Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
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Saturday, October 22, 2011

How Judas Priest Helped Me Love God More and Seek Forgiveness with Rachel

This is probably one of the most personal blog I will ever write but I wanted Rachel and all my readers to know the beauty of music and how God can use it to heal and to help us deal with everyday life. Many people would think that me being a Christian and listening to Judas Priest and even using them as an example would be quite an odd choice. I grew up listening to lots of heavy music and I was brought up with a strict Christian upbringing.  I was even singled out at Church by the hiearchy when I was 14 because of my love of heavy metal.  It was this constant judging in life by people that made me the way I am. Rachel you had no right to judge me and say the things you did. I am a perfectly normal human being who has never been diagnosed with a mental illness.  I have never done drugs.  I have never been in trouble with the law. I am not out smoking and drinking.  I love God and I had to struggle to find that love and when I found Him it has been the glue that holds my life together. All I ever did was love you and I never judged you or decided I couldn't love you for any flaw or doubt I had about who you were.  I don't understand you ridicule and your finger pointing at my mental state, my faith, and my love.  When people die you are going to grieve. What if your mother died today. Would I call you sick and mentally ill? No would I abandon you because you were a little under the weather? No I would have been right there by your side being the best friend I could be. I would give you all the support and love in the world which is something you didnt do for me.  When I was with you I was  so happy more than you can ever know I was never sad just shy and collected.  I went from being one of the most outgoing guys ever to just living in limbo after my mom died.  I was dealing with it the best I could.  The one thing I do know is that I loved you and Jonathan enough to come see you and keep my promise to you without hesitation with no selfish feelings of my loss but instead doing what my mom asked me to do and just live my life and love you.  So how does Judas Priest fit into my love of Christ and my love for Rachel. I will explain.

Recently I had been looking for inspiration in music.  I have been writing and mixing the songs that will appear on  the "Letters to Rachel" album.  People are like when are you going to finally put the album out? I told them I have to make sure that its right so that Rachel knows how much I love her. I wrote a song last night about forgiveness called "If We Could..." It is amazing. Anyways!  Judas Priest has always been one of the greatest Metal bands ever.  Rob Halford's voice is incredible!! The range of his octaves is impressive.  So how does this fit in with loving Christ and Rachel Byron? 

I have been listening a lot to the album "Stained Class" it came out in 1978 when I was only 3yrs old.  It is probably one of the greatest metal albums ever it starts off with a song called "Exciter" with Rob Halford wailing about an Alien Messiah who comes to give us Salvation.  Now to me the guitar work is so netherwordly and angelic that I think of Christ love.  I think of the beauty of giving Rob Halford a voice like he did and giving us great guitarist like K.K. Downing and Glenn Tipton.  The best part of the song is a solo at the 3:38 mark which can be viewed here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KO2DYwvseiY I think of God's love and how he can lift us up when we are at our lowest. 
The next song on the album "White Heat , Red Hot"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ahCP6BkVG1k&feature=related the groove alone send me to heaven.  I think of the cosmos. I think of God's creation and all its beauty. I have been blasting this in the car window down even with it being cooler now and just rocking out.
The 3rd song on the album is the one that will explain the whole reason I am using Judas Priest as an example.  It is a cover of the Spooky Tooth song "Better By You, Better Than Me" It is about a man leaving the woman he love because of the relationship and going to join the war effort.  I feel like I am at war with Rachel and it was never supposed to be this way. We had so much love and Rachel in one instant you just ran scared, cursed me, treated me like your enemy and abandoned me. I was willing to believe in you, be faithful, and love you unconditionally and you just threw it all away so the guy in this story figures he might as well go to war and die because the love he has isnt working out. That is how I felt whether you understand it or not when you abandoned me my heart and soul died then.  I barely made it out alive but I am here and I am here with forgiveness and love. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKzOIdJ7ApI&feature=related

I am also going to use the song "Better By You, Better Than Me" as an example of personal responsibilty and choice.  Rachel used her personal responsiblity to hurt and damage me. I was always honest with her and truthful. I even gave her a chance to break up with me in Canada. Instead she wanted to be selfish and wait till I was back here in the U.S. so she didn't have to deal with the pain of actually hurting someone instead of when I could have hugged her shook her hand and walked way amicably, as friends still. She seems to thrive on drama and that is why I have never let down on my convictions and my belief in this blog or my love for her. Ok how does this song and Judas Priest pertain to this.  I will now explain. 

