Dear Rachel and Readers,
I wanted to share this small video from Smallville season 10. I wanted to let Rachel know how much she and Jonathan meant to me after losing my mother and how her being cruel to me instead of loving me has left me empty and broken. Maybe watching this will let her know what she has truly done to the love I have for her and other people. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54mAzbAj6oE I was willing to let my mom go she gave me her blessing to be with Rachel and Rachel abandoned me and then put me down. Coincidentally that episode of Smallville was called "Abandoned" My mom left me weith the greatest gift of all. She loved and believed in me and she never gave up on the people she loved even if they hurt her or she hurt them. I have that gift Rachel for you and you have never been a burden to me even in all this pain I love you whole souled, completely, and truthfully. It many not seem so sometimes with the words I write but I do. I love you with all my heart and I wish you and your family would realize that. I am hurting so much and if she only knew how much making peace with me meant then she would pick up the phone and call.
I will continue to live by example and not resistence. I will continue to love you and wish you well and care for you even if you turn a blind eye. I will continue to believe in you even if you dont believe in me. I will continue to think the world of you even if you think so little of me. I always saw you as my equal Rachel Myatt. I only wanted to walk beside you. Not in front of you or behind you. I love you and Jonathan more than my own life. It is up to you to see my strength, my determination, and the true love I have for you. I still believe that you will.
People who are insecure and who don't know their true worth or are afraid to become the person who truly are will put others down. Please know this dear Readers, "Anyone Who Tries to Put You Down is Lost" dont let others define the beautiful person you are. I realize now why Rachel said and did the things to me. She was afraid of what other people thought of me and didn't think she deserved a love as true and as faithful as mine because of what happened with other men. I could regale you with emails of how she said she valued my strength and courage but it would be time consuming and petty. It will all come out in time in the book. Rachel thought she could just treat me like dirt walk away and both out lives would go back to normal. I would forget and get over it and she could do whatever she wants and continue to treat other people disrespectful. First of all I believed in you and trusted you Rachel Myatt. You want to know why this is happening to you? It is because of how you treat others. Treat people how you want to be treated. Had you treated me with respect, kindness, and compassion things would be different. You treated me with disregard, disrespect, cruelty, and one of the most selfish and self centered attitudes I have ever seen displayed. Now you can't cover your tracks and you have been exposed to so many people and your situation has been brought out in the open there is nothing you can do. You brought this on yourself. You involved your family, your church, me, my family, and friends. So many people got into this Rachel and why? It is because you are unkind and selfish. All I ever thought about was loving and giving to you and Jonathan. 2000 miles away I continued a relationship with someone who truly knew I loved her and even when she doubted me and I should have cursed you and went about my way I loved you and believed in you. All you do is doubt other peoples love and their abilities and gifts in the Lord. I know my gift in the Lord and its loving people Uncondtionally. Plain and simple no matter how much you ignore me, throw stones, or hurt me I have God's love and that love is above all others. It is the love of true forgiveness. It is the love of kindness, long suffering, and compassion. It is a love that against all odds still exist when hate, bigotry, hurt, and disrespect have been thrown at you by the Devil, Love always wins. God's love. I don't know what the New Church thinks of what I am doing and frankly I dont care. I am peaceful man and I have to spread my message around and they will remember when you turn people away, treat them cruel, and hurt people that are grieving and put them down that is not of Christ. It is not loving and the Human God that they embody seems to be themselves if they adhere to the doctrine of hatred and cruelty that Rachel Myatt learned in the Dawson Creek , New Church of British Columbia. I had nothing for love but Rachel Myatt, her family, The New Church and its Clergy. Instead of embrace a person that was hurting and show Rachel that using your doctrine for evil and to hurt people is not of Christ they defended her actions of evil against me and even taught of a sort evil that was acceptable "The Lesser Evil". I am sorry that it has come to this. Starting January 1st I will begin my revolution. It will be in different parts of the U.S and some will be worldwide. The New Church and Rachel will have no idea what I am doing and where I will do it. I am just going to spread the word about both my story and the way that Church reacted. This is all because Rachel was cruel, doubted my true love, put me down in my love for her and for God, and lied to me. She is getting what she deserves not in revenge but in me showing her I truly love her. Most of all this is for my mom who loved Rachel and wanted to meet her and Jonathan so bad before she died. Rachel you disrespected my mom and all you would have to do is pick up the phone and say sorry but you are too stubborn and too full of pride to do that. So I will spread my story in words and pictures even more. My youtube page will shortly contain clips of my Revolution towards the New Church. When I say Revolution I mean peaceful and kind. I do not wish to harm others and I will only tell the truth from the correspondence and true events that happened between the New Church, Rachel Myatt, and Myself. So in honor of that I end this blog with a short explanation of how I will commeorate my accent into this much needed action.
