best of friends for the longest of times. They split into all these other groups Plus 44, Boxcar Racer, Angels and Airwaves. They had some great success on their own but Blink 182 is what made them special. It took Travis Barker getting into that plane crash to realize how special they were to each other. I love you Rachel and I have been very sick. I even sent you my will because I was sick not because I was suicidal but because for a couple of months all I did was cough up blood from my chest and throat and cry cause I missed my best friend. Now my throat is doing better but even so I don't want to die without you in my life. I love you Rachel Myatt I hope you will read this and think about how precious and special being in each others lives was and could still be. You do mean a lot to me. I dedicate this song to you tonight from them "I Miss You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2yStD2GWhU all I do is pray and believe in God and the love I have for you.
I am not sorry for loving you. I am not sorry for believing in you and Jonathan and never giving up on you.
I am not sorry for wanting to love you whole souled, unconditionally, and with all my heart.
I am not sorry for taking my love to your Church and telling others worldwide.
I am not sorry that I care about you enough to continue showing that I care and wanting to forgive you and have you in my life.
I am not sorry for all the good times we had, for falling in love with your smile, your heart, your son, and our friendship.
I am not sorry for praying every night that one day I will see you again
I am not sorry for letting your family know that I love you through letters or whatever I have done in the form of correspondence.
I am not sorry that God loves me so much He gave me a love that knows no limits for you.
I am not sorry for believing in your faith, your love, and that you will eventually look at all I have done and said and realize that I am a man who loves you, believes in you, and that wants to be with you.
I am not sorry that I chose you over the other women who wanted me
I am not sorry that I am still in love with you
I don't have to be sorry for anything Rachel Myatt because God loves me and I choose to keep caring about you. I am not sorry for anything that happened between us because it made me stronger. I could hate you. I could do things to make you hurt but why would I do that. It would only hurt you and Jonathan, affect your family, and livelihood. The love I have for you is true, honest, real, and unconditional. I will not turn my back on you and I will continue to be strong and love you even if you turn a deaf ear and blind eye to what I am writing and doing. I know you are better than that though Rachel because I know you have a good heart and everyday that you read this you are getting closer to picking up the phone, emailing me, or writing me. I know you know that a good Christian man loves you and will go to the ends of the earth for you and your son. I hold no animosity or hate for you. I can be kicked down, spit on, beaten and bruiesed but in the end God loves me and gives me all the strenghth I need to persevere. I want you back. I love you and Jonathan. I want the best friend I ever had in Christ to come back into my heart and into my arms. I miss you Rachel. I love you.
James 1:2-3
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance
Musically speaking Rachel tomorrow I am going to see Blink 182? How does this fit into the universe of you and I. I remember a couple of years ago when the guys got mad at each other even though they had been the best of friends for the longest of times. They split into all these other groups Plus 44, Boxcar Racer, Angels and Airwaves. They had some great success on their own but Blink 182 is what made them special. It took Travis Barker getting into that plane crash to realize how special they were to each other. I love you Rachel and I have been very sick. I even sent you my will because I was sick not because I was suicidal but because for a couple of months all I did was cough up blood from my chest and throat and cry cause I missed my best friend. Now my throat is doing better but even so I don't want to die without you in my life. I love you Rachel Myatt I hope you will read this and think about how precious and special being in each others lives was and could still be. You do mean a lot to me. I dedicate this song to you tonight from them "I Miss You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2yStD2GWhU all I do is pray and believe in God and the love I have for you.
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