Dear Rachel,
The Bible is always calling for forgiveness and to reconcile and love our brothers and sisters. I would do anything for you and to let you know I love you and I will continue to reach out to you.
An example of how much I loved you and how patient I am in my love for you can be found in the bible at Genesis. Rachel if you ran because you felt I was trying to rush you into something you weren't sure of you were wrong. When you came into my life last year this was the example I took from the Bible and this is how strong my love is for you and that is why I haven't stopped reaching out to you.
Genesis 29:20
So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her
Rachel I have a love for you and Jonathan so pure that each day that goes by means nothing in comparison of how much I care for you. I waited a lifetime to meet you and for you to just walk away from me not knowing how much I care for you I could never live with this.
I. Radical Measures.
In the Bible it says we should constantly forgive because we are forgiven. If we hold grudges against our brothers and sisters then we should make peace with them and forgive them. I have asked your forgiveness on a daily basis almost and I pray about you and Jonathan every night. When you are doing God's will there is nothing that you can't do. He has given me so much strength. Great friends and family who believe in me and people who are proud of me that I didn't chose revenge or vengeance over love in trying to deal with you. I would never want to do anything to hurt you and Jonathan but I do want you to know how deep and how far I would go to let you know I love you. So here are a few things I am about to do. I tried to keep this between you and me but you would rather ignore me and hide than just pick up the phone and talk to me so here I come world.
1. Letters to Rachel : Acoustic Guitar Tour. I am planning this for November - January so if you don't want this to happen feel free to call and make peace with me. Basically I will hit up small clubs and open mics and tell the story of us. I will use pictures to tell my story. The sketch of you and me will be my backdrop. I will explain to people how much I love you and how it hurts to ask forgiveness from some who hurts you first and you continually ignore me. I will sell my cds and my book "Letters to Rachel" to any who want it. I let everyone know of the true love I have for you Rachel instead of try to put you down or belittle you. I am doing all this because I love you.
2. Geocaching
I will simply put out canisters with a great nice prize and the story of how much I love and care for you plain and simple.
3. Good will towards the New Church of USA
When I wrote letters and emailed the Pastors and Reverends of the U.S.A. they had positive things to say and wished me well. One even said that he was not skilled in relationships and wished me well. He didn't make excuses like Pastor Glenn or Pastor Cooper who I had the utmost respect for but they were biased something a man of God should never be in a situation like this. I will just spread good will in a surprize manner and I will tell the Church why I am doing so. When some of us Christians are persecuted and treated bad like you treated me Rachel we come back with love. While you were putting me down, calling me sick, damaged, and basically running me into the ground when I was mourning all I could think about was how much I loved you and accepted you and how you just cared selfishly about yourself. I love you and Jonathan with all my heart and so even after all the cruel things you said and trying to make me look like some mental patient to others when I had a nervous breakdown caused by your lies and insecurities , I still had nothing but love for you. Why do you think I am still here? God gives us strength in times of adversity if you actually took the time to read what I write and apply the scriptures into your life then I am sure you would understand that I really do love you. I will never hate you Rachel you are my best friend and I am doing this because I want you back. I care for you. My friends the Eyeliners had this beautiful song when they were around called "I Could Never Hate You" I want to share it with you the blog today. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqHEnasjmI8 They are sisters and were always kind I went to all there shows they were good friends but also they wrote good positive songs. I will not let what you did and said to me taint my view of the good of the New Church's teachings so I will send them my good will and love on behalf of what happened between us.
4. Radical Forgiveness, True Forgiveness, Christ Belief of Love and Reconciliation
After all that has happened Rachel Myatt I love you as much as the day I first told you. I want to share with you a few things while I delve into this paragraph.
I. I loved you unconditionally, whole soul, whole hearted, and with no prejudices, biases, or superficiallity. I am a single bachelor with no kids, I never thought the person that I loved the most would end up being a single mother. Did I ever judge you for that or make reasons or excuses not to love you and be with you. No. I was there to love your child and I do love Jonathan all I ever wanted was to come back and constantly be in your life however long that took. I was never in a rush to move to Canada and I didn't want you to come live down here but just visit. I was unselfish in wanting to devote my life to you and him in the Lord. Can you honestly say that I was not after all the things I said to you and keeping my promises to you even now.