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Fasting for Peace with Rachel.
Starting January 1st I will fast for the entire month of January. I will have one small meal a day and then discipline myself for the duration. I am doing this as a symbol of my love for Rachel Myatt and the New Church. I am already a vegetarian and a very disciplined eater. I do not require much a day. I will use the time that I am hungry to focus on Prayer, mediation, and loving others. I will take on volunteer work, I will let people around the world know how much I love Rachel. I will spend time with people who need help whether it be reading to children with terminal diseases or helping out a shelter. Rachel Myatt my heart truly loves you and I want to show you that I would do anything for you. If you want to pretend I don't exist. If you wanted to let your family or others convince you that I wasn't right for you and run from true love that is fine. I have had it happen before and those people eventually realized how wrong they were. I forgave them for their cruelty and moved on. Some of them I am friends with some of them damaged our chances of friendship and reconcilation so bad that they realized they could never show their face to me again. I love you more than anyone on this earth and am trying to show you a love like no other. When someone truly loves you they will do anything but it seems like I would have to pay for a billboard in Dawson Creek , British Columbia before you understand that I am the real deal. I care about you and I am not some crazy obssesed person. If you think that other people dont want to date me and I am not a viable option for girls then you are dead wrong. When you abandoned me so many women were there to comfort me but I didn't want comfort all I wanted was love. I have never wanted anything but a family and love and you played with that dream and pretended to want that with me. That is why all this is happening so that you will not ever play with someones dream or lie to them again. I dare anyone to call me out or judge me for being treated so cruely. No one will. Not your family, not the New Church, not anyone because you know what you did was deeply wrong and hurt another soul. All I can say is that I love you. So anyone that is reading this will know I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and I am about to spread that love on a whole different level. I wait for her return and us to make peace.
I loved Rachel Myatt with the truest of heart and I still do. My love for her was not about her looks or anything superficial. It was not about a physical relationship or sex. It was about loving her heart, her spirit, mind, and body. I sent this song to Rachel when we first started dating. I used it years ago in an English class in college I took called Southern Womens Fiction we read books like Fried Green Tomatoes, The Color Purple, The Heart is A Lonely Hunter, and Their Eyes Were Watching God. My Professor Dr. Price she inspired me in my love for women and she told me how much love and talent I had. I always sat at the back of the class and never bothered anyone. The class was mostly women with 3 men including me. When I gave my first presentation I used this song written by Ray Cappo of the band Shelter at the time. I understand love on a deep and otherwordly level and if Rachel had of taken the time with me while I was grieving instead of say all the hurtful things she did and put me down saying I was sad and damaged nothing that is happening now would be happening. I leave you dear Rachel and Readers with this beautiful song "Here We Go" By Shelter about relationship and love between men and women. This song shaped the love I had as a young man for women and because of it I chose to seek true love not promiscuity and selfish desire but to share my body, love, heart, and spirit with someone I truly loved I shared all those with Rachel and she treated all of it with disrespect and unkindess. I truly and deeply love Rachel Myatt for all that she is and that will never change.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FOUOtWZrn8
here are the Lyrics
Here We Go By Shelter
Just he uses love for sex
And sure she uses sex for love
And they're both hoping for the best
I also have that dream you're thinking of
If we place a blindfold on our eyes
Iron and gold appear the same
It's intense hope that makes us try
So we go on and play the game
And once again we get attached
And think we've found the answer
Here we go again
Ran into many walls
But I know I'll get that answer
Here we go again
We loved not wisely but to well...
