Dear Rachel and Readers,
The thing that hurt me the most about this whole ordeal is that Rachel thought that she could do what ever she wanted to and just expect me to just bend over and take it. Well here we are at what is not only the beginning of the next chapter but the one that counts the most. I am weeks away from releasing a book with vital information and stories about her. She would rather it hurt her family, her church, and herself than to pick up the phone and make peace with me. I can't stand hypocrites or people who say one thing then act another. To some she may appear a good so called Christian woman but she is not loyal, she chastises and puts down anyone who doesnt believe like her, and she has pulled the same mess she pulled with me with two other guys so if she wants to talk about people with mental problems and who are messed up in the head maybe she needs to look as far as her bathroom mirror. I never judged her and never did anything less than love her and want to be with her. She doesn't know the value of true friendship, she constantly lies, and she is fake. Anything that I believed was genuine and true about her went out the window months ago. I am not going to hold back in anything I have to say anymore. I wanted to make this blog short and sweet and dedicate this song to Rachel Myatt today for treating me the way she did, for judging me, and for trying to hide and ignore all the wrong she did. Here is a song about treating people less than human and judging them for the enviroment that made them who they are. It is called "Plastic World" by Naked Agression (profanity spoiler) I apologize but it is necessary to prove a point. One day I would like to make a Christian version of this song with certain words removed to teach others about the evil of judging and passing judgment on others.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxnLk12EWDI
When you pass judgement on others and claim to be Christian it makes you the biggest of hypocrites. It is ok to agree to disagree but to treat me evil and put down my faith as Rachel did and then try to twist her own world view to make me look bad to others I am not having that crap. That is why I fought the war that I have for the past year. She is going to learn that you dont treat people like she does because someone is eventually not going to put up with it and put you in your place. I got tired of women lying to me and playing games and Rachel was arrogant, pompous, pious, and selfish and so I did what I had to to show her that I a was never her doormat. I truly loved her and care for her and Jonathan and now what does she have? She made an enemy out of me. I love her and to me she will never be an enemy if she truly loved me at all she would end this ridculous mess she started and make peace with me but see that is the difference between myself and her. She comes at the idea of God of being selfish and self centered. I see God as a means to help others, to love others, and if we hurt others to find peace with them. That is what Jesus would truly want us to do. Rachel I pray for you every night because I do love you very much but you would much rather continue to hide and to have a book containing the way you treat people come out about you. I am going to do whatever I want and how I want it and I no longer care for your feelings because you didnt care about mine. You mocked my feelings, you made a joke out of the love I had for you, you put me down, disrespected my dead mother, you are not loyal, you are hurtful, spiteful, and the worst of what Christianity should not be. It is people like you who make people hate God and not want to find Him. I say what I say proudly and I will continue to tell the truth about your actions and how you dont care about anyone but yourself.
Philippians 2:3
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
The Following Portions of this Blog are culled from Sacred Text used by The Church Of The New Jerusalem in their studies and worship. I am using them to show that not only did I study and want to worship with Rachel but Rachel's treatment of me was hypocritical to the values of the Religion she is part of.
True Christian Religion 407
To love the neighbor is not alone to wish well and do good to a relative, a friend, or a good person, but also to a stranger, an enemy, or a bad person. But charity is to be exercised toward the latter in one way and toward the former in another—toward a relative or friend by direct benefits and toward an enemy or a bad person by indirect benefits, which are rendered by exhortation, discipline, punishment, and consequent amendment. For example, a judge who punishes an evil-doer in accordance with law and justice, loves his neighbor; for so he makes him better, and consults the welfare of the citizens that he may not do them harm. Everyone knows that a father who chastises his children when they do wrong, loves them, and that, on the other hand, he who does not chastise them therefore, loves their evils, and this cannot be called charity. Again, if a person repels an insulting enemy, and in self-defense strikes him or delivers him to the judge in order to prevent injury to himself, and yet with a disposition to be-friend the person, he acts from a charitable spirit…. The end in view declares whether it is charity or not.
