Hate Me

I never thought this song would ever mean so much to me. When it came out it took me awhile to like it. The song I am referring to is Blue October's "Hate Me".http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xogOqnMQdy8 I feel like I have something to prove to you Rachel Myatt yet I don't owe you nothing!  You say you believe in God and someone is asking you forgiveness, someone gave you forgiveness for all the things you did them but yet you cant find absolution or solace in that. You run scared and think it will eventually go away. You can keep trying all you want but as long as I have a fire in my heart and God lets me breathe I will soldier on. I wont stop loving others and I wont stop loving you. You had every opportunity to make things right with me. I have done everything I could and now I am just going to do bigger and better things with that love. I finally got to the point where I can try to trust another woman. Its been 6 months. Does it mean I going to give up on you. No No No. I love you Rachel Myatt.  Last night one of my friends said that she hopes her new boyfriend will love her like I love you. I have women all around who see how special my love is and you continue to avoid and ignore it.  God gives us life to love and you seem to use yours to hurt others.  You don't care as long as Rachel is ok! I dont live my life like that. I don't live a life for myself. I thought being a mother you would understand what it was like to have to give yourself to someone else. I wanted to give myself to you and Jonathan and no matter how much you ignore the fact I love you both. So pretty soon you will see that I am serious about taking my love for you worldwide.  I will not stop until you respond and we end this. I love you.

To all who believe in true love.... Never Give Up