Dear Rachel and the Church of the New Jerusalem,
I had nothing but love for you all. I tried to make peace with Ms. Rachel Myatt. I loved her, I gave her my trust, my heart, a true courtship and friendship. In the end I was slandered, treated with bigotry, and disrespect to not ony my love of God but my family. I in turn wanted nothing but to share my love and Rachel's love of God with her. I loved and still love her family. I have nothing but respect for the Pastor of her Church even if he doesn't fully understand the love I have for Rachel. I am a peaceful man. I have spent my life proving the old adage "The Pen is Mighter Than the Sword" The written and spoken word can cut just as sharp as a knife or pierce through flesh like bullets. In my case Rachel's cruelty of disrespecting my dead mother changed me for life. Her cruelty to me as her boyfriend in abandoning me and calling me sick, damaged, and unstable at a time when I was grieving was very uncaring, it was heartless, and UnChristian in the most extreme way. I never doubted her love for God but she always doubted mine. Here I stand almost 200 blogs later, numerous letters to the New Church all over the world. A man willing to stand up against a whole Church and Organization because I believed in her and love her and her son Jonathan. Neither the New Church nor Rachel get it. I am full of love. If I had truly wanted to ruin Rachel's reputation and seek revenge on her it could have been done last October in one swift and just stroke. I wont reveal the way I would have done it but it would have been devastating to her. Instead I went to Pastor Coleman Glenn out of love for Rachel and confronted him about the New Church teachings. In that time I had the opportunity to read the Writings and reflect on Swedenborg's theology. I will say that I was and never was opposed to worshipping with Rachel it is she who turned me away and I also felt that way at the time by Pastor Glenn but he has since proven himself worthy of my respect. I cannot sit back and lie about what I have been through and I cannot take it out on the whole organization of the Church of the New Jerusalem. I am however going to still share my story with others worldwide and to people of other religions. I want Rachel to know that you can't slander people, disrespect their families, and doubt both their love for God and for you and there not be consequences. She was my best friend. I love Rachel with all my heart but she has mistreated so many people in her life and until she learns to respect others, truly forgive, and to love people outside her family without hurting them then she will never truly appreciate her spiritual journey. I have been called to do this because God loves me and He knows I love Rachel. He loves Rachel very much and He is trying to show her in me that there are people that truly love her and will stand by her that will love her unconditionally and be true to her. Maybe some of you have read my blog and while many parts have been angry for the most part this blog is about how I love her and Jonathan. If you have not had a chance to check out my youtube videos please click on one of them to the side. While I do tell of Rachel disrespecting me the point is the same I do love her and Jonathan with all my heart. I am not doing this to discredit the Church of the New Jerusalem nor do I do what I am doing to hurt, show hate, or bigotry. I do what I do because it was shown to me and I would like what could be a more mainstream teaching to heal and be more viable to others. I mean what great examples of New Church members exist to show this expression of Gods love as Dr Oz. , Reverend Micheal Gladish, and Chuck Blair. Those are people who show a loving attitude and respect people of other faiths and do not judge but seek to enlighten others. So anyone who thinks I am out to get the New Church and want some sick revenge on Rachel Myatt then you have missed the point. I wish one of the Pastors such as Pastor Lindrooth or someone who is involved with the New Church Outreach would initiate a sit down with Rachel and I. I tried to make peace with Rachel and even was willing to spend $1000 dollars to come out just for one day to Dawson Creek from Texas to sit down with the Pastor of her Church and make peace with her. She declined. I am not the one holding the hate and hurt in my heart. I have forgiven myself for the things I said after the wrong was done to me. I love Rachel Myatt and her son with every fiber and being in my heart and if she truly were of the loving soul that Swedenborg talks about she would see that and make peace with me. If you haven't read the past couple of my blogs please do all I wanted for Christmas was peace with her. I asked everyone to pray for myself and Rachel to make peace and reconcile. Dear Readers and Rachel you must understand that the love I have for Rachel transcends all time and space and it is not about a romantic relationship. Girlfriends come and go, spouses cheat hurt us, people lie and hurt one another but the power of God's love conquers all and that is what this blog, The Letters to Rachel Campaign, and the upcoming story I am going to tell on youtube and in print is going to tell. It is not I hate Rachel Myatt and I want bad to come to her. It is Rachel hurt me, belittled me, and damaged my soul and I still love her and want peace with her. I am saddened that people in the New Church do not understand that love and cannot fathom where I am coming from. I believe in true forgiveness the kind Christ would enact not just saying I am sorry but holding your hand out and saying I love you and we have spent so much time fighting and hurting each other lets put that behind us and be good to each other and rekindle our friendship and the love we have for one another. Rachel Myatt if you are reading this. I love you with all my heart and this is and never will be about hurting you. It is because I love you more than any other person in this world. I love you and Jonathan both immensely and I have an empty place in my heart without you. For the rest of your life know if you continue to ignore me you have damaged my love so deeply that it may never recover. I just wanted you to know today how much you and Jonathan mean to me.
I use this scripture a lot but it always rings true. I love you Rachel Myatt and I would go to the ends of the earth to make peace with you and for you to love me again and know I am not your enemy. Until that day I will continue to love you. Continue to write. Continue to put God first and no matter what happens I wont give up on His Promise and I wont be drawn to hate or wish evil upon you.