(I use this because in my blog I am calling for peace with Rachel and I love Rachel. I do not want to be her enemy but I went to the New Church because I care about her and I wanted her to stop being lofty and judgemental so I did it as someone who was concerned for the way she was using her teachings not so much as an angry ex boyfriend like most think. I truly do love and adore Rachel and that is why I am doing what I am. Not as a defamation of character but as a way for her to realize how she hurts people with her actions, demeanor, and the bastardization of her Church doctrine to fit her own selfish needs)
Arcana Coelestia 2284:4
One is never allowed to judge the nature of another person’s spiritual life, for the Lord alone knows this. But one is allowed to judge the nature of another person’s life, private and public, since this is of importance to society.
Rachel chose to judge me and put me down and was cruel and untruthful about things. She made fun of my mental state after losing my mother, she said I was sick, unhappy, and damaged. She chose to do that. So I have every right not only to write this blog but to call her out on the evil of what she did. When we lose a person in death especially a parent or child we are allowed certain feelings and emotions. My mother loved me so much all she wanted was for me to live my life and love Rachel and on her deathbed she gave me her blessing. Rachel Myatt is someone I love with all my heart but instead of show compassion and patience with me like I showed her during the course of our relationship, she abandoned me, threw stones, and without proper cause made assumptions that just weren't true. She didnt communicate her feelings to me but even worst she tried to interpret my feelings without asking me or talking to me about things.
Heavenly Doctrine 164
A person who examines himself for the purpose of practicing repentance, should explore his thoughts, and the intentions of his will. There he ought to examine what he would do, if he were at liberty; that is, if he were not afraid of the laws, and the loss of reputation, honor, and gain. A person's evils are in his thoughts and intentions; and the evils which he does with the body are all from thence. Those persons who do not explore the evils of their thoughts and of their will cannot practice repentance. For afterwards they think and will just as they did before; and yet willing evils means doing them. This is meant by self-examination.
I have made a lot of mistakes and I fall short everyday of what God might want me to do. The one thing I do know is that God called me to Rachel Myatt. Rachel asked me on the phone after she abandoned me did I ever think that my love for her was a mistake? I told her no and I still love and believe in her. I put my faith in God first and that is why I got to where I did with her. I admit every wrong thing I did. I am sorry for the things I did after Rachel abandoned me to hurt her but I am not sorry for having the strength and courage to be able to ask God forgiveness, say what is on my mind to an audience worldwide, and to also tell people about her. If you love someone, truly love someone you never give up on them. I feel this way about Rachel and I would go to the ends of the earth for her but I also dont let people get by with treating me bad and others bad and not let them know about that which they have done to offend.
Arcana Coelestia 1594:5
The thing that hurt me the most about this whole ordeal is that Rachel thought that she could do what ever she wanted to and just expect me to just bend over and take it. Well here we are at what is not only the beginning of the next chapter but the one that counts the most. I am weeks away from releasing a book with vital information and stories about her. She would rather it hurt her family, her church, and herself than to pick up the phone and make peace with me. I can't stand hypocrites or people who say one thing then act another. To some she may appear a good so called Christian woman but she is not loyal, she chastises and puts down anyone who doesnt believe like her, and she has pulled the same mess she pulled with me with two other guys so if she wants to talk about people with mental problems and who are messed up in the head maybe she needs to look as far as her bathroom mirror. I never judged her and never did anything less than love her and want to be with her. She doesn't know the value of true friendship, she constantly lies, and she is fake. Anything that I believed was genuine and true about her went out the window months ago. I am not going to hold back in anything I have to say anymore. I wanted to make this blog short and sweet and dedicate this song to Rachel Myatt today for treating me the way she did, for judging me, and for trying to hide and ignore all the wrong she did. Here is a song about treating people less than human and judging them for the enviroment that made them who they are. It is called "Plastic World" by Naked Agression (profanity spoiler) I apologize but it is necessary to prove a point. One day I would like to make a Christian version of this song with certain words removed to teach others about the evil of judging and passing judgment on others.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxnLk12EWDI
