Dear Rachel,
I love you and I want you to take a minute to think about why I am still here and I still care about you. Imagine a moment that last September I had of just given up. How would you feel then?
I want you to think about a world in which I had of ceased to exist because of the pain you caused me. First of all it was an example of God stepping in and carrying me instead of lettting me use my free will. What if I had of died dear Rachel? You would have felt bad and it would have hurt but that was never my intention. God wanted me to live because He knew that I truly loved you. He removed those bad thoughts, He helped me cope with the pain, and He gave me strength and guidance to deal with the road ahead. Whether you want to accept it or not God is the reason for the "Letters To Rachel" campaign it is His way of showing you that I lived, I still love you, and my love for you was true it was never a game or fake. My love for you was always intended to last. I truly believe in you and care for you Rachel Myatt. I love you and Jonathan. When I did what I did it was never to manipulate you, or make you feel guilty, or hurt you. I was to show you that you hurt me by not being truthful, by giving me false hope, and ridiculing and putting me down in the process. I came to you as my friend, my sister, the love of my life, and my dearest friend during the most painful time of my life. In the end I was reaching my hand out to you for love, for patience, and because I thought you believed in me. You turned your back on me and the worst thing you ever did besides say that I wanted you to save me was to say that I was selfish because I was never selfish. I was always honest with you and you couldn't just tell me that you didn't want to be with me. I just wanted you to stop and think about all this when you read this blog today. Im not going to spend all night on this blog but I did want you to know that I am not giving up on you. Pretty soon a revelation about how much I love you will appear before you and others and you will have make a choice. Do you make peace and show people that you are better than the evil that is in those who are unforgiving?, or do you constantly hold a grudge against me and hate me because I love you. You were the one who was cruel and hurtful to me and told me you couldnt love me and I was damaged and sick. You were the one who pretended to want to be with me and told me you loved me and wanted to be my girlfriend all in the course of 3 days. You built me up and then you devestated me. You were the one who was hostile to me when I said I couldn't stop loving you. I haven't and am sorry that those 3 words I LOVE YOU meant so little to you. I would have never said them to you if they weren't true. I would have never come to Canada. I would have never believed in you. I care about you Rachel Myatt. I want you and to talk and love again. I still love you Rachel Myatt. I will end this blog today with a prayer of love for you and Jonathan.
Dear Father,
I ask for your forgiveness of any transgressions I have made against you or others today. I ask that you watch over Rachel Myatt and Jonathan Myatt and to keep them safe and always bless them. I ask you let Rachel know that she and Jonathan are loved by me very much and that your eternal love and guidance is what keeps me believing in both of them. I ask that you continue to let my heart heal and to love Rachel with all my heart and for us to reconcile and mend the beautiful friendship that we once had. I ask that Rachel's family all the Myatts, Friesens, and others know that I love her and I would give my life for both her and Jonathan and that I have meant her no harm or hurt in my letters or dealings with the Church but that I truly do love her and seek to make peace and reconciliation with her in the name of you Lord. I humbly ask for your Love, your counsel, and your blessing and all things are possible through you. I ask that if Rachel reads this that she is compelled to contact me and we can be part of each others life again. I love her my dear Father with all the love you gave to me. I put my life, my heart, and my love all in your hands in this matter. Thank you my Father, My King, My Lord.
Amen
Rachel I have faith in the Lord and I put Him first in my love for you. I will continue to ask Him for guidance and to be patient with you. I will continue to write, to tell people my story, to connect with the New Church. I wanted you to know just how strong I am and just how true my love for you and Jonathan is. I hope in the end you and your family will take a second look. I am passionate, determined, and I believe in the good in your heart Rachel that you will put this all behind you and realize that there is someone who cares for you and would never doubt you or Jonathan. All I ever wanted to do was give you all of me through Christ love. I am humble, I am kind, and most of all I am your brother in Christ yet you continue to deny me forgiveness and love. I am deeply saddened by that everyday as I have forgiven you and moved on and only care to hear your voice and about your life. I love you Rachel Myatt.
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
1 John 5:14
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
Rachel there have been many days when I have just wanted to give up on you but Christ love is what keeps me going. If you haven't seen that by how I have blindly loved you, unconditionally, unwavering, worldwide, open hearted, whole souled, through thick and thin then you are missing the point. Think of all the money I spent on postage. Think of how I could have got discouraged when you were mean and sent my Christmas Card back last year instead of just open it. Think of how I could have let Pastor Glenn persuade me that I was not doing the right thing. Even he knows that love and forgiveness are what God wants not a life of holding grudges and hurting people. I just hope that tomorrow when you are sitting in Church you reflect on what I said and think about how you are treating a true call for forgiveness and love. I have asked the Lord Jesus Christ for us to see past the wrongs of the past and to reconcile. He knows the love that is truly in my heart. I only wish that you did too Rachel.
