First of all Rachel I wanted to say this to you. I'm sorry you could never accept who I am and who I was. The whole reason I wanted to be with you is because I thought you saw through what was all the hurt and pain to see that I was full of love and truly cared about you and no matter what I went through I was always going to love and put you and Jonathan first. I am not sorry that my mother died and I couldn't help that and I will not apologize for mourning or being broken or wanting to die when you betrayed and lied to me. I am sick of people lying to me, cheating, playing games with me so let this be a declaration and Amanda, Jane, Howard, Jessica and anyone that wants to hear this I want you to know I am more determined and inspired to let Rachel see how much I love her and I have more friends and family ready to help me take on this worldwide task. She can either be peace with me herself or our story will just continue to circulate. I can print papers, books, Cds, and whatever material all day. I can put this blog up on message boards all over the internet. When I travel I can put this info in hotel rooms, leave it at music shows, churches and whatever. Since you couldn't accept me I want you to listen to one of my favorite songs about people who are fake because I was always real with you and don't lie or play games with people with me you get what you see. So one of my favorite protest songs "Plastic World' by Naked Aggression may open your eyes. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AEUTnOSLHtA I am a book smart man who as a kid was poor, ran the streets but kept my head in the books and stayed out of trouble. I am well versed, I have never done drugs, never been in trouble with the law. Rachel made comments about me being mentally sick, damaged, put me down because I was in mourning for my mother and the sick person was you Rachel. You never treat a person like that right after they lose a loved one. Had I still been bitching and moping a year or two years down the line then you could have had a case but 3 weeks Rachel come on you sounded like a douche!!!!! So for judging me, for tearing me down, for doubting my love, my friendship, and for having me to come to Canada if you truly didn't want a boyfriend I say screw you. I love you but screw you for all your hate, your hurt, and inconsiderateness I hereby declare a war of love on you and I promise that I will continue to write this blog, I will let people all over know of my story, I found a card today that you sent me from Jonathan and I will compile all our Interpal conversations I have, our physical letters, our emails, and you messengers where you were putting me down along with your text to finish out the "Letters To Rachel" book and project. I have had it. Amanda if you are reading this I reached out to you because I love and wanted you to be part of my life too. My letters and cards to you were real and from the heart but you chose to be the same way. I am sorry you couldn't accept my olive branch because I cared and talked about you too. So screw being bitter I am just tired of you being a scared, hiding, coward Rachel. The more evidence that is stacked against you and the more you don't know I know about the better it is. The sad part is that you know that I love you more than words can say, you know that I love Jonathan, you know it was wrong to play with my want to have a family with you and still you cant just pick up the phone and make peace with me. You are a hypocrite according to your New Church Doctrine me I am not a hypocrite and I will stand by my words, my actions, and whatever happens next I am going to do it and not look back. Yeah I mean every word I say so you better just prepare for it. I am not going anywhere and this spark is not going to go down. My friend she prays for me everyday and sends me scriptures and encouragement via text she believes in the love I have for you Rachel Myatt. Most of all the people around me believe in my love of God and how much I care for His great love and returning that love to others so my heart will not back down, I will not give up on you, I will not be some sissy bitch whining cause you don't love me but what I will do is show you how much I love you and how you missed out and how you lie and hurt people and how you are contradictory to your faith so yeah Rachel I am just getting started. You messed with the wrong guys heart. The guy full of love, hope, and Kick Ass endurance. I love you Rachel Myatt are you ready. Oh and here is something else for you Miss use your Religion to put down others. I love God but I have a relationship with Him always and don't need anyone to influence that or tell me how to love God and you seem to be brainwashed and don't even truly know what you believe because I asked you so many times and you couldn't explain it to me. Being a Christian to me means always questioning what God has before us and not believing things just because some fool on the podium tells us its true or it was passed down as tradition from our family. I never let my mom force me into her religion I told her if it was meant to be then God would give me a calling then I come to you saying I am ready to accept God in your way and you put me down. Fuck you and your false witness Rachel so this video is for you. I hope you read this and think about how shitty you really did treat me and who instead of seeking revenge on you I have done nothing but tell you how much I love you. Oh but maybe I should start being a dick and doing shitty things to get revenge on you since being nice and wanting peace with you and loving you, praying for you, and wishing you the best doesn't seem to work. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAvwTG43dKs&feature=related Also for your bullshit doctrine of people not being punished yeah I am sorry but God does judge we will all eventually have to answer for our sins and also you are responsible for your actions everything you did to me from lie to tear me down when I needed your friendship and encouragement you will pay for that shit maybe not from me but somewhere down the line. If you havent seen in the past couple of months how much I loved you then fuck you. Fuck you Rachel Myatt. Fuck you for sending back my gifts and my Christian notes of love and forgiveness. Fuck you for sending back my Christmas Card, fuck you for not letting me send the boys Legos. If you send back the Old Crow Medicine Show shirt I send you then Double Fuck You. Yeah you deserve all this. You never deserved me as a friend, a boyfriend, or anything. You are a selfish, self righteous cunt, and I am tired of holding back what I need to say. Just because I love you and am in love with you doesn't mean I shouldn't live my life. Fuck you if you think I haven't gone on dates. I have gone on plenty. I have had other women fall for me but you were the only one I wanted to marry. I kept writing you, kept trying to make peace with you. The people around me believe in my love for you but you know what screw you for not being able to see that. Screw you for being cruel to someone who lost a parent, screw you for lying to me at the airport, screw you for ever pretending to want to be my girlfriend. You pissed on my ring, my promise, the love I had for you. Fuck you for letting me fall in love with you and Jonathan and wanting to love you both as my own flesh and blod. Fuck you for being a wishy washy selfish inconsiderate liar. Fuck you for being a Religious Bigot and not accepting the fact that I wanted to worship with you I opened my heart to you and the New Church. So now everything I do is to let you know. I am strong after you hurt me, I am a great loving man, and that you missed out on a beautiful person that thought the world of you Rachel Myatt even after all the hurt I still love you dearly and even kept you in my will with my most important possessions of all my heart and my music. So maybe you will pick up the phone and call after seeing this or maybe Amanda will write are call but if not then fuck it. Go to the fucking Netherworld or whatever kind of heaven that Religious Bigots go to. I am from this moment on just going to say what is on my mind and to spread the to message to the world of your hatred more and more. Good day and sorry to my readers for all the profanity its not usually me but that is how I feel at this moment about this ungrateful, bigoted, selfish person.
Proverbs 19:5
A false witness will not go unpunished, and whoever pours out lies will not go free.
You obviously don't read the Bible Rachel if you don't see all the times that God says there is punishment for people. He is merciful, loving, kind, forgiving, and He is love but He does punish. Somewhere down the line you will receive the karma that you deserve and what you did to me will be amplified by 3. I never did anything but love you and wish you no harm but the taunting, making fun of me, and putting me down when I needed you to care well you know what I hope you realize what an evil act that was and that is why God gave me the strength to carry on and the insight and power to not give up on you and to campaign worldwide. If my work were evil and vengeful then other people wouldn't be helping me, writing letters, or believing in me. I never ask anyone but God for help and people are willing to help me with this love I have for you. Maybe you should step back and reflect at just how evil you are being. As for me I am just going to tell it like it was, it is, and will be and go on with my life. I am tired of you ignoring me so I will just put it out for all to see.
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