Rachel I know you care about me
Rachel I am not going to give up on you and in the next couple of weeks my worldwide project start will amaze you to the things I am about to do.
You have no idea what I have done or what I am going to do and it is either going to make your blood boil or you will understand that hey this guy wasn't kidding me. He does love me and he is willing to go through all this trouble all over the world just to show me he does love me.
One person can change the world Rachel just look at all the good our friendship and love did and then because you got scared you threw it all away.
You know what I got scared too and became this spiteful person I never ever wanted to be and I thought that was the way to get you to listen but it was not it was not my character I was grieving and it is not my nature but I will tell you this. What I am doing now is my nature and its in my nature to never give up on someone that truly means something to me. So if you are reading this and things in your life suddenly start to change because of my recent actions. I warned you ahead of time. I am a heart full of love for you. I am a friend that is true. I am a man that loves you as my own flesh and I still love you as my sister in Christ. If you want to turn from a love so true, so pure, and so loyal then go ahead. You have deeply hurt me but I healed and I became strong enough to just go out and tell people how I love you even if you just shun me and abandoned me. This blog is no longer about me talking about doing things its about the things I am doing because I love you and want to shout it out to the whole world. I want you to know just how big this thing is Rachel. One of my customers at work who I haven't seen for awhile ask me did you forgive me and come back to my heart. People are really concerned about me and the level of love I have for you. I am a fighter and I will love you till my heart stops beating and as stupid and Twilight as that sounds. I love you unconditionally forever regardless of how you treat me. I will leave you with a video and a scripture today. I love you and I hope you have a blessed day as well as my readers. Please pass my blog along to friends, to lovers of Christ, to anyone who has a broken heart or is downtrodden who needs inspiration. Christ has been my inspirations for loving Rachel regardless of how she has treated me. I truly do love Rachel Myatt and will continue to campaign and put my heart and soul into making peace and things right with you.
One of my favorite videos about loving someone and being scared of giving yourself to them.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2WX6VJsgUI0 Rachel I am not afraid of still loving you and letting the world know. You try to erase every trace of me but I am still proud of you and all you are.
2 Corinthians 10:7-8
You are judging by appearances. If anyone is confident that they belong to Christ, they should consider again that we belong to Christ just as much as they do. 8 So even if I boast somewhat freely about the authority the Lord gave us for building you up rather than tearing you down, I will not be ashamed of it.
Rachel you spent so much time trying to put your faith in front of me instead of trying to share it with me and let me rejoice in that with you. God means just as much in my life as He does yours and as a Christian we should try to uplift our brothers in sisters when they are down. Instead you tore me down and put me down and here I am still with my hand out to love you. I will end it with a bit from one of your own pastors who has been instrumental in your church
This is taken from Rev. Micheal Gladish's Sermon "Lead Us Not Into Temptation" www.newchurch.ca/uploads/Lead_Us_Not_into_Temptation_208.pdf
"...Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil."
When we think of temptations we are inclined to think of forbidden or disorderly things that somehow capture our imaginations and lure us into bad situations. The word, however, in all three sacred languages, simply means a trial or a test, possibly brought possibly brought about by a plot or some kind of attack. There is natural temptation and there is spiritual temptation, but in the classic definition of the Writings temptation is an attack upon some love. Can we think about that for a few minutes?
What does it mean to have one's love threatened or attacked? Well if you love a person and that person despises you or says mean things to you, your love for that person is certainly going to be tested. If you love justice and you see justice suffering, your love is definitely being attacked. If you love nature and you see pollution everywhere destroying and attacking it, again your love is at risk. In all these cases love is threatened and if it cannot overcome the challenge it may be diminished or lost all together, possibly replaced by bitterness, resentment, or cynicism.
Here's a passage that expands on this idea and it relates it specifically to the Lord:-
All temptation is an attack against the love present in a person, the degree of temptation depending on the degree of that love. If love is not attacked there is no temptation. Destroying another persons love is destroying his very life, for his love is his life. The Lord's love was towards the whole human race; indeed it was so great and of such a nature to be nothing other than pure love. Against the life of His, temptations were directed constantly, and this was happening, as been stated, from earliest childhood through His last hour in the world (AC1690:3).
So you see Rachel even in the words of your wise Reverend Gladish and in the Arcana Coelestia you are attacking my love. You are hurting me when I only seek to love you and to make peace with you. My heart breaks everyday because you don't call, when you stopped writing, when you just abandoned me for what? Because I came to you at a time when I was grieving and I needed to talk about things and you couldn't deal with it? That is what a relationship is I will and always would listen to anything you had to say. I was interested in you and all you were and still am. I just want you to take the time to think about what I have written today and about your own faith and doctrines. I love you very much and I hope that soon you will find it in your heart to come back into my life.
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