Dear Rachel,
I just want to say this to you today. If you really cared about people then you would have the courage to end this with me. You would pick up the phone and we could both forgive and forget. Instead you hide and live your life in hiding. You think that things will just go away if you wait long enough but they just keep getting bigger. When you lie the lies get bigger so if you don't eventually deal with the reality of the truth it just keeps growing and growing and that is what is happening here. I loved you enough to come to the Church with my grievances. If I were some crazy guy that had no regard for you I could have just got a private investigator in Canada and found even more information on you than you had given me and just go from there but I am not that guy. I am just a guy who loves you and who believes in you and I want you to think about these couple of points today.
1. I will never accept anything less than you forgiving me and also telling me your sorry. I want to hear it from you and I have things I need to say to you so if you cant be woman enough to do that then I will continue with what I am doing.
2. Think of all the people who are envolved in this now Rachel if you had of just made amends with me and not been so cruel there would be no blog, there would be no Letters to Rachel Campaign. You hurt yourself. You got your Church involved. Your family. You would rather see other people suffer because of something you did than to face up to me. Pastor Glenn though he didnt respond at first has been nothing but understanding but its not his cross to bear Rachel Myatt it is yours.
3. Think about how you used to love to put up videos and put up pictures on the internet now you wont because you think I will find them and use them against you. I really dont care what you put up on youtube or whatever I wont make any comments about anything rude accept that I love you and I care. Think of how it must feel to know you hurt somebody so bad and were so inconsiderate and mean that person went worldwide telling your Church and other people how cruel you were and how slanderous you were religiously. All I ever did was accept your faith Rachel. I loved you enough that I would have been baptized and been happy and content living and loving you in the Lord but you were so selfish and so impatient with me when all I was giving and patient with you.
4. You don't deserve my mercy and my kindness but you know what none of us deserve Gods Mercy and Kindness so it has been because of Him I have tried to limit the spectrum of what I am doing because i truly do love you in His name. Please dont think because you are in a small town in Canada that you can hide from what you have done. I have friends all over the world not only that I am well educated and versed in many things. One thing that really upset me is that I never cared that you didnt want or aspire to go to college I accepted you for who you were. I am very big on people learning and I loved you for all the knowledge you gained on your own and I was content with the beauty of that. You put me down, insulted my intelligence, and abandoned me when all I did was the opposite. You deserve for me to just be the cruelest person in the world to you. You know what though Rachel Myatt for a year now all I have done is pray and love you from a distance even if you cant see how much I do others do and some of them are people close to you. That is why no one has ever called me out on this blog because they know what you did was wrong, selfish, and they know what kind of person you are. Even your mother told me when I was there about your mean streak. I could deal with it. You tore me down, spit me out, and ignored me but here I am after all the crap you did still loving you. So its your choice Rachel Myatt I am about to take this campaign one step further. Id rather just end it for good but you wont let me. So think about this today.
All the People You Hurt. All the People who have read this story and blog. About Jonathan, About Amanda, About Pastor Glenn, About your Mother, About the Dawson Creek New Church, About the New Church of Canada, About the New Church Worldwide. About anyone who has indirectly been affected by your decision that you made. It was your choice to do things and you have let others take the blame because you cant be woman enough to face up to what you have done. So remember that as you read this because others are going to continue to be pulled into this because of my actions and because of your decision to ignore me and not to deal with your actions will be the continued consequences. I love you Rachel Myatt I just wish the strong, loving, caring Rachel Myatt would come out the dark and be a woman. I was more than just some fling or romantic relationship I valued you as a trusted friend and sister in Christ but you keep choosing not to see that. I wish you had of valued my time and my love more. Maybe like this slight comedic video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCB2nrLGpbw
I will always love you but I have to do what I am going to do because it is my calling from God and to love you and not be evil is what I will continue to do. Even though I suffer and hurt I do it because of the love of the Lord and his Plan I love Rachel very much and here is the best way I can describe his Plan and my love for Rachel.
