Why This Blog Has Been Effective!

Pretty soon I will end this blog.  It has been great and I have back up copies of it and I will start a new one. When that day comes you will know because I will either take this one down and put up another one or I will write a blog saying that Rachel and I have made peace. I hope that it will be the second one.  I used to laugh when Rachel would read this every other day. It was funny how she tried to get them to take this blog down and that the picture of her and Jonathan I own and took of them off of so many sites.  I proved to her though that she thought so little of me. One reason she didn't want to stay with me is that she was ashamed of me. She was afraid of what other people thought even if she said she did so I have spared her the misery of being seen with me except on my facebook and myspace accounts. I have the sketch of us in my blog profile but since Rachel was so ashamed of me I just didnt ever put any others up.  I love her and her kid and its never fair to a child to be involved and this was meant to be a tribute to how much I loved both of them not for it to get as volatile as it did at sometimes. I want all of you to learn something from this blog.  "Watch what you say, and watch how you treat people"  It may come back to backfire on you. Rachel opened her mouth and disrespected me, my deceased mother, she said that I would never go to her Church about her actions. She denied sleeping with me. All this stuff that  usually I would not talk about on the net she fired off at the mouth about I wouldn't do.  I am not a coward and though I was broken last year this blog has made me stronger.  Rachel realized that she couldn't post up videos on youtube or pictures online in fear that I would steal them and harrass her. It has never been about that.  I have much better things to waste my time on than harrassing a self righteous, unforgiving, spoiled brat who doesn't value friendship, love, or integrity.  The whole time I have had nothing but love for her family and I have tried to communicating with her pastor on a civil level it seems sometimes like we are pulling each others teeth but he is really a cool guy.  I know my blog has been effective because it has touched Rachel's life. She thought she could abandon me and go back to her normal life and just treat me like dirt after 5 months of being a couple and then I was just something to sweep under the rug.  Rachel Myatt I truly do want peace with you and I truly do love you but I want you to know the next step I take is a big public one and I am not afraid to do so.  I will tell the whole story.  I will share my pictures of us. I will let everyone know how you treated me and you cant stop me from telling the truth.  Like I said you can sue me if you want. What for telling the truth? I have all the documents I need to show everything that went on. I am kind of meticulous and passonate over the whole proof vs hearsay thing.  The pictures don't lie and your emails dont lie about how you said you would be there for me and why I had every reason to be bitter and write this blog.  Sue me I dont care. I am a good man and I am deeply hurt that you said and did any of the things if you truly didnt want the true love and relationship we had then why play with that like a toy? Why even try if you were just going to give up so fast.  You never even gave me a chance and to top it off I was at my lowest point and I still loved you enough to drag my butt up to Canada and be with you! How will you ever make any relationship work in your life if you cant be there for people during a crisis? You threw me to the wolves and then spit on me.  I should hate you for the rest of my life but I dont and I never will.  The one thing I wish you would do is just be a woman and pick up the phone.  I would go away for ever if that is what you want.  I know deep in your heart though you love me.  Somewhere you are curious about what if I had of treated this guy right instead of run scared and be cruel like I did. I have never been so devoted in showing someone I care about them the least you could do is talk to me. Anyways its your loss.  You have hurt me, you hurt Jonathan, you hurt my mom, you hurt your family, and you hurt God because He is love and all I have is love for you. You think I do this to hurt you and slander you!!!!!!! No I do it because I believe even after all the messed up stuff that happened between us I still believe you and I are the best of friends and I never stopped believing that. Bless you Rachel Myatt I love you.