God has a plan for us all

Dear Rachel,
Months ago you couldn't have told me I would still love you and care about you as much as I do still. I was so hurt and angry and wanted you to see the true results of what you did that I was blinded by the simple fact that I am a person who always loves.  I have been loving my enemies since I was a child. I have been trying to make peace with people who have wronged me or who I have wronged since I was a child.  I even apologized to you for what I did not because it was wrong but because it was the place you put me in at the time.  When you say you love someone, you should mean it.  Saying things to someone that you don't think are true and leading that person on is the worst thing you could do.  I feel there were outside influences in your case but they are probably seeing now and in the coming weeks will see just how determined I am and just how much I truly love you.  I hope that they will encourage you to seek peace with me and know that anyone that is loving you on the level that I am is sincere and pure of heart like my love for you has always been.  I wanted to leave you a little video of encouragement and reasons why we should make peace otherwise than I love you.  This is from the movie "Adventureland"at the 6:54 mark in this video is what I want you to hear.  Jesse Eisenberg says something so true and so meaningful in just a couple of words he says "You can't just avoid the people you screw up with" Rachel no words ring so clearly http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iX-KVt84a6Y&feature=related   I love you so much and if you would just talk to me and understand that I came to you because I needed love from the person I cared about most and you throwing me aside when I did need help not mental help, not professional help,  I needed the love of my best friend in Christ and the love of my life to see that I was hurting and be compassionate and caring and instead you were rude and insensitive.  I became the same way and spiteful and hurt because you wouldn't understand that and you wont until one of your parents dies.  I have forgiven you so many times that I wont keep count and I no longer keep score on any wrong you did.  I just know I love you with all my being, my heart, and soul and I won't walk away from what I am doing because it has been Gods plan for me to love you all along.  Everything happens for a reason whether good or bad and my love for you has been tested and I won the test so there is nothing you can do about how I feel.  I am going to keep loving you.  I will continue to try to win your heart back and be in your good graces.  You will always be my sister in Christ and I do and always will love you and Jonathan very much.  In the coming weeks things will happen to show you that love.  You and Jonathan mean the world to me I wish you would put your pride aside, your fear, your anger, and show me the love that you have in your heart.  It was always the most beautiful thing about you besides your eyes and smile and your beautiful son.  I love you Rachel Myatt from now until forever.  I see all your beauty, all your flaws, and all strengths and even after all this time I still love all of them.  I leave you with this thought dear Rachel.  It is a testament to my friendship and my love to you and others. I was talking to my ex Amber who lives in Winnipeg and has written to both you and the Church and she said something to me that I will never forget. She said "I love how patient you are with people who don't deserve you"  She was both right and wrong.  I always try to love people because sometimes they wont realize how beautiful I am at the time but I realize and see through their facades and disguises to just love them for who they are.  I love you more than any woman I have ever loved Rachel Myatt and its God's plan and will for me to keep that love.  Below are two scriptures I hope both you and my readers will take to heart.
 

1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
Galatians 5:22,23²² But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, ²³ gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.

I will carry on letting others know how much I love you and Jonathan until you truly accept me and know that I am real, it was never a game or a joke, and that I am your true friend and someone who deeply loves you.  It will be up to you to change and see that truth.  I love you.