Dear Rachel, Myatt and Friesen Families, and Church of the New Jerusalem, Dawson Creek and Worldwide.
James 1:1-8
Trials and Temptations
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.
To Jane Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and it deeply saddens me. I hope that your daughter thinks about what she said and the hurtful things she did and looks at what it really means to lose a parent and someone close to you. I love your daughter and grandson with all my heart and nothing I have done has been to hurt either one of them but to show her that I believed in her and would have never left her and never did. I also wanted to show her that one person can make a difference if they put the Lord first and not man. That is what true love is about. I would have weathered the storm and accepted and loved her for all that she is and all that she would become. I will only say I bless you and your family and send my condolences during your time of grieving and mourning. I dedicated the song above to your daughter because it was one of the songs I sent her when we decided to be together to let her know I was not fairweather and I wanted to be with her and my love was real.
To Rachel Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and I hope in the wake of things you think about all the things you said to me when I needed you to be there for me. If your mother or someone else in your family was hurting due to your loss you wouldnt call them crazy, put them down, or lie to them or hurt them. Rachel you were my best friend you were my family and you meant so much to me. My family was very supportive in my love for you in a way they had never been before and when my mother passed away all she wanted was for me to come see you and live my life with and for you and Jonathan. That is why she blessed your family in her passing day. I am sorry for whatever reason you couldn't see how deeply and truly I loved you and Jonathan. Every moment I spent with you meant something to me but you couldn't look past the fact that I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and still loved you and Jonathan enough to put that aside and keep my promise and love to you. I still love you with all my heart and that is why I soldier on with this campaign. You can be mad at me, you can sue me, you can hate me but I know that my path and the cross that I bear is one to love and you can never take that which the Lord instills in us away. I love you Rachel Myatt and I love Jonathan and that will never change. I asked for your forgiveness and I forgave you and I would do anything to make peace with you and have you back in my life but you choose to turn a blind eye and not see the beauty that Christ has given us in forgiveness and reconcilation.
I treated you with respect love and decency Rachel Myatt and I am a firm believer in Karma good and bad. Treat others the way you want to be treated and that energy will be returned to you. You cant keep living your life selfishly and continue to hurt people and step on them and not expect things to happen back to you. There are consequences to your actions and you are dealing with them now.
Colossians 1:20
and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.
To Jane Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and it deeply saddens me. I hope that your daughter thinks about what she said and the hurtful things she did and looks at what it really means to lose a parent and someone close to you. I love your daughter and grandson with all my heart and nothing I have done has been to hurt either one of them but to show her that I believed in her and would have never left her and never did. I also wanted to show her that one person can make a difference if they put the Lord first and not man. That is what true love is about. I would have weathered the storm and accepted and loved her for all that she is and all that she would become. I will only say I bless you and your family and send my condolences during your time of grieving and mourning. I dedicated the song above to your daughter because it was one of the songs I sent her when we decided to be together to let her know I was not fairweather and I wanted to be with her and my love was real.
To Rachel Myatt. I am sorry for your loss and I hope in the wake of things you think about all the things you said to me when I needed you to be there for me. If your mother or someone else in your family was hurting due to your loss you wouldnt call them crazy, put them down, or lie to them or hurt them. Rachel you were my best friend you were my family and you meant so much to me. My family was very supportive in my love for you in a way they had never been before and when my mother passed away all she wanted was for me to come see you and live my life with and for you and Jonathan. That is why she blessed your family in her passing day. I am sorry for whatever reason you couldn't see how deeply and truly I loved you and Jonathan. Every moment I spent with you meant something to me but you couldn't look past the fact that I had the weight of the world on my shoulders and still loved you and Jonathan enough to put that aside and keep my promise and love to you. I still love you with all my heart and that is why I soldier on with this campaign. You can be mad at me, you can sue me, you can hate me but I know that my path and the cross that I bear is one to love and you can never take that which the Lord instills in us away. I love you Rachel Myatt and I love Jonathan and that will never change. I asked for your forgiveness and I forgave you and I would do anything to make peace with you and have you back in my life but you choose to turn a blind eye and not see the beauty that Christ has given us in forgiveness and reconcilation.
I treated you with respect love and decency Rachel Myatt and I am a firm believer in Karma good and bad. Treat others the way you want to be treated and that energy will be returned to you. You cant keep living your life selfishly and continue to hurt people and step on them and not expect things to happen back to you. There are consequences to your actions and you are dealing with them now.
Colossians 1:20
and through him to reconcile to himself all things, whether things on earth or things in heaven, by making peace through his blood, shed on the cross.
To Pastor Coleman Glenn.
You deeply hurt me and shocked me as a Pastor. As you write a memorial speech for someone who passed did you ever think about how you never acknowledged the pain I was going through losing my mother and how all you talked about was Rachel's free will and tried to justify that and never once thinking about me losing a parent. That is why I am upset and saddened by you as a Pastor. I am not out to hold a vendetta or wish evil upon you. My campaign and protest is one of love and one of maybe getting the New Church to see some of the errors and contradictions in your teachings. The most dishearting part about this all is that I came to you and Rachel with open arms and you turned me away and then would get on your blog and complain that people didnt want to hear your message. In order to get people to listen to what you have to say you have to listen to what they have to say first. Rachel always tried to win arguements over me and it was hard for her just to agree to disagree. She always wanted to prove me wrong and it seems like this pride and selfishness stems from the arrogance and self love through Swedenborgs teachings. As a scholar of Christianity in whole I can tell you that the way you come across is very disheartening and not very loving. I cant say the same for other Pastors who contacted me because their discernment was very loving and caring. I just want bless you and your ministry even if you cant see the love in my heart and have turned me away. I will send a donation to a New Church Charity of my choice in honor of Dawson Creek later this month and tell them why I am sending it. God Bless.
Dear Readers you can hide from what you did in the past but eventually if you do things to hurt other people they will come back to you in some way shape or form. You dont have to live in the past and it is best you move forward but our past defines what we can become in the future. I could have been dead, I could have hated Rachel, I could have done things besides a loving campaign to smear her name and besmerch her family and their reputation but most who read this get that I love her very much and I have got compliments and others have used this blog on their websites as examples of Christian love. I am not perfect nor do I claim to be but one thing I know and will always know. I love you Rachel Myatt as much as I say I do and I wanted you and your son and I would have never left either of you till my dying day.
“Woman, transgress not beyond the limits of Heaven’s mercy!” cried the Reverend Mr. Wilson, more harshly than before. “That little babe hath been gifted with a voice, to second and confirm the counsel which thou hast heard. Speak out the name! That, and thy repentance, may avail to take the scarlet letter off thy breast.”
“Never,” replied Hester Prynne, looking, not at Mr. Wilson, but into the deep and troubled eyes of the younger clergyman. “It is too deeply branded. Ye cannot take it off. And would that I might endure his agony as well as mine!” - from The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne
Im not going to live my life in regret because I dont and never have regretted my love for you. I never doubted you, you constantly doubted me and other people so the scripture that I shared at the first of this blog is for you Rachel. My faith in God has never wavered nor has my love for you because I put Him first. I am not out to seek revenge, I am out for reconcilation, love, and forgiveness so anyone trying to make it out to be more then you are mistaken. Will I continue my campaign yes in two weeks I will go at it full scale but I will not do anything other than write this blog in respect for Rachel and her family losing someone special. Even if she didnt respect my mothers passing and show me love I cannot be evil and so anything to retaliate all I can do is wish the Friesen, Myatt and any other families my love and condolences in losing a Matriach. God Bless.
The End
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