This was an actual court case against the band Judas Priest. It said that the song "Better By You, Better Than Me" had sublimal messages which led two young men to make a suicide pact, one suceeded and the other was horribly disfigured and later died from an overdose of painkillers James Vance Vs Judas Priest 
was the court case it was chronicled in the documentary "Dream Decievers http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FNg-QLsv_9U&feature=related  This is an example of placing blame on others and not being able to stand up for personal  responsibilty.  These two guys had the choice. They chose to make a suicide pact. They chose to pull the trigger. They chose to try to blame their actions on a song.  No song will make you pull a trigger you have to make that choice. I chose life when you abandoned me one because God loves me and two because I love you Rachel Myatt.  You made a choice to treat me the way you did Rachel. It was your free will to be cruel. It was your free will to say the things you did.  Your choice to judge me and tear me down. It was my choice to react they way I did but in the end I have reacted with love no matter how pissed at you I have been. I could have just said screw you and just flogged you all over the place. Instead I made a heartfelt decision to let people know how much I love you. It may have seemed like a backhanded attempt to get back at you but its not. I really love you. I don't look at what happened and hate you. It makes me love you and wish you would listen to the message of love and forgivenes I am trying to share with you. I want you back in my life but again that is your choice. You have to stand up and face your responsibilty Rachel Myatt. Do you want to this to continue do you want to it to affect your life, your Church, and everyone around you. Stop hiding and face up to things and make peace with me.  I am glad that their are bands like Judas Priest that have great music that inspire me. I am inspired to love you because of their music.  I am to blame for loving you, I am to blame for believing in you, I am also to blame for putting up with the way you treated me. I wont pass judgement on anyone else because of that.  Your behavior towards me was my grounds for all that I have done it directly affected others so it will be up to you Rachel Myatt how you want to ultimately end this. Do you want it to end in love and reconciliation or with more of the same and you end up hurting more people in the near future. You decide.

I also want to talk about how Judas Priest is a reminder of how we should be tolerant of other peoples beliefs, views, and thought process.  Rob Halford the singer of Judas Priest is gay.  A lot of people suspected it but in the 90s he finally came out in public.  He believed his professional career and the people around him was more important than his sexuality so he tried to keep it hidden.  He cared about the other people around him and his personal responsibilty was to those who he loved and respected.  When he finally admitted it people accepted it.  The fans still loved and respected both Halford and Judas Priest. What people do or believe shouldnt be all that defines them. It is how they conduct their life and serve their fellow man or woman.  Its about charity and love.  I was raised in Christian Theology and that Homosexuality was wrong. It didnt stop me from loving people who were gay and accepting them for who they are. My cousin died of HIV in the 90s he was gay. He hid it well but we didn't love him any less.  Rachel the reason that I wanted to write this blog today is because of the way you judge people. You know why God is giving me the strength and insight to do what I am doing. He loves you. He wants you to stop judging people. He wants you to stop hurting people.  He wants you to stop hurting me and love me. I love you and I am happy. I have so much love for you and even after all that you did and said to me I can forgive and still want you in my life. This is not about having you as my girlfriend again. I would take you back in a heartbeat but I would rather have you talk to me as a friend and just slowly have you back in my life.  I am calling on you today to be brave and find it in your heart to do so.

Judas Priest was diverse and accepting as they culled their name from a Bob Dylan song "The Ballad of Frankie Lee and Judas Priest"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dwm-5ABSIs0 It has a beautiful message.  Judas Priest though they were metal always did covers of great songs especially the cover of folk singer Joan Baez "Diamonds and Rust" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GGMHSbcd_qI and the Judas Priest Version http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLDazyvMMGw&feature=fvsr  This blog today was about my love for music of all kinds and how even things we wouldn't normally bring us closer to God can. With God all things are possible. This Blog today was directly to Rachel Myatt as challenge to face up to they way she treated me and to talk to me.  Rachel no one can make things right but you. You have to stop hurting people and then hiding after you do the damage. I love you and I am willing to put it all on the line to prove that to you.  I love you more than anyone on this earth and if I have to travel this world to let you know that I will and I am about to. You mean the world to me I just wish I had of meant the world to you
Christian  Band Stryper in 2011 covering Judas Priest "Breaking the Law" from their album "The Covering" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKEJ5draLcA&feature=related Being a Christian doesnt mean being uptight intolerant and not living. Being a Christian means loving others, accepting them, and caring for them as Christ did all of us.  We can learn a lot in this video. Not only did Rob Halford take it as a compliment instead of slag Stryper for being a Christian band like so many people do but Stryper did a whole album of covers some like Iron Maiden, Ozzy Ozbourne, and Led Zepplin, Now in constrast here is a video of someone judging and slagging Stryper for just playing music they like sort of like Rachel judging me and putting me down because I was raised to love God differently than her.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgHcaFRoRxQ&feature=related   I just wished people would love each other and appreciate the beauty of Jesus sacrifice, His Love, and the wondeful gift of life we all have and not judge and put each other down but rejoice in all that is HIS
 


