Rachel and Jonathan

Rachel and Jonathan
I Love you and Always Will

Monday, August 15, 2011

Say What You Mean and Mean It

Dear Readers,

The next two months I will be aggressively starting the press phase of my "Letters to Rachel Worldwide Campaign" I will be going to different cities in North America drumming up interest, leaving pamphlets in the airport, the subway, the train station.  I have already sent out letters to most of the Church of the New Jerusalem in most of the world with about 20 letters in the U.S. alone.  I am going to start putting up my videos and releasing some songs from September on.  I want you to know this.  The reason I am doing this is so that 1. Rachel can see that I am a man who loved her and loves her.  Maybe the other guys gave up on her but I never did.  She abandoned me.  This is all being done to show her that you should be honest and if you really love someone then don't lie about it.  I think those words I LOVE YOU
are the most misused words in the world today.  You know what though? Every time I said them to you Rachel I meant them and I still do. I love you and Jonathan Myatt with all my heart. My love for you was never a fairy tale. It wasn't something I took lightly. I was faithful to you, showed you the utmost honesty, I desired and only had eyes for you and how did you treat me.  You treated me like I was a game.  So the reason why all this is happening to you well here goes it goes.  The second reason for me doing this is that you need to learn to Say What You Mean and Mean It  Stop being all wishy washy and fickle. If you say you are going to do something do it.  If you love someone love them.  How could you possible say you loved me and respected me for who I was after you hurt me so bad? I was shocked and disgusted by you saying that because you broke up with me by a text message from Canada.  That crap was insensitive, it was cowardly, and showed no respect for me or the hurt I was already going through with my mother.  I loved and respected you and would have let you go at the airport if you didn't want to be with me but you lied. So here we are almost a year later and you said there would be no consequences and here I am out in the open letting everyone know worldwide and you have to hide bringing shame on your family, your faith, and yourself.  You know deep in your heart though how much I love you and Jonathan and by my bed still sits the pictures of you and him.  You still have my heart and you still have my love.  I still love you and your family no matter how cruel you are to me and how much you ignore me.  I face the threat of dying from a disease that came unexpectedly but here I am 9 months after the diagnosis still loving, still fighting, and still caring about people like you who don't deserve my friendship, my unconditional love, or my caring.  So the question is Rachel will you be a woman and be able to make things right with me or should I proceed to tell this story and keep being diligent and not backing down.  You know that I won't I am telling the truth and I have God and the truth on my side.  With your letters, text, messenger conversations, and emails I have nothing but your words and I won't lie about someone I love.  Why did you have to lie to me? If you had respected our friendship, our relationship, and God's love then you would have talked to me and we could have ended things amicably but in the end it was all about you. This whole thing was always about you. You wanted someone to love you, care about you, and be there for you but only from afar.  You didn't want to actually be there for me you just liked what I had to say and the values that I espoused. You just wanted a boyfriend of convenience and not one that would actually travel so far and put his life on hold to be with you.  I am sorry that you didn't know how much I truly loved you and that is sad. You can continue to hide and I will continue to tell this story on many levels of media or you can call me, email, Skype or whatever and we can make peace.  I am asking you this as my sister, my fellow human being, the only woman I have ever loved as much.  I am still reaching out to you can you lay it all down and accept that I truly love you?

John 8:32
Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

A Christian is not a Christian by Right of Birth, but by conduct of life - Emmanuel Swedenborg

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