If I could tell you how i feel in song

Dear Rachel,
Though I have written a whole cd or two worth of songs I know you will read this and I want you to know how I feel. You were my best friend and it was like you went from loving me to betraying all we worked to build in our friendship and loving each other. So i leave you first this song by Circa Survive its called "Imaginary Enemy" it brings me to tears each time I hear it because I think of how you just wanted to throw me away and treat me like your enemy. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pn6NgyC3qBc   I also wanted to leave this song by Sunny Day Real Estate called "Two Promises"  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lvb1QN11t44 its about a man who was abandoned and he wants to commit suicide. Much like I felt when you abandoned me. Jeremy Enigk has always been someone I admired because he left what could have been the next Nirvana for his love of Christ. I loved the album that this song came from "How It Feels to Be Something On" it moved me to tears and to love God even more the first time I heard it i was 23 and things seemed simpler.  I love you so much Rachel Myatt and I hope you and your family read this. I hope you know how much you mean to me and that I will continue to care about you and Jonathan and spread this love worldwide if I have too.  Good Night