Dear Rachel,
Matthew 7:2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
I will not let my past dictate my future. Therefore please know that all that happened between us that was bad. I forget that. I wanted to live out your dreams with you and Jonathan and you stepped on my dream. I embraced you and accepted your faith. I loved you and your son unconditionally. I was loyal and faithful to you and you didn't appreciate any of it. You were family to me my soul, heart, and trust belonged to you. Most people want me to get some kind of revenge on you but you know what the people who truly know me know that I am a man of love and forgiveness. I'm not trying to keep score on what we did to each other. I am not seeking harm to you or for bad things to come your way. I don't want anything but good things and blessings for you and Jonathan. Why do you not want the same for me? The best thing you could do is make peace with me and we could both have closure. You opened a door then just walked away from it. You are free to do whatever you want in life but when you do things to affect others then that is where things get messy. Why would you tell a man you wanted to be with him when you didn't? Why would you engage in intimacy and share your body with me if you didn't want to love me when you knew I only wanted to have that if you wanted to be with me. Sex is part of love to me. It was an expression of my soul and loyalty to you? You deeply hurt me. I wasn't your couple night stand or a game I was a man who was willing to love you from another country and be faithful and care for and Jonathan with all my heart. I don't care if people are reading this all over the world its the truth. Why would you say the things you did and take the picture of you and me like you did if you didn't want to be with me. That haunts me everyday that you would be so cruel and not understand the hurt you put me through. You may have thought you were saving my feelings by lying to me but you weren't you were only making things worst and building up false hope to someone who really wanted a family and true love with you. You only hurt yourself when you ignore me. I'm not the one hiding and I refuse to Rachel Myatt. Now I am taking this out in the trenches. Guerilla warfare style. A full on worldwide love assault. You know what happens when your hurt people who are constantly knocked down. They get back up and try again and they come back even stronger. I am moving like a freight train and if you don't believe I will do what I say just ask your Church how many of them got my letters. Why can't you move forward and just forget and forgive too. You were the one who wronged me. Yet I still love you. I don't and won't use what either of us did as a crutch to seek evil, revenge, or not forgive you. I continue to love you and believe in you. I don't need this blog to get my point across but its useful. All I ever need is a paper and pen and I can tell my story to anyone. I can share it by word of mouth. You know what though Rachel if you really care and really want to end this all just call me tonight about 8pm your time which is 10 mine. I will promise to stop the campaign and take all my writings down if you see this and can do that. If you need to email me for a number do so on here. I am fair and I love you just trying to make peace with you not hurt you. I just wanted you to know that I am not gonna give up on you because I love you as a friend in the Lord and that means more to me than anything. Rachel.
I just wanted to say that I love you and I figured out the perfect way to kick off my tour this fall. I am going to play your favorite game all over the U.S. I am going to put my story in geocache canisters all over the place and let people find it. You see I do like geocaching and its going to be even cooler when those people are the first to read my book of love, friendship, and devotion to you.
You say you are Christian, you are charitable, and that you love God. You cursed me and said I didn't love God. You were cruel to me, you deny me forgiveness, you ignore me, and you talked ill of me when I was mourning my mother all I did was love you so I dedicate this song to you Rachel Myatt I hope you actually listen to the words. I loved you more than life itself but you didn't respect me, you probably didn't ever love me and you missed out and so now I will just do what you want and put it all out there for free my feelings, my thoughts, and everything. Whatever actions you want to take against me for writing this blog and telling people around the world that I loved you regardless of how you treated me its cool. I no longer care. I am going to keep loving you. Putting my faith in God and in those who believe in the love, friendship, and trust I have. I thought eventually you would be the bigger woman and just email me and we could laugh about some of this and move on. I love you that much that I am willing to just put all the past behind us. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. I am having a blast, going out, believing in myself. Do I love you and Jonathan. Yes with all my heart. I am sorry Rachel Myatt that you cant see that and feel you have to go through life hurting people and treating them bad. I wouldn't want to be that miserable and hateful. So this song is for you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAVSlYFvd3s I am going to do everything I said and most of all keep loving you and believing in you.
