Forgiveness: Finally Someone In The Church Of The New Jerusalem Knows Where I Am Coming From.

Dear Readers,
I wanted to start this off with a song about accepting what we have done in the past and moving on.  It is  Don Henley of the Eagles song  "Heart of the Matter" If I wanted to hate and hurt Rachel Myatt I would have done so in a fashion that could have devestated her but because I love her that could never happen.  What I did do is show her I love her more than she could imagine and do things extremely different than other people might do them.  The people in my life and around me know that I am truly someone who loves other people and making this blog and writing letters and letting the world know I love Rachel Myatt was not about embarrassing her, causing her or her family pain, or trying to be hateful to Pastor Glenn or the Church of the New Jerusalem.  It was about love.  The deep love I have for Rachel and her son and the love I had for her family as a whole.  That is why I wanted to be with Rachel because I love her with all my heart.   I also want to state that I do not hate the Church of the New Jerusalem or their teachings what I do not like is them trying to skirt around certain things in the Bible and certain Pastors and other People in the Church trying to deny God's Love.  God's want of us to forgive, love, and reconcile, and to put our fellow man or woman before our selfish desires.  Could one say I was selfish for wanting a relationship with Rachel? One could say that but I never pressured her into it.  I courted her.  I loved her and believed in her and her son, her family, and in God and I still believe in God's love.  Even after all the hurtful things Rachel said to me her put downs, her betrayal, and lies I still love her and I would still welcome her back into my life with open arms.  To me she is family which very few of my friends reach that status. I can count 5 people in my life that are like family to me and even though Rachel has been distant I want her to know I love her as my sister in Christ still, my best friend, and I love her and Jonathan enough I would die for them.  I am not going to spend my time this morning making a long drawn out thesis.  What I will do is tell the New Church that I do read Swedenborg,  I have read the Bible 12 times over since I was 9 years old.  I love God and I love the people around me.  I will stop and pray with anyone or talk the Gospel and Gods word with anyone and many people have come to know and love me for my unashamed Christianity.  I always tell people to have a blessed day no matter their faith.  I am always willing to learn about others faiths with skepticism but not being judgmental.  I am going to leave you with a couple of thoughts directed at the Church of the New Jerusalem.


The title of my blog is "Forgiveness :Finally Someone In The Church of the New Jerusalem Knows Where I Am Coming From"
I read this  by Rev John Odhner of the Bryn Athyn Church entitled "Prayer and Fasting"(Bible Study) http://www.newchurch.org/connection/issues/forgiveness/going-deeper.html
What he has to say is a simple truth and that is what is in my heart pertaining to Rachel and I.
If Rachel would pick up the phone and talk to me she would be surprized at how I am not upset with her but full of love but because she was ashamed of me, worried about what her family said or what others will think if she does make peace with me and lets me back into her life or just because of her doubtful nature in general she loses the opportunity to forgive and to be in my good graces and me be in hers. We were so close and in a couple of minutes she destroyed that and said things so hurtful to me I should hate her. 


My life has never been about hate, hurt, or getting revenge.  I talk things out even with people who treat me as enemies.   I am an honest man.  I have divulged and disclosed my darkest secrets for all to see on the internet and I fear no one.  I have God's love,  I am strong, and I believe He will lead Rachel and I back together and my faith is in God not in man so that is why I soldier on.

I want to end this by sending a message to Pastor Coleman Glenn of the Dawson Creek New Church.  I noticed that you are going to give a sermon on God's warmth and light Sunday.  I have had God shining on me all this time and both you and Rachel have ignored me.  I have sent you love, made donations to your congregation, and your Ladies Group. Shown the Myatt Family how much I love them all and still you don't see the love in my heart.  If you truly want to know what God's love is then look at people who accept others even though they are ridiculed and persecuted.  You in essence told me I was wrong in my love of God.  You basically defended Rachel's actions on speaking against me and my mother and you skirted around the truth even after I showed you proof of her transgressions and I still came at all of you with love.  That is what this blog is about and that is what my campaign has become about.  Love and Truth is right here in front of you and you run scared, ignore it, and treat me different because I don't believe like you do.  Rachel never gave me that chance to learn as she did instead I was turned away and told I wasn't intelligent enough to grasp it. Is that what the New Church is about?


God Bless ALL