Dear Rachel,
Today is August 8th. It is the day that my mother passed away last year. I will never forget it. I will never forget that when it happened you were here for me and said you loved me and would be here for me. Then a month later.... You abandoned me. Through all my sadness you just walked away from me when I needed your love and your friendship most. My mother wanted me to be with you and Jonathan and those were her last words to me. So for the rest of my life I will have to remember you and how you walked away from the beautiful love that even my mother saw on her deathbed. She never gave up on the people she loved even when things got tough. Before she died I remember being with her one night and she was on the phone she called up all the people she cared about who she had problems with and made peace with them and told them she loved them. I didn't know she knew she was going to die I just know she always did this kind of thing. So I am my Mother's son Rachel Myatt. Here I am extending my hand to you for peace. I love you with all my heart and besides my friend Scott who lives in Austin. You are my best friend and I wouldn't have stuck around this long if I didn't truly love you and Jonathan. Please help me honor my Mother's memory and her legacy by making peace with me and realizing that I love you. No idle threats, no more ill words or hurt to each other, no more ignoring me. Be a woman, the strong woman I believed in, the one that I loved who said she would be there for me. Pick up the phone, write an email, write a letter. Make peace with me. My heart wont rest or sleep till you do. I can't make you do anything you don't want to do. I can't make you love me again it will be up to you to see that my heart never left you and that I truly am in love with you and still want to be with you and Jonathan. I will keep my promise to love you unconditionally until I pass from this earth. Whether it be two months or 20yrs I wanted you to know Rachel Myatt you were the love of my life and everything I did I did because I loved you and you deeply hurt me. Being with you was the happiest time in my life and when you abandoned me it was the saddest time in my life because you were my dearest friend. God Bless you today Rachel and your family the Myatts and Friesens. If my Mom were here I know she would be proud of me for continuing to believe in you even though you hurt me. She always knew that was one of my strengths and gifts. My gift belongs to you and Jonathan more than anyone else on this earth. If anyone who is reading this today wants to pray for me and Rachel to find peace. I would greatly appreciate it. On September 9th it will be a year since she abandoned me about a month after my Mom died and two days after I came back from Canada from spending time with her. I have never stopped loving her and her son and they mean the world to me so your prayers would all be blessings. Thank you. Thanks for my Mom for always teaching me to love and never give up on those who mean something to us even if they don't see it till its almost too late. My love for you Rachel Myatt is transcends all time, all hurt, all pain. It is true love.
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