Dear Rachel and Myatt Family,
I just wanted to tell you all that I love you and regardless of how or what you may think of me that doesnt deter me or shake my faith or love in Rachel. I do believe in all she is and you can think whatever you want. Insults, names, words, hurtful actions! After what happened its a wonder I still believe in people at all. I have had so much hurt and pain in the last year but the one person I still care about is Rachel Myatt. Nobody has called me crazy that knows how much I love people. I have never gotten anything but good responses to my blog for my honesty and truth. I have had others compliment me on my love and my unconditional love for Rachel even though she does not respond. Rachel you can hide in Pennsylvania, Dawson Creek, or wherever you feel the need. You cant hide from the past and your past is always part of the future you make. You hurt me in the deepest way possible in playing with my want and desire to be a husband and father. I loved you and wanted that commitment only with you and not anyone else. I have had plenty of time in my life to have a relationship like that with other women but you were worth cultivating a relationship with and believing in. You were worth risking everything and coming to Canada to be with. You were worth my Mother's last words to me a purpose and a reason to live in her abscence. I love you still Rachel Myatt with all my heart. I want to tell your family that if they have felt disrespected or harassed by my blog or my actions it has never been my intention. I put my faith in God and if any of you feel the need to confront me my email is open to you. I know though that deep in your heart even though she is family you must know how much hurt Rachel caused me and have kept silent also. She thinks if she waits long enough that I will just walk away and give up on this blog the book and everything. The sad thing about that is that I am hard at work right now proving her wrong and I am going to make this something that will not only let her know how much I loved her and how her actions were so hurtful but I am going to let as many people as possible share in my pain, my hurt, and my rebirth. I bless all the Myatt Family, The Friesens, and anyone else that is related to Rachel who may have been affected by my campaign. This campaign is a tribute to Rachel and Jonathan and it is honest and true. If Rachel truly loved me and wanted me to walk away from it all I would I would take this down in a heartbeat, stop writing, stop caring and give it all up all she has to do is pick up the phone and make peace with me and I will promise to go away for ever. She cant do that though because she hasn't progressed to that point in her life to forgive and let go. I am working on my viral videos to show Rachel how much I love her I am trying to tell the whole story and not be cruel at the same time. If anyone objects to it then please email me. Rachel can email me and I will never put them up but I feel it is something I truly must do to make her understand just how much of an impact she had in peoples lifes.I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I wish you the Truest of Blessings and Love to you and All Your Family. I wanted to share with you and your family some songs of praise and to show my love for you all. This is for you Rachel, Jonathan, Jane, Howard, Amanda, Riley, Hailey, Sarah, Colton, Jessica, Clayton, Rebecca, Brenda and anyone my blog may have touched. God Bless.
Everything Changes - Kathy Troccoli http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C9AD1oyE30 This song is because of how much I love Christ and the promise He gave to us and it is also because of how much I love Rachel and how having her love in my life changed me even if she didnt realize how much she meant to me and how much I truly love her.
Barlow Girls - Superchick http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYeF1fbbY4Q I loved Rachel for all that she was it was not about sex, it was not about her having her as an object I loved her mind, her smile, and how we laughed when we talked about things. I saw past her hard interior and all the pain she had endured and loved her even when she put me down and didnt agree with me. I also never cared about her having a child even though I was brought up to be weary with women with children out of wedlock I loved Rachel and Jonathan more than she could ever know and she never appreciated it.
Buidings Tumble - MxPx http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdGo3Rqt9ek&feature=related This is one of the most beautiful Christian songs ever. I want to share the words I also hope Rachel and her family will read them and understand how much I love her and that my love of God is fueling this whole episode. I love Rachel and I wont walk away from her. While I am out in the open proclaming forgiveness, love, and reconcilation Rachel hides in the darkness afraid of what would happen if she forgave, if she actually loved, and if she opened her heart. I was never mistaken loving her and never will feel that way. I know what is in my heart and its true love and its her loss for not appreciating it and mistreating it.