I just want to say this to you today. If you really cared about people then you would have the courage to end this with me. You would pick up the phone and we could both forgive and forget. Instead you hide and live your life in hiding. You think that things will just go away if you wait long enough but they just keep getting bigger. When you lie the lies get bigger so if you don't eventually deal with the reality of the truth it just keeps growing and growing and that is what is happening here. I loved you enough to come to the Church with my grievances. If I were some crazy guy that had no regard for you I could have just got a private investigator in Canada and found even more information on you than you had given me and just go from there but I am not that guy. I am just a guy who loves you and who believes in you and I want you to think about these couple of points today.
1. I will never accept anything less than you forgiving me and also telling me your sorry. I want to hear it from you and I have things I need to say to you so if you cant be woman enough to do that then I will continue with what I am doing.
2. Think of all the people who are envolved in this now Rachel if you had of just made amends with me and not been so cruel there would be no blog, there would be no Letters to Rachel Campaign. You hurt yourself. You got your Church involved. Your family. You would rather see other people suffer because of something you did than to face up to me. Pastor Glenn though he didnt respond at first has been nothing but understanding but its not his cross to bear Rachel Myatt it is yours.
3. Think about how you used to love to put up videos and put up pictures on the internet now you wont because you think I will find them and use them against you. I really dont care what you put up on youtube or whatever I wont make any comments about anything rude accept that I love you and I care. Think of how it must feel to know you hurt somebody so bad and were so inconsiderate and mean that person went worldwide telling your Church and other people how cruel you were and how slanderous you were religiously. All I ever did was accept your faith Rachel. I loved you enough that I would have been baptized and been happy and content living and loving you in the Lord but you were so selfish and so impatient with me when all I was giving and patient with you.
4. You don't deserve my mercy and my kindness but you know what none of us deserve Gods Mercy and Kindness so it has been because of Him I have tried to limit the spectrum of what I am doing because i truly do love you in His name. Please dont think because you are in a small town in Canada that you can hide from what you have done. I have friends all over the world not only that I am well educated and versed in many things. One thing that really upset me is that I never cared that you didnt want or aspire to go to college I accepted you for who you were. I am very big on people learning and I loved you for all the knowledge you gained on your own and I was content with the beauty of that. You put me down, insulted my intelligence, and abandoned me when all I did was the opposite. You deserve for me to just be the cruelest person in the world to you. You know what though Rachel Myatt for a year now all I have done is pray and love you from a distance even if you cant see how much I do others do and some of them are people close to you. That is why no one has ever called me out on this blog because they know what you did was wrong, selfish, and they know what kind of person you are. Even your mother told me when I was there about your mean streak. I could deal with it. You tore me down, spit me out, and ignored me but here I am after all the crap you did still loving you. So its your choice Rachel Myatt I am about to take this campaign one step further. Id rather just end it for good but you wont let me. So think about this today.
All the People You Hurt. All the People who have read this story and blog. About Jonathan, About Amanda, About Pastor Glenn, About your Mother, About the Dawson Creek New Church, About the New Church of Canada, About the New Church Worldwide. About anyone who has indirectly been affected by your decision that you made. It was your choice to do things and you have let others take the blame because you cant be woman enough to face up to what you have done. So remember that as you read this because others are going to continue to be pulled into this because of my actions and because of your decision to ignore me and not to deal with your actions will be the continued consequences. I love you Rachel Myatt I just wish the strong, loving, caring Rachel Myatt would come out the dark and be a woman. I was more than just some fling or romantic relationship I valued you as a trusted friend and sister in Christ but you keep choosing not to see that. I wish you had of valued my time and my love more. Maybe like this slight comedic video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCB2nrLGpbw
I will always love you but I have to do what I am going to do because it is my calling from God and to love you and not be evil is what I will continue to do. Even though I suffer and hurt I do it because of the love of the Lord and his Plan I love Rachel very much and here is the best way I can describe his Plan and my love for Rachel.
1 Peter 2:21-23
21 To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps.
22 “He committed no sin,
and no deceit was found in his mouth.”
23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.
I wont turn my back on His Calling or My Love for Rachel.
and no deceit was found in his mouth.”
23 When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly.
I wont turn my back on His Calling or My Love for Rachel.
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