I was always patient with Rachel Myatt and I loved her for all that she was. I want to write a quick blog to let people know what kind of love I truly have for this person and how deeply her actions have affected me and the last year. I am going to use two movies as an example of what I feel and what conflicts I have with what Rachel did. We are all free to use our free will and treat people however we want but when we lie to people who truly love us then we the person are at fault. Their is not better thing that the truth even if the truth hurts a person will appreciate it more if you tell them the truth then to lie and pretend. It will save a lot of heartbreak later. Do you know why I have kept this blog up and never stopped my worldwide campaign to let Rachel know I still love her. Well here are a few reasons why.
1.Rachel is a good person she has a lot of love to give but she chooses not to use that love. She chooses to make enemies out of people and use the beauty of what could be good for evil. My whole reason for this blog is because she lied to me and betrayed a friendship that I thought was true. I sat in an airport with her and her nephew and asked her straight faced if she wanted to continue to be my girlfriend. If she had of said no I would have shook her hand, hugged her, and been sad but I never would have reacted the way I did. Rachel waited till I came all the way back to Texas from Canada. Kept telling me how much she loved me and then two days later 12 hours after she chatted about how much she loved me she text me to tell me that she didnt think she could be my girlfriend. On top of that she said I was sick, unhappy, and damaged. Wasn't a person who just lost their mom allowed some sadness, grief, and solace. I came to be with her to get away from that and find a little happiness with the one I loved and who had told me she would be there for me. Instead she is cruel and inconsiderate of me and I literally wanted to die for like two weeks after that and if there is one thing that I hate it is lying and eventually you can't escape it so now Rachel is being faced with all she said and her family and Church is being affected by it. Lets see how things turn out in the next couple of months because I am far from done but I am going to try to use a part from a movie and book called "Cruel Intentions" to explain what is happening to Rachel now that the lies are being thrown back in her face and the truth comes out The above video from what it might be like.
Here is the comparison and the reprise. If you have ever watched the movie step siblings Kathryn and Sebastian are both horrible people. Sebastian is a liar who manipulates girls to get into bed with them. He is the lesser of two evils. Kathryn is a lying, manipulating, condescending, cold calculating ice queen. They make a bet that if Sebastian can bed the sweet out and proud virgin Annette that Kathyrn would sleep with him something he has always desired. In the process Sebastian truly falls in love with Annette but she learns of this wager. Sebastian is repentant and seeks redemption and in the process his life is ended. He became so much more than Kathryn would ever be because he realized the error of his selfish ways. So yes I am comparing myself and Rachel to these two characters because though we both did wrong. I was the one who was wronged first and I asked for her forgiveness. I asked for peace and she has continued to be cruel and unresponsive. No that I have put the truth out there it is funny because she has taken almost all the information about herself and her family off the internet. I won't use that against her I only use the truth. I love her and her son Jonathan. I have nothing but respect for her mother and father and sisters and brothers. I am doing what I am doing to help her see that like author and Pastor Rob Bell says "Love Wins" I Love You Rachel Myatt, deeply, truly, unconditionally, and unwavering. Why cant you see that? Why didn't you always see that? I am not doing any of this to hurt you or belittle you. I am doing this because I believe in you. I want you to stop being cruel to people and use your good, your beauty, and your presence for love, kindness, and good will. If I didn't love you do you think I would still care or give you the time of day. I probably would have just trashed you all over the place and moved on but I have been decisive in my campaign and the things I said. So do you want to be like Kathryn, Rachel or do you want to be like Sebastian and realize the things you are doing to others?
The second example I will use is an inspirational true story and a Disney movie called Secretariat. It is about one of the fastest horses to ever live and both his owner and his struggle to achieve their dreams. In the movie Diane Lane portrays the real life Penny Chenery. Through the course of the movie Penny never gives up though family, friends, and the public doubther.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Vv8r6uN6ns&feature=related She believes in her dream, her prayers, and her horse and in the end the best results are achieved. I feel like I am akin to both Penny and Secretariat. This is a story about faith and not letting obstacles getting in the way of what is really important to you. I love you Rachel Myatt like my own flesh and blood. You are family to me and even if you have not been around for awhile I haven't stopped loving you and I wont give up on you. You may think my methods are harsh or unorthadox but anyone who has been one of my true friends will attest to the fact if you mean something to me I would walk through hell to make things right with them. You are one of those people. People including Rachel have doubted me. I got knocked down and back up again to fight even stronger than before. Now with little to no fear. My friends and family believe in my love for Rachel. I haven't given up and if fact I have just begun to unleash my arsenal. If Rachel cant look into the mirror and see that a man loves her for all that she is and is willing to love her even after all the cruel and hurtful things she said and did to me. Then she doesn't know the power of redemption, true love, and forgiveness. The whole time I was dating Rachel she found flaws with me when all I did was love her for her flaws, her perfections, and imperfections. I accepted her faith, her son, her family, and all that she was. I want to end this with a scripture that maybe Rachel will look at and think back about how she treated me.
Luke 6:42
How can you say to your brother, ‘Brother, let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.
Rachel you spent so much time judging me and finding fault with me, you forgot all I wanted was to love you and Jonathan and the same from you. You were cruel, unkind, and inconsiderate and here I stand with open arms waiting to here from you. Do you deserve this from me? No! I do love you though and no evil in the world would stop me from caring about you or wanting peace with you. So I am going to keep trying. I will keep writing. I will keep sending things and putting up messages on the internet and where ever. I will share my songs with people around the world. I will keep loving you. All you have to do is call me and talk to me and things would be a lot better. Each night before I go to bed I say a prayer not to get you back into my life but just to tell God how much I love you and Jonathan. If you don't know how much I truly love you, then you never did, and never will. I am sorry that you felt that you couldn't love someone who believed and truly cared about you so much and felt the need to tear me down and ridicule me to others to make yourself look in the right. I hold no animosity against you. I love you dearly. This video from the movie "Me and You and Everyone We Know" pretty much how I have always felt about you and I hope someday you will find it in your heart to return to me. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6zfNltnraFQ
I was never afraid to love you Rachel Myatt. You were afraid of what would happen if you actually loved someone back. I will always love you and Jonathan , but my soul is free. My mother would only want me to love you and never give up on you. God wants me more so to continue loving to you. For every person that says I can't I say I can. I love you Rachel Myatt and I will go to the ends of the earth to make peace with you and for you to understand how much you can be loved. I think the world of you.
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