Dear Rachel,
I am sorry you couldn't accept me and support me during the troubled time in my life. Relationships are about not giving up on people when things get bad. I would have never walked away from you or Jonathan. I loved you, and still love you for all you are. Whatever you or others want to think of this blog or anything I have done it is all because I love the woman you are. God gave me a love so strong that I have never walked away from you. I would have been there for you if you had cancer and no hair, I would have pushed you in a wheelchair if you lost the ability to walk, I would have held your hand and guided you if you went blind. I would have kissed your tears away when you had a bad day. I would have loved you forever. I do love you forever unconditionally. I just want you to know how painful it has been not having you around and not hearing about you and Jonathan. The most painful of all was all the stones you threw at me and all the cruel things you said because you know I was nothing but a good, loyal, Christan man who loved you with all his heart. I just want to leave this song to tell you how much I love you and how no matter what you did or do I will love you unconditionally with no doubts no regrets and no surrender. "Colorful" by the Verve Pipe(Steel Dragon song in the movie Rockstar)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pV14skTk6Ck&feature=relatedI love you this much and no matter what has happened or would have happened I always would have forgiven you and love you even more. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Now I dont even trust other people. I can't look in the mirror and i feel betrayed and like maybe I should give up but I keep on because of my love for God and because I truly love you Rachel Myatt. I would do anything to end this blog, I would do anything for you to talk to me, I would do anything if you loved me again.
Goodbye
All the ways you slandered and put me down are listed below but I forgave you and have only sought reconcilation and forgiveness for you.
1. Saying you loved me and wanted to be with me if you thought you didn't
2. Saying things horrible things about my dead mother when I was on the phone with you
3. Engaging in Sexual Activity and Intimacy when you knew I was marriage minded and courted you and built a relationship on that trust and unity.
4. Not telling the truth to Pastor Glenn and saying you would deny things to the Church.
5. Letting me meet your family and Jonathan if you didn't want me to be around
6. I gave you a chance to break up with me so basically Leading Me ON
7. Saying that I am mentally ill. when I was grieving. I was sad but I was not unhappy and to lie and tell people things like that was wrong. Who are you to judge anybodies mental states. I have sociology and psychology classes under my belt and I have also taken care of someone who was manic depressant or bi polar. I have never been diagnosed with a mental illness so for you to take it as anymore as reaction to the messed up way you handled things was very rude, hurtful, and selfish.
8. Pretending to be a Good Christian woman when there is so much hypocracy in your life. When I am wrong I admit it. I admitted and apologized for anything I thought I might have done to hurt you. I dont apologize for this blog nor its contents because it is true all the things you did and I have proof in emails, messenger files, and text conversations and the letters you and Jonathan sent me. I will back anything I have said up and then some
I love you I just wish you knew how much you really do keep hurting people Rachel Myatt
"It is a matter of taking the side of the weak against the strong, something the best people have always done."
Harriet Beecher Stowe
I am sorry you couldn't accept me and support me during the troubled time in my life. Relationships are about not giving up on people when things get bad. I would have never walked away from you or Jonathan. I loved you, and still love you for all you are. Whatever you or others want to think of this blog or anything I have done it is all because I love the woman you are. God gave me a love so strong that I have never walked away from you. I would have been there for you if you had cancer and no hair, I would have pushed you in a wheelchair if you lost the ability to walk, I would have held your hand and guided you if you went blind. I would have kissed your tears away when you had a bad day. I would have loved you forever. I do love you forever unconditionally. I just want you to know how painful it has been not having you around and not hearing about you and Jonathan. The most painful of all was all the stones you threw at me and all the cruel things you said because you know I was nothing but a good, loyal, Christan man who loved you with all his heart. I just want to leave this song to tell you how much I love you and how no matter what you did or do I will love you unconditionally with no doubts no regrets and no surrender. "Colorful" by the Verve Pipe(Steel Dragon song in the movie Rockstar)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pV14skTk6Ck&feature=relatedI love you this much and no matter what has happened or would have happened I always would have forgiven you and love you even more. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Now I dont even trust other people. I can't look in the mirror and i feel betrayed and like maybe I should give up but I keep on because of my love for God and because I truly love you Rachel Myatt. I would do anything to end this blog, I would do anything for you to talk to me, I would do anything if you loved me again.
Goodbye
All the ways you slandered and put me down are listed below but I forgave you and have only sought reconcilation and forgiveness for you.
1. Saying you loved me and wanted to be with me if you thought you didn't
2. Saying things horrible things about my dead mother when I was on the phone with you
3. Engaging in Sexual Activity and Intimacy when you knew I was marriage minded and courted you and built a relationship on that trust and unity.
4. Not telling the truth to Pastor Glenn and saying you would deny things to the Church.
5. Letting me meet your family and Jonathan if you didn't want me to be around
6. I gave you a chance to break up with me so basically Leading Me ON
7. Saying that I am mentally ill. when I was grieving. I was sad but I was not unhappy and to lie and tell people things like that was wrong. Who are you to judge anybodies mental states. I have sociology and psychology classes under my belt and I have also taken care of someone who was manic depressant or bi polar. I have never been diagnosed with a mental illness so for you to take it as anymore as reaction to the messed up way you handled things was very rude, hurtful, and selfish.
8. Pretending to be a Good Christian woman when there is so much hypocracy in your life. When I am wrong I admit it. I admitted and apologized for anything I thought I might have done to hurt you. I dont apologize for this blog nor its contents because it is true all the things you did and I have proof in emails, messenger files, and text conversations and the letters you and Jonathan sent me. I will back anything I have said up and then some
I love you I just wish you knew how much you really do keep hurting people Rachel Myatt
"It is a matter of taking the side of the weak against the strong, something the best people have always done."
Harriet Beecher Stowe
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