Dear Rachel and Readers,
This is a continuation of yesterday's blog so make sure you read that one. So why is it called God Makes No Mistakes? Well I made Rachel a cd when we first got together and on of the first songs I put on it to show her that I loved her and that God had a hand in this was. "God Makes No Mistakes" by Loretta Lynn. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0r9iUOdHjk In using this song I want all to know that the reason I have never given up on Rachel is because that is God's will and it is He who ultimately shapes our lives. We call on Him for help, guidance, support, and love and He gives us all His mercy, grace, and kindness. I want to make a few points so that maybe Rachel, her family, Pastor Glenn or anyone who has been following the saga for the last 9 months will understand.
1. I had no desire to date anyone who had children because I had been burned so many times. Rachel came along and changed that. The more I thought about it and learned about Jonathan and after meeting him I loved and wanted to be there for him. It saddened me that Rachel would play with that as I saw all the beauty in that child and other children of past girlfriends I had I didn't feel that love or connection for. When I said never God said yes and gave me the love to give to Rachel and Jonathan and to put down the barrier I had put up for myself. It was my will to not date anyone anymore with children. God came along and changed that. My faith in Him comes first not what others think about me or want to speculate about me
.Luke 18:27
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.”
2. Rachel, her family, and Pastor Glenn may wish that I may go away but deep in their hearts I know they know I am right. They saw how much love I had for Rachel. How she handled the situation and was cruel and unkind. She tried to use my pain and reaction at the time to justify the way she portrayed me as crazy, unstable, and damaged. The only thing wrong with me at the time is 1. I was a little shy and just wanted Rachel to know how much I loved her. 2. I was mourning. I never expected my mom to die but God called her home. Why did Rachel judge me for being in grief? I forgive Rachel for everything she did and all I asked for was the same. Until she says it to me herself though it will never mean anything. You can tell your Pastor or anybody else that you forgave me but it wont mean anything till you contact me and do it yourself.
Matthew 6:15
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
3. God guards our free will but He is also there to influence our decision. I have every right to hate you, get revenge on you, and seek an eye for an eye. That was taught to us in the Old Testament
.Leviticus 24:20
fracture for fracture, eye for eye, tooth for tooth. The one who has inflicted the injury must suffer the same injury.Jesus came along and changed that when He freed mankind from those binds by washing away our sins. The New Testament teaches of something greater. Forgiveness, Love, Reconcilation, Kindess, Patience, and Acceptance. Jesus made it so all of us Jews and Gentiles could recieve His grace and love. The divisions and lines that had justified an eye for an eye and tooth for a tooth or enacting justice through retaliation were a thing of the past. Christ wanted us to love or brothers and sisters, forgive, seek justice through kindness, instead of hate your enemies love them, instead hold grudges and not talk to someone you love but have a grievance with then put it aside and make peace with them. Love them and be well with them. Rachel this is the point I am trying to get across to you and Pastor Glenn and your family. By God's love I became the man I needed to be to deal with my mothers death and your abandonment of me. God also told me not to give up on you because He alone put the love in my heart for you, without Him I probably would have sought revenge not writing a blog about how much I love you, sending out letters to your Church about how I love you but writing ill things about you and telling people how much I hate you. It is your choice to see the love I have for you. You are my best friend Rachel Myatt and I miss you and only want you in my life again. I miss you and Jonathan so much and with my health going up and down I don't know what the future brings but I love you so much that I cant turn my back on you. I want to reiterate what I just said about Old Testament vs New Testament with scripture
Matthew 5:38-42
Eye for an Eye
38 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth. 39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. 41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
Matthew 5:43-48 Love for enemies
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Jesus came along and changed the dynamics as opposed to what the Old Testament taught. Many in the world still seek justice according to the words of Leviticus 24:20. Christianity especially New Christianity like the New Church teach of instead of trying to inflict pain back on others or seek justice through those means why not turn the other cheek. Fight evil with love. Love in the end is the only way. Rachel for months I have sent you letters, I sent you things you sent back, I have contacted your Church. I have done everything I have done because I love you. I have never been your enemy but because I was the guy who would truly love you and be there for you you ran and then you were very cruel and hurtful to me at a time when I really needed your friendship and love. You were the one who said to me people needed people and I loved you and trusted you with my heart, my friendship, my body, my soul and my Love of God. You mocked and didn't appreciate any of the love and kindness I had for you. You made fun of me, called me sick and damaged when I needed encouragement and love. Here though I stand a year later still loving you. Still open armed. I will always be your friend and love you as such and I would take you back into a relationship again slowly but I would give you my trust again. Why? Because that is what God wants. That is what Lord Jesus Christ wants for us to show forgiveness. He wants us to love, He wants us to enjoy life, He wants us to reap the benefits by sharing that love with others. I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I hope you can look into your heart to come back into my life. I put all my faith in God even when I thought I was ready to give up. Last week I felt so sad you wouldn't talk to me and God once again was there for me. He led me into a club full of people singing and dancing having a good time with tears in my eyes. He was the one who guided the girls at the door not to make me pay for the ticket. He was the one who everyday lets me express my love for you and not hate you but celebrate the love I have for you and Jonathan. Rachel Myatt I love you with every being in my body and the last year you were the reason I didn't give up. I know that God loves me so much that He will lead you back to me. He will let your family see that I truly love you and that this love is from and always has been from God. I know your Pastor cares about the situation because Pastor Glenn is a good wise man. I know that he sees the love in my heart for you and he sees all the people around me that love me trying to show you that I love you. Rachel remember how you said to me I would never be with you. Remember how I said that I didn't believe that and kept trying. That is because I have a faith that is not clouded by doubt but a faith that is strengthend by God. I know that if I look to Him and pray to Him that everything I ask for will come in time. I love you Rachel Myatt and everyday I pray that you will realize I am your best friend in Christ. I love you and Jonathan and would give my life for both of you. I pray that we will end all that has come between us and just love again. You are the love of my life Rachel Myatt and God's love has been here all along. God Makes No Mistakes!! God Bless You Rachel.
