God Bless Rachel Myatt

Dear Rachel,

I harbor no ill will against you.  I seek no revenge.  I only want you to know how much I loved you and still love you.  I wanted you to know the love and friendship I had for you was for real.  The promise in my ring was real.  The words that I spoke was for real.  The pain you caused me was real and it does hurt everyday that you abandoned me.  I ask for Lord Jesus Christ to give me the serenity and the love to keep loving you and to never give up on you.  Even if you turn a blind eye and choose not to see.  I know that I am doing what is right in the Lord's eyes.  We can choose to love and help others or we can choose to be selfish and live for ourselves.  All I ever wanted to do was live for you and Jonathan and you will probably never find another person that loves you as much as I do. I went through hell and back to get to you.  You sent me back to hell with your words and your attitude toward me.  I want you to know I loved you for all that you were, are and are going to be.  I wanted nothing more than to be there with you and Jonathan every step of the way and I wish you had of understood that I was only being the best I could be at the time.  I couldn't give you 100% of who I am because it wasn't there for you or anybody after my mother passing away so unexpectedly ,but I unselfishly came because I loved you and I wanted to keep my promise to you and I wanted to be comforted by your arms, your love, and you and Jonathan because I love you.  If you can't find it in your heart to forgive and talk to me again then that is sad.  It is what Jesus ask of us.  He washed away our sins so that we could be free and forgiveness is one of the greatest gifts we as people can give.  I forgave myself for the way I did act toward you though I know i had some merit.  I will keep asking for your forgiveness and that you accept mine and stop the hurt Rachel.  I love you and I pray in the Lords name that you will come back to me.  I never have and never will love anyone as much as I love you.  God Bless.

This is from the New Church from the Byrn Athyn Cathedral.  It was a service 4/3/11  http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/13751432  I tried to make things right with you and that is why I keep trying Rachel because I love you and this is why we need to talk and end this. You are not and have never been my enemy but my best friend. Please look into your heart and see this.