Dear Readers,
I wanted to start this mothers day blog off to let you know how much I love Rachel and the Myatts and how much I thought they cared and would be there for me. I want you to know how much they truly hurt and are continuing to hurt me each day when I love and believe in Rachel and all of them so much. Above is a picture of the Card that Rachel's Parent's sent me when my mother died. I thought wow I can't wait to be in these people's lives and Howard and Jane I don't think you knew how much that having you and your family in my life would have meant to me and how much your daughter meant to me but I kept everything that Rachel sent to me every card, every letter, every email, every smile because I love Rachel and Jonathan so much they were everything I ever wanted. I just want you to know that each day that goes by I still hurt because all I want is peace with Rachel. My mother would want nothing less than me believe in her and not give up on her so I am putting my faith in Christ that you as a family understand how much I love her and that Rachel understands that I love her and this has never been about revenge it has been about being adult talking and moving on. I want peace with her because I truly love her and my mother loved Rachel and Jonathan too. If you havent read my blog from last mothers day then here it is.
http://iloverachelmyatt.blogspot.com/2011/05/rachel-my-mother-and-love-that-wont-end.html
I love you Rachel Myatt with all my heart and everyday you ignore me and try to pretend I am not there the more my heart longs for you and is there. God puts people in your life for a reason and I know you love me. I know that God still wants me in your life and If I have to shout it out loud from the ends of the earth then in the next 6 months that is what I will do. I would rather you contact me and make peace. Below is an email that Rachel sent about 15 hours before my mother past away. I have shared it before on here. It was the one that mattered most to me. Rachel and Amanda I wanted you in my lives. I wanted Rachel as my partner and best friend and Amanda I wanted you as my sister and you never knew how much that would have meant to me. I just wanted to tell you that I love you both and it hurts me to have been in your life and then to have been thrown away like a leper.
Wish I Could Be There For You
| From: | Rachel Myatt |
| Sent: | Sun 8/08/10 1:02 AM |
| To: | byron |
Hi Byron,
Just wanted to reinforce that I am thinking of you and praying for you and your mom and your brother and dad throughout the day. I wish right now I could be there with you to help you and comfort you in anyway that I could. I can hardly think of how hard this must be for everyone and I don't even know what to say other than I love you and I am praying for you. Also my mom is as well, I know and she told me to say hi to you and to let you know that she is thinking and praying for your family as well. Amanda, after the one text, sent one saying that it wasn't 'much, but that letting people know that others care for them is very important. So we all here care about you Byron. What a sad thing to happen. I'm sure I am not going to be near as strong as you when my mom is passing. I think you are very brave and courageous and positive in this hard time. I admire you for it and look up to your strength. I guess I really just wanted to tell you that I love you and that I am in continous thought of you, and that others here are thinking of you as well. I wish you the best rest possible Byron. I'm here for you for anything you need. Never hesitate to ask. I love you, am praying for you, am thinking about you, and am glad that you find small comfort in my love for you. Goodnight for tonight sweetheart.
Rachel
I just want to wish all the Mother's in the Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families a happy Mother's Day and to send my blessings and condolences to Rachel's Grandmother in her time of loss. All I ever wanted to do is love all of you and have a family to love. What little family I have has always been broken and a good Christian man only strives to have his own family. Rachel and Jonathan were the family I wanted to love and believe in and Rachel really never gave me that chance. After all the patience and love I gave to her my heart has been broken for a year and half to the point where I don't trust anyone. If you look into your heart as a collective and see how much I love Rachel dear Myatts and Friesens you will see that all this is because Rachel is special and God did send her someone that loves her as a friend, an equal, and believes in her. If you want to let religious differences, cultural differences, or judging a character you hardly knew and judged upon the fact that I was grieving stop you from loving someone then that is sad and very contradictory of the people I was so happy to love. I let no barrier stop me from loving or wanting to be with Rachel and Jonathan. In fact my mother gave me permission to leave her to die 4 days before she died and told me to go to Rachel and Jonathan and not wait around for her but I couldn't do that but that is how much God loves me, loves Rachel and He loved my mom who is now with Him. I never started this blog or my campaign to hurt anyone it was started because someone I truly love hurt me and I wanted her to know the pain she has put me through but also that through Christ I love her unconditionally and this day Rachel I pray that you come back because you were the only person I wanted to be mother to my children and you were my best friend and I still love you dearly. God Bless.