II. I never showed you any religious bigotry. You were the one who always complained guys didn't agree with your religion and didn't want to share that with you. I did and you not only cursed my love of God but you said awful things to me and I never took any actions against you but to actually be strong and courageous enough to question the beliefs of your Church by actually going to Pastors and Reverends. A true intellectual and person of faith is always challenging their faith and seeking more knowledge of their Creator. I have always been like that. Or maybe it was when I was with you and your mother Jane and we were talking about criminals and I said they will be punished. Maybe you don't believe in punishment but I do believe we will all be judged at one time or another. I think she took my words wrong and when she asked me what I believed in I was trying to explain to her I didn't believe in the Trinity or in God the way that Catholics do per se and she never took the time to sit down and hear what I have to say. I also tried to explain to her about the "Think and Grow Rich" book by Napoleon Hill that a song by the Bad Brains who are Rastafarians a form of Christianity had a song entailing the mantra P.M.A. Positive Mental Attitude. Instead of actually understanding that I think you both took it wrong. I have nothing against the New Church or its teachings what I have is a problem with Christian pitting themselves up against other Christians and belittling or calling others stupid for not believing as they do as you did to me many times.
III. Radical Forgiveness
The Forgiveness I have for you in my heart knows no bounds I will use these scriptures again on how many times I will forgive you but you cant forgive me once and reach out and make things right with me. Matthew 18:21-23 21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Think of how Pope John Paul II was shot at and survived the attempt on his life and not only forgave his assailant but became his close friend.
Think of all the people who have had loved one's murdered and forgave the killer.
Think of all the children who have been abused, neglected, or abandoned who have grown up to be model citizens and prosper and forgive those who either hurt or were not there for them.
That is the radical forgiveness I speak of Rachel Myatt. You and I have such a small little dispute and all I ever did was love you and believe in you. You wanted to push me aside because you lied about your intentions and wanted to abandon me. I had every right to hate you, too seek revenge, and to get back at you. All these months dear sister haven't you seen the "Letters to Rachel" campaign is because I love you. I forgive you. I want others to know of how much I love you so you can see that I am willing to go worldwide to let you know that not only do I want you back in my life but I can put aside all that we did to each other because we are so much more than that. We are God's children. We walk in Christ image and reflection and that is my purpose first and foremost and if a little discomfort is what it takes to prove that I am willing to die for my faith are you Rachel? We should follow Jesus ultimate example of when He died for our sins. Luke 23:33-35
33 When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. 34 Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”[a] And they divided up his clothes by casting lotsSo dear Rachel I ask you dear Rachel. Why do I deserve all this? I loved you enough to believe in you and never give up on you. To date you long distance and be faithful true and loyal. I put my faith in God and I even came to see you when I was in a state of grief. You were the one that told me that I deserved to be loved and you were glad I wanted it to be your love. I thought the world of you and Jonathan and loved you like my own flesh. So my only crime was loving you. For not giving up on you. For being crushed and wanting to die because you didn't care enough about me to tell me you didn't really want to be with me. That is my crime because I wouldn't stop loving you because I was truly in love with you. You want to paint me a villian because I wanted to die and you think I was trying to manipulate you in that aspect. I never was. Your lies and disrespect toward me were so heinous and evil that I barely made it through that week last September. Here I am a year later still full of love, a pure heart, a unconditional caring so deep for you you cant imagine it. I forgive you Rachel Myatt for all that happened. So I ask you again. If Christ can forgive our sins and urge us to love our brothers and sisters and settle things with each other then why do I have to do all this writing campaigning and telling the world I love you. Do you hold the capacity in your heart and in your mind to forgive me and care about me again? That is in your free will and you can choose to see it or you can continually to live selfishly and not see it. I am going to keep loving you, keep caring, and keep spreading the word I Love You Rachel Myatt.