We're hoping (s)he will be the one
But we never learn from our mistakes
And bassed on beauty love soon dies
Then we make our move to separate
Yes iron and gold appear the same
But one is costly to obtain
And I'll be the only onle blame
If I resist I know I'll gain
God Bless All
I wanted to share this small video from Smallville season 10. I wanted to let Rachel know how much she and Jonathan meant to me after losing my mother and how her being cruel to me instead of loving me has left me empty and broken. Maybe watching this will let her know what she has truly done to the love I have for her and other people. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=54mAzbAj6oE I was willing to let my mom go she gave me her blessing to be with Rachel and Rachel abandoned me and then put me down. Coincidentally that episode of Smallville was called "Abandoned" My mom left me weith the greatest gift of all. She loved and believed in me and she never gave up on the people she loved even if they hurt her or she hurt them. I have that gift Rachel for you and you have never been a burden to me even in all this pain I love you whole souled, completely, and truthfully. It many not seem so sometimes with the words I write but I do. I love you with all my heart and I wish you and your family would realize that. I am hurting so much and if she only knew how much making peace with me meant then she would pick up the phone and call.
I will continue to live by example and not resistence. I will continue to love you and wish you well and care for you even if you turn a blind eye. I will continue to believe in you even if you dont believe in me. I will continue to think the world of you even if you think so little of me. I always saw you as my equal Rachel Myatt. I only wanted to walk beside you. Not in front of you or behind you. I love you and Jonathan more than my own life. It is up to you to see my strength, my determination, and the true love I have for you. I still believe that you will.
People who are insecure and who don't know their true worth or are afraid to become the person who truly are will put others down. Please know this dear Readers, "Anyone Who Tries to Put You Down is Lost" dont let others define the beautiful person you are. I realize now why Rachel said and did the things to me. She was afraid of what other people thought of me and didn't think she deserved a love as true and as faithful as mine because of what happened with other men. I could regale you with emails of how she said she valued my strength and courage but it would be time consuming and petty. It will all come out in time in the book. Rachel thought she could just treat me like dirt walk away and both out lives would go back to normal. I would forget and get over it and she could do whatever she wants and continue to treat other people disrespectful. First of all I believed in you and trusted you Rachel Myatt. You want to know why this is happening to you? It is because of how you treat others. Treat people how you want to be treated. Had you treated me with respect, kindness, and compassion things would be different. You treated me with disregard, disrespect, cruelty, and one of the most selfish and self centered attitudes I have ever seen displayed. Now you can't cover your tracks and you have been exposed to so many people and your situation has been brought out in the open there is nothing you can do. You brought this on yourself. You involved your family, your church, me, my family, and friends. So many people got into this Rachel and why? It is because you are unkind and selfish. All I ever thought about was loving and giving to you and Jonathan. 2000 miles away I continued a relationship with someone who truly knew I loved her and even when she doubted me and I should have cursed you and went about my way I loved you and believed in you. All you do is doubt other peoples love and their abilities and gifts in the Lord. I know my gift in the Lord and its loving people Uncondtionally. Plain and simple no matter how much you ignore me, throw stones, or hurt me I have God's love and that love is above all others. It is the love of true forgiveness. It is the love of kindness, long suffering, and compassion. It is a love that against all odds still exist when hate, bigotry, hurt, and disrespect have been thrown at you by the Devil, Love always wins. God's love. I don't know what the New Church thinks of what I am doing and frankly I dont care. I am peaceful man and I have to spread my message around and they will remember when you turn people away, treat them cruel, and hurt people that are grieving and put them down that is not of Christ. It is not loving and the Human God that they embody seems to be themselves if they adhere to the doctrine of hatred and cruelty that Rachel Myatt learned in the Dawson Creek , New Church of British Columbia. I had nothing for love but Rachel Myatt, her family, The New Church and its Clergy. Instead of embrace a person that was hurting and show Rachel that using your doctrine for evil and to hurt people is not of Christ they defended her actions of evil against me and even taught of a sort evil that was acceptable "The Lesser Evil". I am sorry that it has come to this. Starting January 1st I will begin my revolution. It will be in different parts of the U.S and some will be worldwide. The New Church and Rachel will have no idea what I am doing and where I will do it. I am just going to spread the word about both my story and the way that Church reacted. This is all because Rachel was cruel, doubted my true love, put me down in my love for her and for God, and lied to me. She is getting what she deserves not in revenge but in me showing her I truly love her. Most of all this is for my mom who loved Rachel and wanted to meet her and Jonathan so bad before she died. Rachel you disrespected my mom and all you would have to do is pick up the phone and say sorry but you are too stubborn and too full of pride to do that. So I will spread my story in words and pictures even more. My youtube page will shortly contain clips of my Revolution towards the New Church. When I say Revolution I mean peaceful and kind. I do not wish to harm others and I will only tell the truth from the correspondence and true events that happened between the New Church, Rachel Myatt, and Myself. So in honor of that I end this blog with a short explanation of how I will commeorate my accent into this much needed action.
