Love is the Only Answer: For Rachel, The Myatt Family, The Church of The New Jerusalem

 

Dear Rachel, Myatt Family, and Church of The New Jerusalem,

Love is the only way. Rachel can hide and think that she is living her life free of any of this but each time someone reads this blog it is a piece of her actions. Each time someone associates my blog with the Church of the New Jerusalem it matters. Each time someone ask me about what happened and they think Rachel is a horrible person it matters.  The fact that she has to hide away and have no internet prescence and try to hide any trace of our relationship even though I have all sorts of proof matters.  In the end all I ever wanted was love and even Rachel knew I deserved that which is why I cant understand why she was so evil, so hateful, and so cruel but that is her life to live and she has to deal with the consequences.  It hasn't stopped me from loving people and I haven't given up on her or love.  She is the one who will have to look in the mirror and her family if they had anything against me and made Rachel feel I was not a good choice they missed out and didn't see the love that I had and still have because of being to quick to judge.  I never asked for my mother to die and I am sorry that for whatever reason Rachel mistook grief with not being interested in her.  I had so much on my plate but the one thing that mattered most was my love for Rachel and Jonathan Myatt.  I dedicate this song "From A Shell" by Lisa Germano to Rachel, the Myatt Family, Friesen Family, and Baker Family and Pastor Glenn and the New Church as a symbol of my love for Rachel and Jonathan today.  I wish you all blessings and love even if you don't wish me peace which I seek with dear Rachel.


My Heavenly Father,
I ask that you let Rachel know how much I love her and Jonathan and help us find peace.  I know that through you Rachel can find it in her heart to be in my life again and she will realize that I am her true friend.  I know that despite all the pain and hurt Lord you want me to love and that is what I seek to do.  I ask that you keep my heart pure and take away the evils of revenge, retaliation, and anger and fill them with more love for Rachel and her family.  I ask that you bestow blessings on Rachel, Jonathan, Jane, Howard, Dorothy, Amanda, Rebecca, Sarah, Clayton, Jessica, and Pastor Glenn and all his family.  Even if they dont know how much love in my heart I have for them.  I will not stop wishing for good for them. I know Father that you put this love in my heart for Rachel and I have seen how many people this love has touched so I want Rachel to know she is Loved so much by You that in me you sent a true friend one who would sacrifice even his life for Her and Jonathan because he loves you Lord and wants to be as servant to all those around him.  I humbly ask that you give insight to those who are ignoring my call for love and reconciliaton to look deep into their hearts and see all the love I have to give to them. Please Lord take me and make me today into a vessel of love so great and break the chains that bind me to any sadness and hurt with Rachel and give me a love so great that she and I forgive and make peace.   Love is the only way and I know this so in the coming months Lord make my heart strong and give me the wisdom to show Rachel she and Jonathan mean the world to me. I ask you to restore the heart of despair that grew inside of me with a heart of hope and love.  I thank you for everything you do for all of us each day Lord and ask your blessings upon each person on Earth.

Amen

Philippians 1:8-10

⁸ God can testify how I long for all of you with the affection of Christ Jesus.

⁹ And this is my prayer: that your love may abound more and more in knowledge and depth of insight, ¹⁰ so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ,

Philippians 4:6-7

⁶ Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. ⁷ And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


I want to end this blog today with this. Each day for a couple of minutes I shed a few tears. I dedicate the song "When I Die" by Lush to Rachel and Jonathan because it feels like a piece of me has died without you.  I look at my pictures of Rachel and Jonathan, I pray, and I just let God know how much I love them.  I write this blog because I wanted Rachel to see that someone could love her for all that she is and love her son also and I never would have left her side.  I had all the beautiful intelligent women in the world here and I was willing to give my heart to God and to come to Canada for two people who mean so much to me and always will. Rachel, Myatt or Friesen Family, Pastor Glenn or anyone of the New Church.  That is how much I love Rachel and Jonathan.  


God Bless ALL