The Bible is always calling for forgiveness and to reconcile and love our brothers and sisters. I would do anything for you and to let you know I love you and I will continue to reach out to you.
An example of how much I loved you and how patient I am in my love for you can be found in the bible at Genesis. Rachel if you ran because you felt I was trying to rush you into something you weren't sure of you were wrong. When you came into my life last year this was the example I took from the Bible and this is how strong my love is for you and that is why I haven't stopped reaching out to you.
Genesis 29:20
So Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her
Rachel I have a love for you and Jonathan so pure that each day that goes by means nothing in comparison of how much I care for you. I waited a lifetime to meet you and for you to just walk away from me not knowing how much I care for you I could never live with this.
I. Radical Measures.
In the Bible it says we should constantly forgive because we are forgiven. If we hold grudges against our brothers and sisters then we should make peace with them and forgive them. I have asked your forgiveness on a daily basis almost and I pray about you and Jonathan every night. When you are doing God's will there is nothing that you can't do. He has given me so much strength. Great friends and family who believe in me and people who are proud of me that I didn't chose revenge or vengeance over love in trying to deal with you. I would never want to do anything to hurt you and Jonathan but I do want you to know how deep and how far I would go to let you know I love you. So here are a few things I am about to do. I tried to keep this between you and me but you would rather ignore me and hide than just pick up the phone and talk to me so here I come world.
1. Letters to Rachel : Acoustic Guitar Tour. I am planning this for November - January so if you don't want this to happen feel free to call and make peace with me. Basically I will hit up small clubs and open mics and tell the story of us. I will use pictures to tell my story. The sketch of you and me will be my backdrop. I will explain to people how much I love you and how it hurts to ask forgiveness from some who hurts you first and you continually ignore me. I will sell my cds and my book "Letters to Rachel" to any who want it. I let everyone know of the true love I have for you Rachel instead of try to put you down or belittle you. I am doing all this because I love you.
2. Geocaching
I will simply put out canisters with a great nice prize and the story of how much I love and care for you plain and simple.
3. Good will towards the New Church of USA
When I wrote letters and emailed the Pastors and Reverends of the U.S.A. they had positive things to say and wished me well. One even said that he was not skilled in relationships and wished me well. He didn't make excuses like Pastor Glenn or Pastor Cooper who I had the utmost respect for but they were biased something a man of God should never be in a situation like this. I will just spread good will in a surprize manner and I will tell the Church why I am doing so. When some of us Christians are persecuted and treated bad like you treated me Rachel we come back with love. While you were putting me down, calling me sick, damaged, and basically running me into the ground when I was mourning all I could think about was how much I loved you and accepted you and how you just cared selfishly about yourself. I love you and Jonathan with all my heart and so even after all the cruel things you said and trying to make me look like some mental patient to others when I had a nervous breakdown caused by your lies and insecurities , I still had nothing but love for you. Why do you think I am still here? God gives us strength in times of adversity if you actually took the time to read what I write and apply the scriptures into your life then I am sure you would understand that I really do love you. I will never hate you Rachel you are my best friend and I am doing this because I want you back. I care for you. My friends the Eyeliners had this beautiful song when they were around called "I Could Never Hate You" I want to share it with you the blog today. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqHEnasjmI8 They are sisters and were always kind I went to all there shows they were good friends but also they wrote good positive songs. I will not let what you did and said to me taint my view of the good of the New Church's teachings so I will send them my good will and love on behalf of what happened between us.
4. Radical Forgiveness, True Forgiveness, Christ Belief of Love and Reconciliation
After all that has happened Rachel Myatt I love you as much as the day I first told you. I want to share with you a few things while I delve into this paragraph.
I. I loved you unconditionally, whole soul, whole hearted, and with no prejudices, biases, or superficiallity. I am a single bachelor with no kids, I never thought the person that I loved the most would end up being a single mother. Did I ever judge you for that or make reasons or excuses not to love you and be with you. No. I was there to love your child and I do love Jonathan all I ever wanted was to come back and constantly be in your life however long that took. I was never in a rush to move to Canada and I didn't want you to come live down here but just visit. I was unselfish in wanting to devote my life to you and him in the Lord. Can you honestly say that I was not after all the things I said to you and keeping my promises to you even now.