I love you
Goodnight or Good Morning
Matthew 7:2 For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
I will not let my past dictate my future. Therefore please know that all that happened between us that was bad. I forget that. I wanted to live out your dreams with you and Jonathan and you stepped on my dream. I embraced you and accepted your faith. I loved you and your son unconditionally. I was loyal and faithful to you and you didn't appreciate any of it. You were family to me my soul, heart, and trust belonged to you. Most people want me to get some kind of revenge on you but you know what the people who truly know me know that I am a man of love and forgiveness. I'm not trying to keep score on what we did to each other. I am not seeking harm to you or for bad things to come your way. I don't want anything but good things and blessings for you and Jonathan. Why do you not want the same for me? The best thing you could do is make peace with me and we could both have closure. You opened a door then just walked away from it. You are free to do whatever you want in life but when you do things to affect others then that is where things get messy. Why would you tell a man you wanted to be with him when you didn't? Why would you engage in intimacy and share your body with me if you didn't want to love me when you knew I only wanted to have that if you wanted to be with me. Sex is part of love to me. It was an expression of my soul and loyalty to you? You deeply hurt me. I wasn't your couple night stand or a game I was a man who was willing to love you from another country and be faithful and care for and Jonathan with all my heart. I don't care if people are reading this all over the world its the truth. Why would you say the things you did and take the picture of you and me like you did if you didn't want to be with me. That haunts me everyday that you would be so cruel and not understand the hurt you put me through. You may have thought you were saving my feelings by lying to me but you weren't you were only making things worst and building up false hope to someone who really wanted a family and true love with you. You only hurt yourself when you ignore me. I'm not the one hiding and I refuse to Rachel Myatt. Now I am taking this out in the trenches. Guerilla warfare style. A full on worldwide love assault. You know what happens when your hurt people who are constantly knocked down. They get back up and try again and they come back even stronger. I am moving like a freight train and if you don't believe I will do what I say just ask your Church how many of them got my letters. Why can't you move forward and just forget and forgive too. You were the one who wronged me. Yet I still love you. I don't and won't use what either of us did as a crutch to seek evil, revenge, or not forgive you. I continue to love you and believe in you. I don't need this blog to get my point across but its useful. All I ever need is a paper and pen and I can tell my story to anyone. I can share it by word of mouth. You know what though Rachel if you really care and really want to end this all just call me tonight about 8pm your time which is 10 mine. I will promise to stop the campaign and take all my writings down if you see this and can do that. If you need to email me for a number do so on here. I am fair and I love you just trying to make peace with you not hurt you. I just wanted you to know that I am not gonna give up on you because I love you as a friend in the Lord and that means more to me than anything. Rachel.
I just wanted to say that I love you and I figured out the perfect way to kick off my tour this fall. I am going to play your favorite game all over the U.S. I am going to put my story in geocache canisters all over the place and let people find it. You see I do like geocaching and its going to be even cooler when those people are the first to read my book of love, friendship, and devotion to you.
You say you are Christian, you are charitable, and that you love God. You cursed me and said I didn't love God. You were cruel to me, you deny me forgiveness, you ignore me, and you talked ill of me when I was mourning my mother all I did was love you so I dedicate this song to you Rachel Myatt I hope you actually listen to the words. I loved you more than life itself but you didn't respect me, you probably didn't ever love me and you missed out and so now I will just do what you want and put it all out there for free my feelings, my thoughts, and everything. Whatever actions you want to take against me for writing this blog and telling people around the world that I loved you regardless of how you treated me its cool. I no longer care. I am going to keep loving you. Putting my faith in God and in those who believe in the love, friendship, and trust I have. I thought eventually you would be the bigger woman and just email me and we could laugh about some of this and move on. I love you that much that I am willing to just put all the past behind us. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. I am having a blast, going out, believing in myself. Do I love you and Jonathan. Yes with all my heart. I am sorry Rachel Myatt that you cant see that and feel you have to go through life hurting people and treating them bad. I wouldn't want to be that miserable and hateful. So this song is for you. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QAVSlYFvd3s I am going to do everything I said and most of all keep loving you and believing in you.
I love you
Goodnight or Good Morning
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