Buildings Tumble by MxPx
I just want to end this with a prayer and I love you to Rachel, The Myatt Family, Pastor Coleman Glenn, and The Dawson Creek New Church and The General New Church of Canada.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank you for the strength you give me everyday, your guidance, your daily bread. I thank you for the insight you give us all in life and the love that you instill in each one of us through your Divine Mercy and Spirit. I pray tonight that all those who I love Rachel and her family know that I love them and hear my prayer of forgiveness, love, and patience in the matter. I want to call out to the Myatt family tonight O' Lord let them know that when my mother passed away their kindness and Rachel's love were the most important thing in my life and let them know not only how much Rachel and Jonathan meant to me but how much having new people to love and cherish in my life meant to me. Whether they ignore me or not my love is still strong for Rachel and all her family and I only will continue to care and love them and hopefully through your love they will see that I am true, sincere, and real in my love for Rachel and Jonathan. I ask of this in your name My Lord Jesus Christ
Amen
I just wanted to tell you all that I love you and regardless of how or what you may think of me that doesnt deter me or shake my faith or love in Rachel. I do believe in all she is and you can think whatever you want. Insults, names, words, hurtful actions! After what happened its a wonder I still believe in people at all. I have had so much hurt and pain in the last year but the one person I still care about is Rachel Myatt. Nobody has called me crazy that knows how much I love people. I have never gotten anything but good responses to my blog for my honesty and truth. I have had others compliment me on my love and my unconditional love for Rachel even though she does not respond. Rachel you can hide in Pennsylvania, Dawson Creek, or wherever you feel the need. You cant hide from the past and your past is always part of the future you make. You hurt me in the deepest way possible in playing with my want and desire to be a husband and father. I loved you and wanted that commitment only with you and not anyone else. I have had plenty of time in my life to have a relationship like that with other women but you were worth cultivating a relationship with and believing in. You were worth risking everything and coming to Canada to be with. You were worth my Mother's last words to me a purpose and a reason to live in her abscence. I love you still Rachel Myatt with all my heart. I want to tell your family that if they have felt disrespected or harassed by my blog or my actions it has never been my intention. I put my faith in God and if any of you feel the need to confront me my email is open to you. I know though that deep in your heart even though she is family you must know how much hurt Rachel caused me and have kept silent also. She thinks if she waits long enough that I will just walk away and give up on this blog the book and everything. The sad thing about that is that I am hard at work right now proving her wrong and I am going to make this something that will not only let her know how much I loved her and how her actions were so hurtful but I am going to let as many people as possible share in my pain, my hurt, and my rebirth. I bless all the Myatt Family, The Friesens, and anyone else that is related to Rachel who may have been affected by my campaign. This campaign is a tribute to Rachel and Jonathan and it is honest and true. If Rachel truly loved me and wanted me to walk away from it all I would I would take this down in a heartbeat, stop writing, stop caring and give it all up all she has to do is pick up the phone and make peace with me and I will promise to go away for ever. She cant do that though because she hasn't progressed to that point in her life to forgive and let go. I am working on my viral videos to show Rachel how much I love her I am trying to tell the whole story and not be cruel at the same time. If anyone objects to it then please email me. Rachel can email me and I will never put them up but I feel it is something I truly must do to make her understand just how much of an impact she had in peoples lifes.I truly love you Rachel Myatt and I wish you the Truest of Blessings and Love to you and All Your Family. I wanted to share with you and your family some songs of praise and to show my love for you all. This is for you Rachel, Jonathan, Jane, Howard, Amanda, Riley, Hailey, Sarah, Colton, Jessica, Clayton, Rebecca, Brenda and anyone my blog may have touched. God Bless.
Everything Changes - Kathy Troccoli http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C9AD1oyE30 This song is because of how much I love Christ and the promise He gave to us and it is also because of how much I love Rachel and how having her love in my life changed me even if she didnt realize how much she meant to me and how much I truly love her.
Barlow Girls - Superchick http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYeF1fbbY4Q I loved Rachel for all that she was it was not about sex, it was not about her having her as an object I loved her mind, her smile, and how we laughed when we talked about things. I saw past her hard interior and all the pain she had endured and loved her even when she put me down and didnt agree with me. I also never cared about her having a child even though I was brought up to be weary with women with children out of wedlock I loved Rachel and Jonathan more than she could ever know and she never appreciated it.
Buidings Tumble - MxPx http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AdGo3Rqt9ek&feature=related This is one of the most beautiful Christian songs ever. I want to share the words I also hope Rachel and her family will read them and understand how much I love her and that my love of God is fueling this whole episode. I love Rachel and I wont walk away from her. While I am out in the open proclaming forgiveness, love, and reconcilation Rachel hides in the darkness afraid of what would happen if she forgave, if she actually loved, and if she opened her heart. I was never mistaken loving her and never will feel that way. I know what is in my heart and its true love and its her loss for not appreciating it and mistreating it.
Buildings Tumble by MxPx
Waking up is hard to do when no one loves you
Years pass by, that's something you have gotten used to
Some of us are dumb and blind and out of our minds
Walking passed each day through fields of land mines
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on
Let your heart move on
Wipe the drool up off your face and make your plans
The prison where you hang your head missed your demands
It's highly time, throw down your wine, put foolish things away
Don't forget, prepare your set, be true to your own way
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on
Let your heart move on
Do you find yourself from day to day, staring at a stranger's face?
As you find yourself to your dismay, looking into your own face
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on and on
Let your heart move on
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on and on
Let your heart move on
Years pass by, that's something you have gotten used to
Some of us are dumb and blind and out of our minds
Walking passed each day through fields of land mines
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on
Let your heart move on
Wipe the drool up off your face and make your plans
The prison where you hang your head missed your demands
It's highly time, throw down your wine, put foolish things away
Don't forget, prepare your set, be true to your own way
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on
Let your heart move on
Do you find yourself from day to day, staring at a stranger's face?
As you find yourself to your dismay, looking into your own face
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on and on
Let your heart move on
Let the weak say, "I am strong"
Let yourself say, "I was wrong"
Let your heart move on and on
Let your heart move on
I just want to end this with a prayer and I love you to Rachel, The Myatt Family, Pastor Coleman Glenn, and The Dawson Creek New Church and The General New Church of Canada.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I thank you for the strength you give me everyday, your guidance, your daily bread. I thank you for the insight you give us all in life and the love that you instill in each one of us through your Divine Mercy and Spirit. I pray tonight that all those who I love Rachel and her family know that I love them and hear my prayer of forgiveness, love, and patience in the matter. I want to call out to the Myatt family tonight O' Lord let them know that when my mother passed away their kindness and Rachel's love were the most important thing in my life and let them know not only how much Rachel and Jonathan meant to me but how much having new people to love and cherish in my life meant to me. Whether they ignore me or not my love is still strong for Rachel and all her family and I only will continue to care and love them and hopefully through your love they will see that I am true, sincere, and real in my love for Rachel and Jonathan. I ask of this in your name My Lord Jesus Christ
Amen
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