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2 Corinthians 11:4

For if someone comes to you and preaches a Jesus other than the Jesus we preached, or if you receive a different spirit from the Spirit you received, or a different gospel from the one you accepted, you put up with it easily enough.


Only God can Judge You and Me Rachel So I leave you this from one of your Sacred Text.


Arcana Coelestia 2284
2284. Peradventure ten shall be found there. That this signifies if there should still be remains, is evident from the signification of the number "ten," as being remains (explained in volume 1, n. 576, 1738). What remains are has been stated and shown before in various places (as in n. 468, 530, 560, 561, 660, 661, 1050, 1738, 1906), namely, that they are all the good and all the truth with man which lie stored up in his memories and in his life. [2] It is well known that there is nothing good and nothing true, except from the Lord; and also that what is good and true is continually inflowing from the Lord into man, but that it is received in various ways, and in fact in accordance with the life of evil, and in accordance with the principles of falsity in which the man has confirmed himself. These are what either quench, or stifle, or pervert the goods and truths that are continually flowing in from the Lord. Lest therefore goods should be commingled with evils, and truths with falsities (for if they were commingled the man would perish eternally), the Lord separates them, and stores up in his interior man the goods and truths which the man receives; whence He will never permit them to come forth so long as the man is in evil and falsity, but only at such a time as he is in a holy state, or in some anxiety, sickness, or other trouble. These things which the Lord has thus stored up with man are what are called "remains," of which very much mention is made in the Word; but it has not yet been known to anyone that this is what they signify. [3] According to the quality and quantity of the remains-that is, of the good and truth with a man-does he enjoy bliss and happiness in the other life; for, as has been said, these remains are stored up in his interior man, and they are opened at the time when the man has left corporeal and worldly things behind. The Lord alone knows the quality and extent of the remains in a man; the man himself cannot possibly know this, for at the present day man is of such a character that he is able to counterfeit what is good, while within there is nothing but evil; and a man may also appear to be evil and yet have good within. On this account no man is ever allowed to judge concerning the quality of the spiritual life of another, for the Lord alone, as before said, knows this; but everyone may judge of another in regard to the quality of his moral and civil life, for this concerns society. [4] It is very common for those who have taken up an opinion respecting any truth of faith, to judge of others that they cannot be saved, unless they believe as they do-a judgment which the Lord has forbidden (Matt. 7:1-2). On the other hand, I have learned from much experience that men of every religion are saved, provided that by a life of charity they have received remains of good and of apparent truth. This is what is meant by its being said that if ten were found, they should not be destroyed for the ten's sake; by which is signified that they would be saved if there were remains. [5] The life of charity consists in thinking kindly of another, and in wishing him well; and in perceiving joy in oneself from the fact that others also are saved. But those have not the life of charity who desire that none should be saved except those who believe as they do; and especially is this the case with those who are indignant that it is otherwise. This may be seen from the mere fact that more from the Gentiles are saved than from Christians; for those Gentiles who have thought kindly of their neighbor and have wished well to him, receive the truths of faith in the other life better than those who are called Christians, and acknowledge the Lord more than Christians do. For nothing is more delightful and blessed to the angels than to instruct those who come from the earth into the other life.

You Backed Me Into A Corner with your Judgement and Your Cruelty and Now You Dont Like The Fact That I Wont Back Down, Wont Fall Down, and Wont Give Up.  All I Ever Did Was Love and Believe In You but you didn't want me to feel loved or be happy but it was ok for you to take and play with my love.  Even in Your Generousity Rachel you are Selfish!

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