I love you and I want you to take a minute to think about why I am still here and I still care about you. Imagine a moment that last September I had of just given up. How would you feel then?
I want you to think about a world in which I had of ceased to exist because of the pain you caused me. First of all it was an example of God stepping in and carrying me instead of lettting me use my free will. What if I had of died dear Rachel? You would have felt bad and it would have hurt but that was never my intention. God wanted me to live because He knew that I truly loved you. He removed those bad thoughts, He helped me cope with the pain, and He gave me strength and guidance to deal with the road ahead. Whether you want to accept it or not God is the reason for the "Letters To Rachel" campaign it is His way of showing you that I lived, I still love you, and my love for you was true it was never a game or fake. My love for you was always intended to last. I truly believe in you and care for you Rachel Myatt. I love you and Jonathan. When I did what I did it was never to manipulate you, or make you feel guilty, or hurt you. I was to show you that you hurt me by not being truthful, by giving me false hope, and ridiculing and putting me down in the process. I came to you as my friend, my sister, the love of my life, and my dearest friend during the most painful time of my life. In the end I was reaching my hand out to you for love, for patience, and because I thought you believed in me. You turned your back on me and the worst thing you ever did besides say that I wanted you to save me was to say that I was selfish because I was never selfish. I was always honest with you and you couldn't just tell me that you didn't want to be with me. I just wanted you to stop and think about all this when you read this blog today. Im not going to spend all night on this blog but I did want you to know that I am not giving up on you. Pretty soon a revelation about how much I love you will appear before you and others and you will have make a choice. Do you make peace and show people that you are better than the evil that is in those who are unforgiving?, or do you constantly hold a grudge against me and hate me because I love you. You were the one who was cruel and hurtful to me and told me you couldnt love me and I was damaged and sick. You were the one who pretended to want to be with me and told me you loved me and wanted to be my girlfriend all in the course of 3 days. You built me up and then you devestated me. You were the one who was hostile to me when I said I couldn't stop loving you. I haven't and am sorry that those 3 words I LOVE YOU meant so little to you. I would have never said them to you if they weren't true. I would have never come to Canada. I would have never believed in you. I care about you Rachel Myatt. I want you and to talk and love again. I still love you Rachel Myatt. I will end this blog today with a prayer of love for you and Jonathan.
Dear Father,
I ask for your forgiveness of any transgressions I have made against you or others today. I ask that you watch over Rachel Myatt and Jonathan Myatt and to keep them safe and always bless them. I ask you let Rachel know that she and Jonathan are loved by me very much and that your eternal love and guidance is what keeps me believing in both of them. I ask that you continue to let my heart heal and to love Rachel with all my heart and for us to reconcile and mend the beautiful friendship that we once had. I ask that Rachel's family all the Myatts, Friesens, and others know that I love her and I would give my life for both her and Jonathan and that I have meant her no harm or hurt in my letters or dealings with the Church but that I truly do love her and seek to make peace and reconciliation with her in the name of you Lord. I humbly ask for your Love, your counsel, and your blessing and all things are possible through you. I ask that if Rachel reads this that she is compelled to contact me and we can be part of each others life again. I love her my dear Father with all the love you gave to me. I put my life, my heart, and my love all in your hands in this matter. Thank you my Father, My King, My Lord.
Amen
Rachel I have faith in the Lord and I put Him first in my love for you. I will continue to ask Him for guidance and to be patient with you. I will continue to write, to tell people my story, to connect with the New Church. I wanted you to know just how strong I am and just how true my love for you and Jonathan is. I hope in the end you and your family will take a second look. I am passionate, determined, and I believe in the good in your heart Rachel that you will put this all behind you and realize that there is someone who cares for you and would never doubt you or Jonathan. All I ever wanted to do was give you all of me through Christ love. I am humble, I am kind, and most of all I am your brother in Christ yet you continue to deny me forgiveness and love. I am deeply saddened by that everyday as I have forgiven you and moved on and only care to hear your voice and about your life. I love you Rachel Myatt.
Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
1 John 5:14
This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us.
Rachel there have been many days when I have just wanted to give up on you but Christ love is what keeps me going. If you haven't seen that by how I have blindly loved you, unconditionally, unwavering, worldwide, open hearted, whole souled, through thick and thin then you are missing the point. Think of all the money I spent on postage. Think of how I could have got discouraged when you were mean and sent my Christmas Card back last year instead of just open it. Think of how I could have let Pastor Glenn persuade me that I was not doing the right thing. Even he knows that love and forgiveness are what God wants not a life of holding grudges and hurting people. I just hope that tomorrow when you are sitting in Church you reflect on what I said and think about how you are treating a true call for forgiveness and love. I have asked the Lord Jesus Christ for us to see past the wrongs of the past and to reconcile. He knows the love that is truly in my heart. I only wish that you did too Rachel.
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