I am sure you have thought about things in the past week or so. After emailing Pastor Glenn and writing you that short but sweet nasty blog basically telling you everything that needed to be said I thought about it. I thought about how hard you keep trying to keep me from telling the truth and how you want people not to read this blog. How you must be trying to have it removed. I did it out of love and much like your belief in free will and do anything you want to people now I am excercising mine. I use free speech and it is not speech to slander it is speech to inform and for you to either accept or ignore. It is great entertainment for some I guess about what I have experienced and the fact I have kept this blog up for so long over a broken heart I guess. It was never about our romantic relationship Rachel it came about because of the deep friendship and understanding of each other we had and in a few short hours you decided to blow that all away. I will always love you and even if you try to hinder the expression in this blog by going to Google or Yahoo or whoever and having it blocked it doesnt matter I will just put it up somewhere else for people to read. If you are determined there is always another way. Are you ready for the Youtube videos? Why you just don't pick up the phone and end this I don't understand. I am standing with open arms and forgiveness yet you think if you ignore the mountain that grew out of a few grains of sand it will just go away. I love you so much and if I didn't care I never would have written this blog or taken on the campaign worldwide to show you I love. If you want to keep ignoring me that is fine, if your Pastor and family want to label me as a villian that is ok. I just want you to remember when all is said and done and I am expressing myself about you in greater terms such as video and music and you are talked about. I came to you with love. I talk about you everday how much I love you but you would never know because to you it was all just a game. I am truly sorry Rachel Myatt that you dont understand how much a man loves and went out of his way to show you he loved you. You played with my dreams and when you do that to a man who believes in his dreams then you mess with his whole being and livelihood. God bless you and your family today and I hope that someday soon you will pick up the phone and we can end this. Truth is this whole situation has changed and transformed me into the man God wants me to be. I am stronger, wiser, and more loving than ever. You cant take that away from me no matter what you try to do and that is why you are upset that I wont stop loving you as I never turn my back on anyone even my enemies. You are my best friend and I love you enough that I will do anything for you to understand that. I love you with all being. This is all about love. God's love. Not about some sick obsession, not some dumb infatuation. This is about friendship, loyalty, honesty, and integrity. All of which I gave you and you returned none of it. I am going to continue killing you with kindness because I believe there is so much more to be said and done and God has given me friends and family and others who believe in what I am doing toward you. Love always wins Rachel even if you dont see it right now the love I have for you will eventually bring you back. I love you so much!!!
love
B
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