Dear Readers,
When I was about 15 and dreamed of truly falling in love the song above "Spring" by British group Saint Etienne was one that I would daydream about that special girl to. Rachel was that special woman after all the time I waited she was the one. Now I dont care about women because I know they only lie, decieve, cheat, and treat people like dirt. Rachel's lies, disrespect to my mother, her introducing me to her family then treating me like a leper. Her total lack of caring or love for anyone but herself has led me to this point. This is also a response of sorts to Pastor Coleman Glenn and his attempt at likening dwindling faith in God to the springtime which can be viewed here. http://www.newchurch.ca/uploads/Dawson_Newsletter_May_2012.pdf
See what saddens me here is when I was at my low and I tried to compare my love for Rachel to spring and show how God has given me strength all Pastor Glenn did was make up reasons for why it seemed Rachel was right and I was wrong. It was never well Rachel was or could be wrong it was lets justify the New Church stance on this and if it doesnt follow those guidelines then you are basically wrong. It wasnt till I started presenting truth and proof in these blogs and posting up things that he realized what Rachel had done and to what extent. Rachel you may be living your life and thinking that none of this will affect you but it eventually will my friend it already has. You have exploited me, your family, your child, your Pastor, your Church and all it would have taken was a couple of kind words or for you to be truthful. You think that all of this is some joke and one day you will wake up and I wont be here. There is a reason I am still here and it is the Lord and His plan for me. Rachel is being taught a lesson because the Lord wanted me to take this course. Did he speak directly to me in my earn No! He has given me insight and discernment in my calling and has steered me away from the evil of hating Rachel and instead to come at her with love, with truth, and with her own words. Im sure people have told Rachel not to contact me and those were probably the same people who discouraged her from being with me. It is people like that who mess up beautiful things between people who love each other. I truly believed Rachel loved me but I want to say these couple of things as points of why she could have just abandoned me.
1. She was ashamed of me. Plain and simple when I am supposed to be your boyfriend and you introduce me to your father as your friend that was painful and hurtful. You didnt think I picked up on that but I did Rachel I did.
2. Maybe because I was helping you take care of the children you care over when I was there some of the parents saw me and didnt want their children around me maybe because of the color of my skin or they didnt like the way I looked. Either way the shock on one of them's face when they saw me made me feel like Rachel felt she would lose a lot of money if she kept dating me and the parents didnt like me.
3. I had just lost a parent and I was telling Rachel and Jane a lot of personal things especially the relationship with my father. We have never gotten along and I wanted them both to know what was on my mind and it was having to face my remaining parent on these terms. Now that my father is sick I am much more cordial and he respects me more but we still arent close. That didnt mean I was mentally ill, nor did it mean I was unstable. It mean I trust and loved Rachel and wanted to love Jane enough to know what I had been through that made me the man I am and it was my Lord Jesus Christ and my mothers love that always kept me peaceful and loving in this life.
4. The fact that anyone would say the evil things that Rachel said to me has just hurt me everyday because I spent so much time loving her and telling her the truth about my life and for her to take all the tragic things I had been through and throw them back in my face, call me crazy, mentally ill, sick, and damaged was unbelievable. The worst thing of all is that she called me manipulative because I wanted to die. I had just lost my mother for the love of God you said you loved me and wanted to be with me then you crush me by not only texting me to break up with me from 2000 miles away but you didnt even have the nerve to tell me what was on your mind when I was with you. Instead you made up assumptions and false scenarios then you called me a liar which really is why I had to write this blog to prove your cruelty and the way you act towards people who love you. I want to point out another thing. If your mother or grandmother right now who are grieving would you call them loser, put them down, call them damaged, talk ill of your grandfather or do any of the things you did toward me someone you were supposed to love. Think of the hypocrisy Rachel and Pastor Glenn.
Evil things I could have done. I could have written the Foster Agency and said how you endangered kids by letting me a total stranger be around them when even I asked that I come at a time when I didnt have to be around the kids. As much as I love kids I dont want to be in a situation where anyone could say I hurt their child and you Rachel Myatt put me in that situation. Did I retaliate and try to get revenge in that way? No I kept loving you and wrote this blog. I could have put pictures here and on Youtube that would hurt you and your family but no they were all real pictures nothing superimposed or fake they were all your pictures. I put a picture of Jonathan and you up only to prove how much I love you. Otherwise I believe children are off limits and you shouldnt put them up on the internet too much because it is unsafe for them.
I could have wrote hate letters to all the New Churches around the world but instead I wrote how much I loved you and Jonathan and needed you in my life.
I could have trashed you and Pastor Glenn on multiple occasions but for the most part I have written about the love and respect I have for you and how you have continued to turn a blind eye to that trying to pretend I dont exist.
Pastor Glenn if you truly want to know about springtime then look at my situation with Rachel. Look at how Rachel treats people. Look at how I have never given up on her and put God first and have been willing to face email intrusion, legal threats, insults, and just uncaring and disrespect from you and Rachel. I did this out of love but instead of see the hope and the love that God has led me to see you continue to make excuses and not see that this is my Springtime. This is my heart opening and putting aside the hurt between Rachel and I and trying to make what brought us together new again. I love Rachel Myatt I still believe she is one of my best friends and I have never stopped believing that.
Rachel You broke your promises to me, you slandered me and said hurtful ill things toward my mother, you lied, you abandoned me, and worst of all you were the woman you said you wouldnt be to me. A total hypocrite, mean, full of self pride, uncaring and unkind. Through all that I still pray for you and about you and I still love you and Jonathan with all my heart. I just want you to think about that tonight Rachel and Pastor Coleman Glenn.
1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
Zechariah 8:17
do not plot evil against each other, and do not love to swear falsely. I hate all this,” declares the LORD.
Ask Youself This Question Rachel Myatt and Pastor Glenn.
What Legacy Do You Want to Leave in your Ministry for The Church of the New Jerusalem?
Do you want to know that someone came to you in both peace, grief, and love and you turned them away and then tried to justify that selfishly?
Or do you want to know that it was resolved in love and that person forgave you and you forgave them and that God's Love came before all the transgressions, hurt, and pain.
Just something to think about this Spring!!!!
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