When you pass judgement on others and claim to be Christian it makes you the biggest of hypocrites. It is ok to agree to disagree but to treat me evil and put down my faith as Rachel did and then try to twist her own world view to make me look bad to others I am not having that crap. That is why I fought the war that I have for the past year. She is going to learn that you dont treat people like she does because someone is eventually not going to put up with it and put you in your place. I got tired of women lying to me and playing games and Rachel was arrogant, pompous, pious, and selfish and so I did what I had to to show her that I a was never her doormat. I truly loved her and care for her and Jonathan and now what does she have? She made an enemy out of me. I love her and to me she will never be an enemy if she truly loved me at all she would end this ridculous mess she started and make peace with me but see that is the difference between myself and her. She comes at the idea of God of being selfish and self centered. I see God as a means to help others, to love others, and if we hurt others to find peace with them. That is what Jesus would truly want us to do. Rachel I pray for you every night because I do love you very much but you would much rather continue to hide and to have a book containing the way you treat people come out about you. I am going to do whatever I want and how I want it and I no longer care for your feelings because you didnt care about mine. You mocked my feelings, you made a joke out of the love I had for you, you put me down, disrespected my dead mother, you are not loyal, you are hurtful, spiteful, and the worst of what Christianity should not be. It is people like you who make people hate God and not want to find Him. I say what I say proudly and I will continue to tell the truth about your actions and how you dont care about anyone but yourself.
Philippians 2:3
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,
The Following Portions of this Blog are culled from Sacred Text used by The Church Of The New Jerusalem in their studies and worship. I am using them to show that not only did I study and want to worship with Rachel but Rachel's treatment of me was hypocritical to the values of the Religion she is part of.
True Christian Religion 407
To love the neighbor is not alone to wish well and do good to a relative, a friend, or a good person, but also to a stranger, an enemy, or a bad person. But charity is to be exercised toward the latter in one way and toward the former in another—toward a relative or friend by direct benefits and toward an enemy or a bad person by indirect benefits, which are rendered by exhortation, discipline, punishment, and consequent amendment. For example, a judge who punishes an evil-doer in accordance with law and justice, loves his neighbor; for so he makes him better, and consults the welfare of the citizens that he may not do them harm. Everyone knows that a father who chastises his children when they do wrong, loves them, and that, on the other hand, he who does not chastise them therefore, loves their evils, and this cannot be called charity. Again, if a person repels an insulting enemy, and in self-defense strikes him or delivers him to the judge in order to prevent injury to himself, and yet with a disposition to be-friend the person, he acts from a charitable spirit…. The end in view declares whether it is charity or not.
(I use this because in my blog I am calling for peace with Rachel and I love Rachel. I do not want to be her enemy but I went to the New Church because I care about her and I wanted her to stop being lofty and judgemental so I did it as someone who was concerned for the way she was using her teachings not so much as an angry ex boyfriend like most think. I truly do love and adore Rachel and that is why I am doing what I am. Not as a defamation of character but as a way for her to realize how she hurts people with her actions, demeanor, and the bastardization of her Church doctrine to fit her own selfish needs)
Arcana Coelestia 2284:4
One is never allowed to judge the nature of another person’s spiritual life, for the Lord alone knows this. But one is allowed to judge the nature of another person’s life, private and public, since this is of importance to society.
Rachel chose to judge me and put me down and was cruel and untruthful about things. She made fun of my mental state after losing my mother, she said I was sick, unhappy, and damaged. She chose to do that. So I have every right not only to write this blog but to call her out on the evil of what she did. When we lose a person in death especially a parent or child we are allowed certain feelings and emotions. My mother loved me so much all she wanted was for me to live my life and love Rachel and on her deathbed she gave me her blessing. Rachel Myatt is someone I love with all my heart but instead of show compassion and patience with me like I showed her during the course of our relationship, she abandoned me, threw stones, and without proper cause made assumptions that just weren't true. She didnt communicate her feelings to me but even worst she tried to interpret my feelings without asking me or talking to me about things.
