Dear Readers,
I realized that I must not be afraid to release my story and follow the path I was going on. I could sit back and feel sorry for myself and think I was better for not doing it but I must. If I don't Rachel will continue to hurt people and think that because of her faith that she has every right to treat people with the disrespect and disregard that she has me and other people. I hope you understand Pastors and Reverends that I will release my story and I will continue with my letter writing campaign to other religions and let them know what I have been through. Only Rachel can change that and after a year plus of hoping she would show some remorse or some kind of repentance for the evil things she said toward me and my mother I know telling the truth about the way the New Church doctrine was used toward me is the only way. I had nothing respect for all of you especially you Pastor Glenn and I want you to know that this is not an attack against you. I just have to tell a story. Rachel and Rachel alone can change the outcome of this and she has chosen not only to keep silent but in her silence she has made a voice and a platform for me to speak and prove my point. She would rather this story be put out all over the world and other religions know about it and she would rather hurt her family, her Church, and herself by me telling the truth and making this something on a grand scale. The U.S and Canada are free countries and I will not do anything slanderous but I will tell and use proof of all I say. It is the only way I know how too find closure is if that Rachel will know that I loved her but her cruelty drove me to this. I would have done anything for us to reconcile and for her to at least talk to me again. The window for that opportunity has closed though I still love her she has opened a greater door that I intend to share with the world. So to the New Church Worldwide I am sorry for what must happen. If you feel that there is another way I can get through to Rachel then please suggest one and get ahold of me. If not then I am out of time and I must do this now. I never meant to hurt anyone but I also didn't deserve the disrespect, lies, and demeaning of my spiritual, mental, and physical state and the hurtful things said about my mother by Rachel. She chose to be decietful, she chose to lie, she chose to crush my dream. I chose for over a year to make peace with her, I chose to try to make things right. Now it has come to this. I am sorry it came to this. To let you know how serious I am I want to leave this song for you it is a cover song about how I must follow this path now. Rachel Myatt made her bed and now it will be out in the open. A little kindness goes a long way as does forgiveness but she doesnt know what that is. The kind of forgiveness that the New Church teaches is not of that of true forgiveness. It is of the self serving kind. I believe in the kind Christ believes in. True accepting and loving forgiveness. The kind that doesnt hold a grudge. The kind that people are able to talk face to face and forgive each other.
So this is an example of how I feel http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8i5NLyXZdc
God Bless and I wish there was another way but it is Rachel's free will Church of The New Jerusalem and this is how she wanted it. I am not afraid. I am not a coward. I will not back down.
And for sleeping with me and disrespecting my true love for you and only wanting to break a vow of celibacy for someone I was truly in love with this song is for you. I will never trust another woman again Rachel Myatt I loved you and you ruined our friendship, love, and everything. All you ever did was judge me and ridicule me I loved you for all that you were. I never judged you being an out of wedlock mother. I wanted to love you and your child with all my heart. I never cheated on you. You alone were the apple of my eye. I prayed and still pray for you each night before bed. So I want to leave this song today for all the Church members and Rachel who read this because I listen to it all the time and think about how I accepted you and how you browbeat and belittled me constantly. It is called "She" by the Christian group Zoegirl. New Church Members listen to the words and think about how I loved Rachel despite her flaws and shortcomings but all she ever did was find flaws and fault with me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9d-kwuFJCPQ
All the stones you threw at me and still I love you and have uncondtional love for you.
I realized that I must not be afraid to release my story and follow the path I was going on. I could sit back and feel sorry for myself and think I was better for not doing it but I must. If I don't Rachel will continue to hurt people and think that because of her faith that she has every right to treat people with the disrespect and disregard that she has me and other people. I hope you understand Pastors and Reverends that I will release my story and I will continue with my letter writing campaign to other religions and let them know what I have been through. Only Rachel can change that and after a year plus of hoping she would show some remorse or some kind of repentance for the evil things she said toward me and my mother I know telling the truth about the way the New Church doctrine was used toward me is the only way. I had nothing respect for all of you especially you Pastor Glenn and I want you to know that this is not an attack against you. I just have to tell a story. Rachel and Rachel alone can change the outcome of this and she has chosen not only to keep silent but in her silence she has made a voice and a platform for me to speak and prove my point. She would rather this story be put out all over the world and other religions know about it and she would rather hurt her family, her Church, and herself by me telling the truth and making this something on a grand scale. The U.S and Canada are free countries and I will not do anything slanderous but I will tell and use proof of all I say. It is the only way I know how too find closure is if that Rachel will know that I loved her but her cruelty drove me to this. I would have done anything for us to reconcile and for her to at least talk to me again. The window for that opportunity has closed though I still love her she has opened a greater door that I intend to share with the world. So to the New Church Worldwide I am sorry for what must happen. If you feel that there is another way I can get through to Rachel then please suggest one and get ahold of me. If not then I am out of time and I must do this now. I never meant to hurt anyone but I also didn't deserve the disrespect, lies, and demeaning of my spiritual, mental, and physical state and the hurtful things said about my mother by Rachel. She chose to be decietful, she chose to lie, she chose to crush my dream. I chose for over a year to make peace with her, I chose to try to make things right. Now it has come to this. I am sorry it came to this. To let you know how serious I am I want to leave this song for you it is a cover song about how I must follow this path now. Rachel Myatt made her bed and now it will be out in the open. A little kindness goes a long way as does forgiveness but she doesnt know what that is. The kind of forgiveness that the New Church teaches is not of that of true forgiveness. It is of the self serving kind. I believe in the kind Christ believes in. True accepting and loving forgiveness. The kind that doesnt hold a grudge. The kind that people are able to talk face to face and forgive each other.
So this is an example of how I feel http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N8i5NLyXZdc
God Bless and I wish there was another way but it is Rachel's free will Church of The New Jerusalem and this is how she wanted it. I am not afraid. I am not a coward. I will not back down.
And for sleeping with me and disrespecting my true love for you and only wanting to break a vow of celibacy for someone I was truly in love with this song is for you. I will never trust another woman again Rachel Myatt I loved you and you ruined our friendship, love, and everything. All you ever did was judge me and ridicule me I loved you for all that you were. I never judged you being an out of wedlock mother. I wanted to love you and your child with all my heart. I never cheated on you. You alone were the apple of my eye. I prayed and still pray for you each night before bed. So I want to leave this song today for all the Church members and Rachel who read this because I listen to it all the time and think about how I accepted you and how you browbeat and belittled me constantly. It is called "She" by the Christian group Zoegirl. New Church Members listen to the words and think about how I loved Rachel despite her flaws and shortcomings but all she ever did was find flaws and fault with me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9d-kwuFJCPQ
All the stones you threw at me and still I love you and have uncondtional love for you.
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