1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
God Bless All
I had nothing but love for you all. I tried to make peace with Ms. Rachel Myatt. I loved her, I gave her my trust, my heart, a true courtship and friendship. In the end I was slandered, treated with bigotry, and disrespect to not ony my love of God but my family. I in turn wanted nothing but to share my love and Rachel's love of God with her. I loved and still love her family. I have nothing but respect for the Pastor of her Church even if he doesn't fully understand the love I have for Rachel. I am a peaceful man. I have spent my life proving the old adage "The Pen is Mighter Than the Sword" The written and spoken word can cut just as sharp as a knife or pierce through flesh like bullets. In my case Rachel's cruelty of disrespecting my dead mother changed me for life. Her cruelty to me as her boyfriend in abandoning me and calling me sick, damaged, and unstable at a time when I was grieving was very uncaring, it was heartless, and UnChristian in the most extreme way. I never doubted her love for God but she always doubted mine. Here I stand almost 200 blogs later, numerous letters to the New Church all over the world. A man willing to stand up against a whole Church and Organization because I believed in her and love her and her son Jonathan. Neither the New Church nor Rachel get it. I am full of love. If I had truly wanted to ruin Rachel's reputation and seek revenge on her it could have been done last October in one swift and just stroke. I wont reveal the way I would have done it but it would have been devastating to her. Instead I went to Pastor Coleman Glenn out of love for Rachel and confronted him about the New Church teachings. In that time I had the opportunity to read the Writings and reflect on Swedenborg's theology. I will say that I was and never was opposed to worshipping with Rachel it is she who turned me away and I also felt that way at the time by Pastor Glenn but he has since proven himself worthy of my respect. I cannot sit back and lie about what I have been through and I cannot take it out on the whole organization of the Church of the New Jerusalem. I am however going to still share my story with others worldwide and to people of other religions. I want Rachel to know that you can't slander people, disrespect their families, and doubt both their love for God and for you and there not be consequences. She was my best friend. I love Rachel with all my heart but she has mistreated so many people in her life and until she learns to respect others, truly forgive, and to love people outside her family without hurting them then she will never truly appreciate her spiritual journey. I have been called to do this because God loves me and He knows I love Rachel. He loves Rachel very much and He is trying to show her in me that there are people that truly love her and will stand by her that will love her unconditionally and be true to her. Maybe some of you have read my blog and while many parts have been angry for the most part this blog is about how I love her and Jonathan. If you have not had a chance to check out my youtube videos please click on one of them to the side. While I do tell of Rachel disrespecting me the point is the same I do love her and Jonathan with all my heart. I am not doing this to discredit the Church of the New Jerusalem nor do I do what I am doing to hurt, show hate, or bigotry. I do what I do because it was shown to me and I would like what could be a more mainstream teaching to heal and be more viable to others. I mean what great examples of New Church members exist to show this expression of Gods love as Dr Oz. , Reverend Micheal Gladish, and Chuck Blair. Those are people who show a loving attitude and respect people of other faiths and do not judge but seek to enlighten others. So anyone who thinks I am out to get the New Church and want some sick revenge on Rachel Myatt then you have missed the point. I wish one of the Pastors such as Pastor Lindrooth or someone who is involved with the New Church Outreach would initiate a sit down with Rachel and I. I tried to make peace with Rachel and even was willing to spend $1000 dollars to come out just for one day to Dawson Creek from Texas to sit down with the Pastor of her Church and make peace with her. She declined. I am not the one holding the hate and hurt in my heart. I have forgiven myself for the things I said after the wrong was done to me. I love Rachel Myatt and her son with every fiber and being in my heart and if she truly were of the loving soul that Swedenborg talks about she would see that and make peace with me. If you haven't read the past couple of my blogs please do all I wanted for Christmas was peace with her. I asked everyone to pray for myself and Rachel to make peace and reconcile. Dear Readers and Rachel you must understand that the love I have for Rachel transcends all time and space and it is not about a romantic relationship. Girlfriends come and go, spouses cheat hurt us, people lie and hurt one another but the power of God's love conquers all and that is what this blog, The Letters to Rachel Campaign, and the upcoming story I am going to tell on youtube and in print is going to tell. It is not I hate Rachel Myatt and I want bad to come to her. It is Rachel hurt me, belittled me, and damaged my soul and I still love her and want peace with her. I am saddened that people in the New Church do not understand that love and cannot fathom where I am coming from. I believe in true forgiveness the kind Christ would enact not just saying I am sorry but holding your hand out and saying I love you and we have spent so much time fighting and hurting each other lets put that behind us and be good to each other and rekindle our friendship and the love we have for one another. Rachel Myatt if you are reading this. I love you with all my heart and this is and never will be about hurting you. It is because I love you more than any other person in this world. I love you and Jonathan both immensely and I have an empty place in my heart without you. For the rest of your life know if you continue to ignore me you have damaged my love so deeply that it may never recover. I just wanted you to know today how much you and Jonathan mean to me.
I use this scripture a lot but it always rings true. I love you Rachel Myatt and I would go to the ends of the earth to make peace with you and for you to love me again and know I am not your enemy. Until that day I will continue to love you. Continue to write. Continue to put God first and no matter what happens I wont give up on His Promise and I wont be drawn to hate or wish evil upon you.
1 Corinthians 13:4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
God Bless All
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