Hebrews 4:13
Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Arcana Coelestia 8318.2 Be it known that evils are from a double origin; namely, from the love of self, and from the love of the world. They who are in evils from the love of self, love themselves only, and despise all others except those who make one with themselves, in loving whom they do not love them, but themselves, because they see themselves in them. The evils from this origin are the worst of all; for they who are in them not only despise all others in comparison with themselves, but also pursue them with invectives, and bear hatred toward them for slight cause, and then breathe their destruction. In this way revenge and cruelty become the delight of their life. They who are in the evil of this love are at a depth in hell according to the quality and amount of this love.
I love you Rachel Myatt I wish you still loved me so you could come down and see this show
http://www.kdge.com/pages/htesc/ music was something that brought us together but is the glue that can bring us back. I care for you so much I just wish you let go of whats keeping you away from me because I know you love me.
Rachel today one of my customers at work told me how nice I was and that I would make a good father and that I needed to have children. I told him that I loved you and I wanted children with you but you turned me away and not only that broke my heart. So many people see the love I have for children and how much it means for me to be a father by just looking at me. I love you and Jonathan and I only wish you would understand that it was only you and him that I wanted to give my love and start a family. I don't want anyone else I truly love you two.
This is a continuation of yesterday's blog so make sure you read that one. So why is it called God Makes No Mistakes? Well I made Rachel a cd when we first got together and on of the first songs I put on it to show her that I loved her and that God had a hand in this was. "God Makes No Mistakes" by Loretta Lynn. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0r9iUOdHjk In using this song I want all to know that the reason I have never given up on Rachel is because that is God's will and it is He who ultimately shapes our lives. We call on Him for help, guidance, support, and love and He gives us all His mercy, grace, and kindness. I want to make a few points so that maybe Rachel, her family, Pastor Glenn or anyone who has been following the saga for the last 9 months will understand.
1. I had no desire to date anyone who had children because I had been burned so many times. Rachel came along and changed that. The more I thought about it and learned about Jonathan and after meeting him I loved and wanted to be there for him. It saddened me that Rachel would play with that as I saw all the beauty in that child and other children of past girlfriends I had I didn't feel that love or connection for. When I said never God said yes and gave me the love to give to Rachel and Jonathan and to put down the barrier I had put up for myself. It was my will to not date anyone anymore with children. God came along and changed that. My faith in Him comes first not what others think about me or want to speculate about me
.Luke 18:27
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.”
2. Rachel, her family, and Pastor Glenn may wish that I may go away but deep in their hearts I know they know I am right. They saw how much love I had for Rachel. How she handled the situation and was cruel and unkind. She tried to use my pain and reaction at the time to justify the way she portrayed me as crazy, unstable, and damaged. The only thing wrong with me at the time is 1. I was a little shy and just wanted Rachel to know how much I loved her. 2. I was mourning. I never expected my mom to die but God called her home. Why did Rachel judge me for being in grief? I forgive Rachel for everything she did and all I asked for was the same. Until she says it to me herself though it will never mean anything. You can tell your Pastor or anybody else that you forgave me but it wont mean anything till you contact me and do it yourself.
Matthew 6:15
But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.