Ephesians 6:2
“Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise—
Just wanted to reinforce that I am thinking of you and praying for you and your mom and your brother and dad throughout the day. I wish right now I could be there with you to help you and comfort you in anyway that I could. I can hardly think of how hard this must be for everyone and I don't even know what to say other than I love you and I am praying for you. Also my mom is as well, I know and she told me to say hi to you and to let you know that she is thinking and praying for your family as well. Amanda, after the one text, sent one saying that it wasn't 'much, but that letting people know that others care for them is very important. So we all here care about you Byron. What a sad thing to happen. I'm sure I am not going to be near as strong as you when my mom is passing. I think you are very brave and courageous and positive in this hard time. I admire you for it and look up to your strength. I guess I really just wanted to tell you that I love you and that I am in continous thought of you, and that others here are thinking of you as well. I wish you the best rest possible Byron. I'm here for you for anything you need. Never hesitate to ask. I love you, am praying for you, am thinking about you, and am glad that you find small comfort in my love for you. Goodnight for tonight sweetheart.
Rachel
I just want to wish all the Mother's in the Myatt, Friesen, and Baker families a happy Mother's Day and to send my blessings and condolences to Rachel's Grandmother in her time of loss. All I ever wanted to do is love all of you and have a family to love. What little family I have has always been broken and a good Christian man only strives to have his own family. Rachel and Jonathan were the family I wanted to love and believe in and Rachel really never gave me that chance. After all the patience and love I gave to her my heart has been broken for a year and half to the point where I don't trust anyone. If you look into your heart as a collective and see how much I love Rachel dear Myatts and Friesens you will see that all this is because Rachel is special and God did send her someone that loves her as a friend, an equal, and believes in her. If you want to let religious differences, cultural differences, or judging a character you hardly knew and judged upon the fact that I was grieving stop you from loving someone then that is sad and very contradictory of the people I was so happy to love. I let no barrier stop me from loving or wanting to be with Rachel and Jonathan. In fact my mother gave me permission to leave her to die 4 days before she died and told me to go to Rachel and Jonathan and not wait around for her but I couldn't do that but that is how much God loves me, loves Rachel and He loved my mom who is now with Him. I never started this blog or my campaign to hurt anyone it was started because someone I truly love hurt me and I wanted her to know the pain she has put me through but also that through Christ I love her unconditionally and this day Rachel I pray that you come back because you were the only person I wanted to be mother to my children and you were my best friend and I still love you dearly. God Bless.
Ephesians 6:2
“Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise—
Isaiah 66:13-14
13 As a mother comforts her child,
so will I comfort you;
and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.”
so will I comfort you;
and you will be comforted over Jerusalem.”
14 When you see this, your heart will rejoice
and you will flourish like grass;
the hand of the Lord will be made known to his servants,
but his fury will be shown to his foes.
and you will flourish like grass;
the hand of the Lord will be made known to his servants,
but his fury will be shown to his foes.
John 19:25-27
25 Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother, his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene. 26 When Jesus saw his mother there, and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby, he said to her, “Woman, here is your son,” 27 and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.” From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.
Proverbs 31:30
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
Proverbs 31:30
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.
"Non-violence leads to the highest ethics, which is the goal of all evolution. Until we stop harming all other living beings, we are still savages." - Thomas Edison,
This sentiment is just as true for humans as it is for humans opposed to other living things so herein is the validity for me to continue loving Rachel and spreading my blog and information.
This sentiment is just as true for humans as it is for humans opposed to other living things so herein is the validity for me to continue loving Rachel and spreading my blog and information.
Rachel, I never loved you for anything less than all that you are and all that you are going to become. I didn't want you for the way you looked, for sex, for money, not to move to Canada, not for anything but the fact that at the time I saw the beauty of God in your heart. Why you were cruel to me shunned me and said such hurtful things I will never know. I do know I love you with all my heart and I want peace with you and I will continue to let the world know how much you mean ot me. Don't think that people aren't paying attention because they are so each day that you ignore me and your family ignores me is another day I profess my love and share my love of God with people and it is a reflection on your actions. I have nothing but love for you, your family, and your Church but God also made me strong to stand up for that which I believe in and those who I hold dear. I believe in you Rachel Myatt, Always.
My Mother only wanted me to be happy and to love people and be good to them. She only wanted me to love Rachel and Jonathan and be good to them and that was the last thing she asked of me. You make my Mother's Day sad because remembering the good person she was is also remembering they hurtful things Rachel said to me when I needed Rachel to be there for me when she left. Its never to late to make peace and make things right my friend. I love you with all my heart and will keep trying.
Happy Mothers Day to ALL
God Bless
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