Is It Too Much to Believe in You?

Rachel Myatt. I just wanted you to know tonight that I care about you deeply and I wish you could put all the hurt and pain aside and understand that real love is more than just about some failed ideal of a relationship. The love we had for each other was more than that. It was true friendship, it was caring, it was loving, it was understanding and it was God's love. Are you truly willing to walk away from that knowing that everyday I think about you and what you and Jonathan are doing and love you that much.  Are you able to sleep at night knowing you hurt someone so bad but that person still loves and believes in you. That person prays about you and for you. He loves you and prays not for you to come back to him in a relationship but just that you and Jonathan are safe. He love you so much that there are somedays he just breaks down and cries. It would mean so much to him if you put aside all your pride and taked to him. I just wanted you to know I love you and that what little bit of a heart I had left after being abused and mistreated is completely gone after believing in you.  You have deeply hurt and scarred my heart and soul. I truly did believe in you and that you loved me. Now I dont believe in such a thing as love just people using people for whatever and then using God's name in vain when they hurt them saying God loves you even if I didnt. Its a cowards way out and it is not what God wants us to do to each other. I wasn't your toy. I wasnt you game. I truly cared and love you.  No matter what has happened between us and how you feel I love you with all my heart Rachel Myatt. I forgive you. If you picked up the phone and talk to me I have put all that we did to each other behind us but you have to too.  I want to talk to you again. Hear your voice. Your laugh. I miss you. If you want to know how I feel about you I end this blog with a video about unconditional love even with someone who you didnt always get along with.  Its "Girlfriend In A Coma" by the Smiths its tongue and cheek but its also a very endearing song about how sometimes it takes something almost tragic to make us realize how much we love someone. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5b_V68mQ9k&ob=av2e Goodnight Rachel Myatt I love you with all my heart I wish we could end this feud and being apart.

Since you like Against Me , Rachel I wanted to share this Frank Turner song called "Once We Were Anarchist" I wish we could still share music and were still in each others lives I miss hearing from and sharing music with you but I love you regardless and maybe you will get into him through my blog efforts.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IUQ9tMyi7Ns&feature=related He used to be in a punk band called Million Dead since you like Rise Against and bands like that you may like them also. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EUJFgTyEP8M&feature=related

Luke 14:11
For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”