The Video Below is "In Regards To Myself"by Christian band Underoath. They are one of my favorite bands and I am using this video as a means to let Rachel Myatt, The Myatt and Friesen Families that I have nothing to fear and there is no turning back. When I reached out to them as friends and family they turned their back on me, ridiculed me, and just thought it was ok to treat me less of a person. Now that I tell the story and I am persistant and dilligent they know nothing but to hide and shrink back like violets. I am standing in the light and nothing can stop me now. God is here for me and He has carried me and been my strength all the way. So think of how I tried to make peace with you and then think how you ignored me and now you will reap what you sow.
Ladies and Gentleman I wanted to start this blog off with a song called "Locked Away" by Dutch band the Gathering. The reason I wanted to use this song is that I want Rachel and her family to realize what most of us realize as humans. We can do things to hurt other people and then run and try to hide and pretend that it never happened but those other people live. The words that Rachel said to me, her evil actions, the way she put me down and tried to make people think I was mentally ill, sick, and damaged; I dont forget those trespasses. I have tried to reach out and to forget and forgive but she holds the key to that. I use the song "Locked Away" as a means for people to know that June 2nd 2012 is the day I let it all go. There is no turning back. There is no having a change of heart it is time to start purging myself of the scourage that is, was, and always will be Rachel Myatt. I loved you like others never did and I believed in you and Jonathan. How did you repay me? With Religious Bigotry, Xenophobia, Hatred, Cruelty, and just plain human indecency. How will I repay you? With Love! So much love that people worldwide will see how much I cared for someone who was so cruel to me and tried to hide from the damage she caused. I feel sorry for your family and if anyone from your family or church is brave enough to talk to me before I proceed with my next call to love then I will welcome it but only those seeking peace and truth. If you want to put me down, well Rachel did enough of that. If you want to slander me and tell me I am wrong. Well I got enough of that from Pastor Glenn and Rachel. If you want to say I am harrassing Rachel? Hmm I am writing a blog of my own accord with my own feelings. I never threaten physical harm I just use words as my weapons and I live in another country so it would be kind of hard to use that as a bargaining point. What I do know is that I gave Rachel a true Christian love and she squandered it and through all the feelings of hate and revenge I could have reigned down on her I stil love her but she doesnt love herself enough to know a true friend and someone who would have stuck by her. She lived so far in the past thinking of her ex and everyone else that hurt her that she couldnt see how strong and brave I was being willing to leave everything behind even after losing my mother so shortly after to be with her and her family. So now that you lost your Grandfather and your mother knows what its like to lose a parent maybe both of you will understand how your judgment of me and what I was going through affected my soul. I cannot believe people who claim to be loving and accepting as you say are so judgmental and hypocritical. I am going to end this by saying I wont apologize for what is going to come to pass and it has been a long time coming. If Rachel wants it not to happen then she can pick up the phone and we can bury the hatchet if not a lot of people in a lot of places are going to know a lot of things that could have been kept between us and I dont care because nothing hurts me anymore, except that I once had a best friend who turned her back on me, cursed me, and abandoned me and so by God's love I was still able to love her.
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