_________________________________________________________________________________
Fasting for Peace with Rachel.
Starting January 1st I will fast for the entire month of January. I will have one small meal a day and then discipline myself for the duration. I am doing this as a symbol of my love for Rachel Myatt and the New Church. I am already a vegetarian and a very disciplined eater. I do not require much a day. I will use the time that I am hungry to focus on Prayer, mediation, and loving others. I will take on volunteer work, I will let people around the world know how much I love Rachel. I will spend time with people who need help whether it be reading to children with terminal diseases or helping out a shelter. Rachel Myatt my heart truly loves you and I want to show you that I would do anything for you. If you want to pretend I don't exist. If you wanted to let your family or others convince you that I wasn't right for you and run from true love that is fine. I have had it happen before and those people eventually realized how wrong they were. I forgave them for their cruelty and moved on. Some of them I am friends with some of them damaged our chances of friendship and reconcilation so bad that they realized they could never show their face to me again. I love you more than anyone on this earth and am trying to show you a love like no other. When someone truly loves you they will do anything but it seems like I would have to pay for a billboard in Dawson Creek , British Columbia before you understand that I am the real deal. I care about you and I am not some crazy obssesed person. If you think that other people dont want to date me and I am not a viable option for girls then you are dead wrong. When you abandoned me so many women were there to comfort me but I didn't want comfort all I wanted was love. I have never wanted anything but a family and love and you played with that dream and pretended to want that with me. That is why all this is happening so that you will not ever play with someones dream or lie to them again. I dare anyone to call me out or judge me for being treated so cruely. No one will. Not your family, not the New Church, not anyone because you know what you did was deeply wrong and hurt another soul. All I can say is that I love you. So anyone that is reading this will know I love Rachel and Jonathan Myatt and I am about to spread that love on a whole different level. I wait for her return and us to make peace.
I loved Rachel Myatt with the truest of heart and I still do. My love for her was not about her looks or anything superficial. It was not about a physical relationship or sex. It was about loving her heart, her spirit, mind, and body. I sent this song to Rachel when we first started dating. I used it years ago in an English class in college I took called Southern Womens Fiction we read books like Fried Green Tomatoes, The Color Purple, The Heart is A Lonely Hunter, and Their Eyes Were Watching God. My Professor Dr. Price she inspired me in my love for women and she told me how much love and talent I had. I always sat at the back of the class and never bothered anyone. The class was mostly women with 3 men including me. When I gave my first presentation I used this song written by Ray Cappo of the band Shelter at the time. I understand love on a deep and otherwordly level and if Rachel had of taken the time with me while I was grieving instead of say all the hurtful things she did and put me down saying I was sad and damaged nothing that is happening now would be happening. I leave you dear Rachel and Readers with this beautiful song "Here We Go" By Shelter about relationship and love between men and women. This song shaped the love I had as a young man for women and because of it I chose to seek true love not promiscuity and selfish desire but to share my body, love, heart, and spirit with someone I truly loved I shared all those with Rachel and she treated all of it with disrespect and unkindess. I truly and deeply love Rachel Myatt for all that she is and that will never change.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7FOUOtWZrn8
here are the Lyrics
Here We Go By Shelter
Just he uses love for sex
And sure she uses sex for love
And they're both hoping for the best
I also have that dream you're thinking of
If we place a blindfold on our eyes
Iron and gold appear the same
It's intense hope that makes us try
So we go on and play the game
And once again we get attached
And think we've found the answer
Here we go again
Ran into many walls
But I know I'll get that answer
Here we go again
We loved not wisely but to well...
We're hoping (s)he will be the one
But we never learn from our mistakes
And bassed on beauty love soon dies
Then we make our move to separate
Yes iron and gold appear the same
But one is costly to obtain
And I'll be the only onle blame
If I resist I know I'll gain
God Bless All
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