Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

The Long Road of Hope

Dear Rachel,

I was watching this movie I own called Pride. It is based on the true story of a black swim coach Jim Ellis and a black swim team who went up against all odds to become champions at a time when black people were still truly hated and discriminated against.  Here are a couple of clips from that movie. I want you to know this is not about race or about Rachel being racist because she is not.  This is about people who never give up on their dreams and the people they love and that is what it is about. That is why I have kept this up so long. I love and believe in Rachel Myatt and I am willing to keep at it till she understands that love is deep and true and it was never about a romantic relationship it was about so much more it was about friendship, integrity, and honesty. It was about God's love. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxZ9SZnpauc
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rg_4TjnK0ds&feature=related

The swim teams motto was P.D.R  Pride, Determination, and Resillience. 
That is what I have. I do not have selfish pride though. I am proud to have had Rachel in my life. I am proud that I love her. I am proud to call her my sister in Christ but she was never proud of being my brother, my love, or my best friend.  I am proud that I love her and her family and I have never turned my back on that love.  I am determined to find peace with her. Even though I was kicked down to the lowest point on the ground I rose back up resillent as ever and turned tragedy into something to show Rachel I was serious and that I was not a game.  So what ever you think Rachel I just wanted you to know how much I love you and that I never gave up on you. You gave up and abandoned me.  I dont abandon people I love and I never tell people I am going to abandon I love them because there is no point in making false claims. I am not the one in denial or the one hiding Rachel Myatt. I am right here for all to see. I put it out for everyone to see my feelings and my thoughts. I let them know how much I love you everyday. You and Jonathan mean the world to me but you just wont see that. I wanted to leave you today with another movie clip about pride it is from the movie adaptation of Pride and Prejudice. I sent you this movie on Amazon and you just sent it back.  I wanted you to watch it because of the way Elizabeth pretended like she didnt love someone and acted like she detested him and all the while she realized that he was the one.  Mr Darcy never gave up on her in the end even after she had been cruel rejected her. I love you just like he did Lizzie. I love you like Johnny Cash loved June Carter Cash. I love you unconditionally and without hesitation or second thought. It is a true love that transcends space and time. I am sorry if anything I have said has caused pain in your life but it was only a reaction to your treatment of me. I do love you with all my heart. I hope you read this and you understand how much you and Jonathan have always meant to me.




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a9CnUVqh4Fc&feature=related 3:31 onward is how Rachel made me feel I loved her but to her I was just a waste of her time.  I would always hope Rachel would realize what she had in me like Lizzie saw in Mr. Darcy eventually. I love her uncondtionally and I would do anything for her and her family.  It will be up to her to think and decide that. I was never afraid to give up all I had to be with her. I wanted nothing in this life but to love her and Jonathan.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pqidX_5ZsLg
This is the kind of ending I would hope for with Rachel if she took the time to really see things for what they were.

You were my best friend Rachel Myatt and today I dedicate this song to you and hope that you will realize how much you mean to me and that each day you ignore me I lose faith in love and humanity.  I love you. I remember when this song meant something to you about me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UpoxWUHI3oc



God Bless All.


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