Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Sunday, October 9, 2011

What I Am Trying to Do / Happy Thanksgiving I Love You

Dear Rachel, Readers, and for Pastor Glenn or any other interested party,

I want you to know I am only trying to do God's will.  A year and a half ago I never thought I would have been in a relationship with Rachel or any one else but it happened. I know that Rachel is the love of my life. She is the one I would die for.  She is the one I am having a tremendous amount of strength and courage trying to convince her that I am the one. Not only because of our friendship but because I truly love her and it was God's love that led me to her.  I have never given up on her and though somedays I want to and to just curse her and be done with it all.  God always pulls me back to clarity.

I want to apologize once again for any misrepresentation of Rachel that this blog has given anyone about her. She can be the most loving, caring, beautiful soul in the world.   I love her and her son Jonathan with all my heart.  Her Pastor.  Gentleman Coleman Glenn is a good man. He tries to do God's will the best he can.  He never knew that his path would cross mine because of a love that is in me but I am thankful that he did. His help is not in vain and as the weeks and months to come he will realize that people are put into your life for a reason. He was put here to help both myself and Rachel become better people. So Pastor I do appreciate your help, your words, and your guidance but I also know that God is the one who led me to write you because he truly knows how much I love Rachel and that you are someone that will help us both see beyond the pride, the hurt, and the selfishness to be in each others lives again.  I need you to know I have the highest regard for you and if you can look into my heart and see the man I truly am meant to be then you will open your heart and see the true pure love I have for Rachel. I never mean to put her down, demean her, or make people think less of her. What I Am Trying to Do! I am trying to show her I love her truly beyond any grudge, beyond any hurt, I forgive all the bad that was between us. She is the one I can't live without because I am not living without her in my life. I believe in you Rachel so if you are reading this today. Please put away all that keeps us apart and talk to me.  I care so much about you and inside I am dead because you are my dearest friend and each day it gets harder to not want to give up but I do it because I love God. I do it because He knows and has given me a love for you. That is honestly all I have to say today. I love you and Jonathan and hope you are blessed.


In Canada tomorrow its Thanksgiving.  I wanted the Myatt Family to know I love them and that I am thankful I met Rachel.  I haven't regretted it yet. I think she is very special and my prayer is that she will reflect on things and think about how much I truly do love her. We are blessed to love, to have friends, and good family in life.  Rachel I am reaching out to you because I love you. I don't know why you treated me like you did, I don't know why you continue to ignore me. All I know is that God will not let me walk away from you. I wish Blessings and Goodwill to the Myatt and Friesen family.  I love you Rachel Myatt and Jonathan Myatt.

I also want to use a song to make an analogy of how much I love you and how you are missing out on the true friendship and love I have for you. I usually don't use hip hop music to make a point as a lot of it is crude and vulgar and especially this person.  The love I have for you is priceless and precious Rachel. I am using "Lose Yourself" Rachel because you were my true love and if you don't understand that I will never love anyone again after this because you are the one who moved me and I wont give up on you.  You mean that much to me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4Uv_4jGgAM Im tired of the hurt, Im tired of you avoiding me. I am tired of not sleeping. I love you and Jonathan enough to give my own life for both of you.  You are everything I ever wanted why cant you understand I love you Rachel Myatt with all my heart? Do you want me to write your name across the sky? Do I have to let everyone know via internet how much I love you. Why can't this just be between you and me. Why can't you just admit what you did was wrong and cruel. I admitted what I did was wrong.  I forgave you. I accept you. I love you. I will always love you and Jonathan.  I would never leave you and him.  My heart is true.  My heart is open. I love God and because of him I love you Rachel Myatt. 

love
B

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