Revenge is The Best Success: The Success Doesn't Have to Be Vengeful

Dear Readers,

I want to start off with a Scripture from the Bible today and talk a little about showing those who transgress against you that you are better than their petty actions.

Matthew 5:38-40

Eye for Eye

³⁸ “You have heard that it was said, ‘Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.  ³⁹ But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also. ⁴⁰ And if anyone wants to sue you and take your shirt, hand over your coat as well.

I want to first state that in my case I loved Rachel as my best friend.  I confided in her, told her my secrets, and I trusted her.  I was returned that love, loyalty, and honesty with betrayal, lies, ridicule and just outright disrespect.  Am I out for revenge.  No but I am out to show her that even if she broke me and almost killed me at the time I am strong resilliant and most of all patient.  God will bring an end to this when He is ready and in my free will I can choose to be evil and seek petty revenge by slandering Rachel Myatt and her family or I can just continue to show her and her family I love her worldwide and if there is a form of revenge that is good then it is success.  Rachel never expected me to write a blog.  Send letters to her Church the world over.  Make fliers and literature about the New Church and how I was treated by them.  She thought she could just use me and treat me bad like the other people she had in her life but it was time that God showed her the error of her ways.  She has hurt all sorts of people around her, she brought her child, her family, her Church into this.  She brought me into a relationship that she didn't truly want.  Women talk about having a good man to love them then one comes along and they treat them like dirt and then they wonder why men get jaded and just start treating women like they are pieces of meat and dont matter.  I could have become a drunken womanizer after what Rachel did but I focused my energy on prayer, on love, and evolving myself.  Many people think I just get on here to spite Rachel.  What person who doesnt truly love someone would devote time almost everyday to send a message to them and make it publicly available to the world to see his thoughts, his life, and feelings.   Someone who is brave and secure with who they are.  Someone that love Rachel Myatt and her family. Someone who is not afraid to take on a whole Church Organization by themselves and make them look inward.  Rachel and the Church of the New Jerusalem may think my little actions are minute on their scale but believe me people are taking note and each person it reaches leaves an impression and if people are turned away from the New Church because of reading my blog and how I was treated or my essays and literature then yes I am having an effect. It saddens me that people who treat others so badly and talk down and ridcule others are nowhere to be found when they get a little taste of their own medicine. 

Rachel doesnt want any pictures of herself on the internet, any mention of her name, any trace of herself you know why? Because I embarrassed her.  The same way she made fun of me on the phone and said that She embarrased me to my friends and family by breaking up with me especially the way she did it. Introducing me to her family like she wanted to be with me then abandoning me.  She was so stubborn and arrogant that day and all she did was make up false reasons not to be with me and had no answers.  Ill never forget all those cruel and hateful things she said to me.  Most of all I will not forget this Rachel.

You said I was manipulative and I manipulated you.  That is one of the main reasons I wrote this blog.  I live in the USA and you live in Canada.  There is no way without your permission I would have entered into a relationship with you.  You chose to be with me,  you chose to pretend to love me, you slept with me, you accepted being my girlfriend.  IT WAS YOUR FREE WILL and if I am upset by anything it is that you said that and that I used my mom's death as leverage to try to make you stay.  That was evil, petty, and that was far from the truth.  I was so in love with you Rachel Myatt and I had just lost the woman who gave me life but that woman when she died also wanted me to continue living and loving and she wanted me to love you.  You whether you know it or not killed my heart that day.  I did want to die and none of that was a joke.  I had friends and family watch me in tears and in a catatonic state because of what you did.  The Fire Trucks and Police you called on me thanks but none of them ever found me I drove right past them as invisible as always.   If I had of given up no one would have found me in time and it takes courage to get on the internet and say that you were suicidal.  I know God wants me to so He can help others heal and show bravery and get on with life.  I stayed alive that day and that week because I loved you and Jonathan, because I never wanted to hurt you the way you hurt me.  I stayed alive because it would be selfish to waste God's gift on your petty treatment of me and your evil.  You are so ungrateful Rachel Myatt you dont realize how much people love you and you treat them with disrespect and disregard and I will never forget how cruel you were to me especially in the fact for the better part of a year and a half I have been trying to make peace with you.  You know what your choice go ahead and live whatever selfish life you want to.  You see me lashing out against your faith as you did mine well you are proving all the things I say about The New Church as I show the hypocrisy and mount my case against Swedenborg and hedonism vs God and His true love and true Christianity.  I could divulge a lot of personal things about you and your family on here but I am not going to.  I could put up the entire lot of our letters and all the things you said to me that make you a liar and a hypocrite but I wont.  You already let evil win in your life by being scared to love me, by treating me so evil, and now hiding from the damage you have done.  I am going to end this with a couple of comments about true success.


I will be successful in the fact that I love you Rachel Myatt and that is all I can do.  You can choose to keep ignoring me, you can choose to make me right about your Church doctrine, hypocrisy, and the false charity and love you displayed.   I will be successful in spreading what happened with you and Pastor Glenn and the New Church of Canada.  I will keep telling my stories and warn other people of what your Church claims to teach but how they treat people in reality.  I cannot generalize the whole New Church but even what The Dawson Creek New Church people did will be an example.  I have successfully shared my story with thousands of people worldwide and that in itself is a victory.  I never backed down from what I said I was going to do and I will not back down.  You came to me with wickedness, ridicule, and were evil to me and I return the favor with love,  a sense of pride, and true love for you.  If you want to be hateful and ignore my call for peace, my wanting you as my best friend still, and my loving you with all my heart and wanting to forgive and forget then that is your own selfish free will.  You are free to do that.  Just remember this all happened because you chose to act in the manner you did.  I want you to know one thing Rachel Myatt before I end this blog today.

Rachel Myatt I was truly in love with you and I still love you.  I loved you as my best friend,  My sister in Christ,  My confidant, and the love of my life.  I loved you and your son like you were my flesh and everyday that went by my heart grew fonder of you two.  I had temptation after temptation thrown in my face but all I ever wanted was you. I wanted to give myself to you through the Lord and devote my life to you and Jonathan.  I never had a problem with your religion, you family, creed, nationality, or anything.  I loved you unconditionally perfections, imperfections, flaws and all.  I love you Rachel Myatt but you and your family want to continue to ignore me.

My revenge on you is to keep loving you, keep telling my story, and in the end to make it something that people see on tv, read in a book, and hear in music and so I dedicate the next year of my life to doing all those things.  You wanted to be quiet and not respond.  I am going to be quiet and just let things happen and let you be surprized when you see what I have done to show you how much you were loved Rachel Myatt.

P.S.
To anyone who thought this blog has been ethically or morally wrong.  I do not apologize. This was a direct defense and challenge to Rachel Myatt at first and she made it about her Church and family one by disrespecting my family and my faith, two not talking to me like an adult.  Three by just being and ill mannered and hypocritical person.  I had and have nothing but love for Rachel and her family and in my prayers to Lord Jesus Christ there is nothing more that I would like is peace and reconciliation with them.  Nothing more and nothing less but Rachel is the one who can be brave and ignore that or embrace it.

You spoke ill of my deceased mother and the fact that I forgave you and still have any love for you shows the difference between the Christianity that you believe in and the one I believe in. I believe in Christ love, forgiveness, being accountable for my own free will and actions.  You believe in running your mouth and that it is your God given right to treat people like dirt and then just go on with your life with no consequences.

God Bless ALL