Heavenly Doctrine 164
A person who examines himself for the purpose of practicing repentance, should explore his thoughts, and the intentions of his will. There he ought to examine what he would do, if he were at liberty; that is, if he were not afraid of the laws, and the loss of reputation, honor, and gain. A person's evils are in his thoughts and intentions; and the evils which he does with the body are all from thence. Those persons who do not explore the evils of their thoughts and of their will cannot practice repentance. For afterwards they think and will just as they did before; and yet willing evils means doing them. This is meant by self-examination.
I have made a lot of mistakes and I fall short everyday of what God might want me to do. The one thing I do know is that God called me to Rachel Myatt. Rachel asked me on the phone after she abandoned me did I ever think that my love for her was a mistake? I told her no and I still love and believe in her. I put my faith in God first and that is why I got to where I did with her. I admit every wrong thing I did. I am sorry for the things I did after Rachel abandoned me to hurt her but I am not sorry for having the strength and courage to be able to ask God forgiveness, say what is on my mind to an audience worldwide, and to also tell people about her. If you love someone, truly love someone you never give up on them. I feel this way about Rachel and I would go to the ends of the earth for her but I also dont let people get by with treating me bad and others bad and not let them know about that which they have done to offend.
Arcana Coelestia 1594:5
He who is in mutual love acknowledges and believes that all that is good and true is not his, but the Lord’s. His ability to love another as himself—and if he is like the angels, his ability to love another more than himself—he acknowledges and believes to be the Lord’s gift.
I loved Rachel and Jonathan Myatt so much that I was willing to give up my life her in Texas and be happy being a devoted husband, father, and best friend to both of them. I still love Rachel and Jonathan to this day more than my own life. In my heart Rachel is my best friend and I grieve her loss like I grieve my mother. The sad thing is my mother is gone from this world but Rachel and I still have a chance to put things right. I hope that in reading this Rachel you will see how God has transformed my heart and put a fire in it so strong that you cannot deny the love I have for you.
Arcana Coelestia 6388
They who are in genuine mutual love are in their delight and bliss when they are benefiting the neighbor, for they desire nothing more. I wanted to be Rachel and Jonathan's faithful servant and love them everyday and become closer to the Lord Jesus Christ with both of them. It was the smile in my heart, the joy in soul, and I love Rachel with all my being and doing for her and Jonathan would have made me happy for my mortal life till the one beyond. Arcana Coelestia 3875:5 Mutual love is different from friendship inasmuch as mutual love has a person’s good in view, and in directing itself towards that good is directed towards the person in whom good is present. Friendship however has the person in view, which is also mutual love when it looks at that person from the point of view of, that is, on account of, that good. But when it does not look at him from the point of view of good or on account of that good but on account of self which it calls good, friendship is not in that case mutual love but something close to the love of self. I always saw the good in Rachel and it outweighed the flaws, short comings, and misgivings of her. I could have been selfish and thought about what I wanted which was only to be loved but I did always think about Rachel and Jonathan first. How could I benefit their lives if I come into them? I loved that Rachel was so compassionate and caring with children and that was one of my reasons for wanting to date her. I liked that she was passionate about her faith, I never thought she would use it against me for evil though. I loved how she talked abou her family and it made me love and and want to have them as my family with her and Jonathan aswell. I thought Rachel loved me back the same way as she claimed to but in the end it was all about her selfish desire. I will continue to dissect some of The Church of The New Jerusalem's Sacred Text and Writings in accordance with the Bible, Swedenborg, and how they pertain to Rachel Myatt and I in the coming blogs. I hope if anyone from the New Church is reading this that you are now convinced that I wouldnt just go into this course of actions to degrade or to demean Rachel Myatt. I love Rachel Myatt and I am doing so to prove to Rachel and her family that I was meant to be with her and that even through adversity and tragedy we can rise about it all with God's love to be triumphant. I want nothing more than peace with Rachel Myatt. Love to all who Read this especially you my dear Ray Ray |
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