II. I never showed you any religious bigotry. You were the one who always complained guys didn't agree with your religion and didn't want to share that with you. I did and you not only cursed my love of God but you said awful things to me and I never took any actions against you but to actually be strong and courageous enough to question the beliefs of your Church by actually going to Pastors and Reverends. A true intellectual and person of faith is always challenging their faith and seeking more knowledge of their Creator. I have always been like that. Or maybe it was when I was with you and your mother Jane and we were talking about criminals and I said they will be punished. Maybe you don't believe in punishment but I do believe we will all be judged at one time or another. I think she took my words wrong and when she asked me what I believed in I was trying to explain to her I didn't believe in the Trinity or in God the way that Catholics do per se and she never took the time to sit down and hear what I have to say. I also tried to explain to her about the "Think and Grow Rich" book by Napoleon Hill that a song by the Bad Brains who are Rastafarians a form of Christianity had a song entailing the mantra P.M.A. Positive Mental Attitude. Instead of actually understanding that I think you both took it wrong. I have nothing against the New Church or its teachings what I have is a problem with Christian pitting themselves up against other Christians and belittling or calling others stupid for not believing as they do as you did to me many times.
III. Radical Forgiveness
The Forgiveness I have for you in my heart knows no bounds I will use these scriptures again on how many times I will forgive you but you cant forgive me once and reach out and make things right with me. Matthew 18:21-23 21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” Think of how Pope John Paul II was shot at and survived the attempt on his life and not only forgave his assailant but became his close friend.
Think of all the people who have had loved one's murdered and forgave the killer.
Think of all the children who have been abused, neglected, or abandoned who have grown up to be model citizens and prosper and forgive those who either hurt or were not there for them.
That is the radical forgiveness I speak of Rachel Myatt. You and I have such a small little dispute and all I ever did was love you and believe in you. You wanted to push me aside because you lied about your intentions and wanted to abandon me. I had every right to hate you, too seek revenge, and to get back at you. All these months dear sister haven't you seen the "Letters to Rachel" campaign is because I love you. I forgive you. I want others to know of how much I love you so you can see that I am willing to go worldwide to let you know that not only do I want you back in my life but I can put aside all that we did to each other because we are so much more than that. We are God's children. We walk in Christ image and reflection and that is my purpose first and foremost and if a little discomfort is what it takes to prove that I am willing to die for my faith are you Rachel? We should follow Jesus ultimate example of when He died for our sins. Luke 23:33-35
33 When they came to the place called the Skull, they crucified him there, along with the criminals—one on his right, the other on his left. 34 Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”[a] And they divided up his clothes by casting lotsSo dear Rachel I ask you dear Rachel. Why do I deserve all this? I loved you enough to believe in you and never give up on you. To date you long distance and be faithful true and loyal. I put my faith in God and I even came to see you when I was in a state of grief. You were the one that told me that I deserved to be loved and you were glad I wanted it to be your love. I thought the world of you and Jonathan and loved you like my own flesh. So my only crime was loving you. For not giving up on you. For being crushed and wanting to die because you didn't care enough about me to tell me you didn't really want to be with me. That is my crime because I wouldn't stop loving you because I was truly in love with you. You want to paint me a villian because I wanted to die and you think I was trying to manipulate you in that aspect. I never was. Your lies and disrespect toward me were so heinous and evil that I barely made it through that week last September. Here I am a year later still full of love, a pure heart, a unconditional caring so deep for you you cant imagine it. I forgive you Rachel Myatt for all that happened. So I ask you again. If Christ can forgive our sins and urge us to love our brothers and sisters and settle things with each other then why do I have to do all this writing campaigning and telling the world I love you. Do you hold the capacity in your heart and in your mind to forgive me and care about me again? That is in your free will and you can choose to see it or you can continually to live selfishly and not see it. I am going to keep loving you, keep caring, and keep spreading the word I Love You Rachel Myatt.
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