3. God guards our free will but He is also there to influence our decision. I have every right to hate you, get revenge on you, and seek an eye for an eye. That was taught to us in the Old Testament
.Leviticus 24:20
fracture for fracture, eye for eye, tooth for tooth. The one who has inflicted the injury must suffer the same injury.Jesus came along and changed that when He freed mankind from those binds by washing away our sins. The New Testament teaches of something greater. Forgiveness, Love, Reconcilation, Kindess, Patience, and Acceptance. Jesus made it so all of us Jews and Gentiles could recieve His grace and love. The divisions and lines that had justified an eye for an eye and tooth for a tooth or enacting justice through retaliation were a thing of the past. Christ wanted us to love or brothers and sisters, forgive, seek justice through kindness, instead of hate your enemies love them, instead hold grudges and not talk to someone you love but have a grievance with then put it aside and make peace with them. Love them and be well with them. Rachel this is the point I am trying to get across to you and Pastor Glenn and your family. By God's love I became the man I needed to be to deal with my mothers death and your abandonment of me. God also told me not to give up on you because He alone put the love in my heart for you, without Him I probably would have sought revenge not writing a blog about how much I love you, sending out letters to your Church about how I love you but writing ill things about you and telling people how much I hate you. It is your choice to see the love I have for you. You are my best friend Rachel Myatt and I miss you and only want you in my life again. I miss you and Jonathan so much and with my health going up and down I don't know what the future brings but I love you so much that I cant turn my back on you. I want to reiterate what I just said about Old Testament vs New Testament with scripture
Matthew 5:38-42
Eye for an Eye
38 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth. 39 But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. 40 And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well. 41 If anyone forces you to go one mile, go with them two miles. 42 Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you.
Matthew 5:43-48 Love for enemies
43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ 44 But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, 45 that you may be children of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. 46 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? 47 And if you greet only your own people, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? 48 Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.
Jesus came along and changed the dynamics as opposed to what the Old Testament taught. Many in the world still seek justice according to the words of Leviticus 24:20. Christianity especially New Christianity like the New Church teach of instead of trying to inflict pain back on others or seek justice through those means why not turn the other cheek. Fight evil with love. Love in the end is the only way. Rachel for months I have sent you letters, I sent you things you sent back, I have contacted your Church. I have done everything I have done because I love you. I have never been your enemy but because I was the guy who would truly love you and be there for you you ran and then you were very cruel and hurtful to me at a time when I really needed your friendship and love. You were the one who said to me people needed people and I loved you and trusted you with my heart, my friendship, my body, my soul and my Love of God. You mocked and didn't appreciate any of the love and kindness I had for you. You made fun of me, called me sick and damaged when I needed encouragement and love. Here though I stand a year later still loving you. Still open armed. I will always be your friend and love you as such and I would take you back into a relationship again slowly but I would give you my trust again. Why? Because that is what God wants. That is what Lord Jesus Christ wants for us to show forgiveness. He wants us to love, He wants us to enjoy life, He wants us to reap the benefits by sharing that love with others. I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I hope you can look into your heart to come back into my life. I put all my faith in God even when I thought I was ready to give up. Last week I felt so sad you wouldn't talk to me and God once again was there for me. He led me into a club full of people singing and dancing having a good time with tears in my eyes. He was the one who guided the girls at the door not to make me pay for the ticket. He was the one who everyday lets me express my love for you and not hate you but celebrate the love I have for you and Jonathan. Rachel Myatt I love you with every being in my body and the last year you were the reason I didn't give up. I know that God loves me so much that He will lead you back to me. He will let your family see that I truly love you and that this love is from and always has been from God. I know your Pastor cares about the situation because Pastor Glenn is a good wise man. I know that he sees the love in my heart for you and he sees all the people around me that love me trying to show you that I love you. Rachel remember how you said to me I would never be with you. Remember how I said that I didn't believe that and kept trying. That is because I have a faith that is not clouded by doubt but a faith that is strengthend by God. I know that if I look to Him and pray to Him that everything I ask for will come in time. I love you Rachel Myatt and everyday I pray that you will realize I am your best friend in Christ. I love you and Jonathan and would give my life for both of you. I pray that we will end all that has come between us and just love again. You are the love of my life Rachel Myatt and God's love has been here all along. God Makes No Mistakes!! God Bless You Rachel.
Hebrews 4:13
Nothing in all creation is hidden from God’s sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account.
Arcana Coelestia 8318.2 Be it known that evils are from a double origin; namely, from the love of self, and from the love of the world. They who are in evils from the love of self, love themselves only, and despise all others except those who make one with themselves, in loving whom they do not love them, but themselves, because they see themselves in them. The evils from this origin are the worst of all; for they who are in them not only despise all others in comparison with themselves, but also pursue them with invectives, and bear hatred toward them for slight cause, and then breathe their destruction. In this way revenge and cruelty become the delight of their life. They who are in the evil of this love are at a depth in hell according to the quality and amount of this love.
I love you Rachel Myatt I wish you still loved me so you could come down and see this show
http://www.kdge.com/pages/htesc/ music was something that brought us together but is the glue that can bring us back. I care for you so much I just wish you let go of whats keeping you away from me because I know you love me.
Rachel today one of my customers at work told me how nice I was and that I would make a good father and that I needed to have children. I told him that I loved you and I wanted children with you but you turned me away and not only that broke my heart. So many people see the love I have for children and how much it means for me to be a father by just looking at me. I love you and Jonathan and I only wish you would understand that it was only you and him that I wanted to give my love and start a family. I don't want anyone else I truly love you two.
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