Dear Rachel,
If you are reading this I wanted to say quickly that I believe in you. I believe in you because I believe in the Most High God. I believe in Lord Jesus Christ. I believe Our Heavenly Father loves me and He loves you. He never lets us go through anything He doesn't think we can handle and if you think you are being tested or that I am doing this to hurt you I am not. I am doing this because I love you with all my heart and soul. Why cant you and your family realize that? I have so much love for them all and I truly miss you and Jonathan. You know what would be cool is if by February you and I were talking, laughing, sharing music again and putting this all behind us. You know what would be cool is if I got the most amazing friend I ever had back and we got to know each other again. You know what else Rachel Myatt. I do love you and Jonathan so I just wanted to say to you I believe in you even if you dont believe in me. I wanted to leave you with a quick song today to let you know how much you mean to me. I am sorry if you feel hurt by my actions but I cant give up on you and Jonathan and I wanted to show you I never would. If you want to make fun of me and put me down and call me names. Say I am obsessed and crazy that is fine. Im used to being hurt abandoned and put down but I believed you were different. I needed you because I believed in you and loved you and Jonathan. I hope you read the words to this song and you know how much I truly care about and how everyday you ignore me another piece of my heart and hope breaks. When other little boys were listening music that was harder than this in 1988 I was dreaming of being love and having a family I was 12 years old when this song came out.
I Believe by Chicago - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TklIbTjB5o&feature=related
I believe and still love you and Jonathan, Rachel Myatt I just dont know what I did for you to give up on me and treat me so cruel and not believe in me.
I often feel like the part in Star Wars right before Anakin becomes Darth Vader with Me being Obi Won and Rachel being Anakin, She turned on me I saw all the good in her and then she showed all the bad and evil toward me. You only need to watch the first 13 seconds of the first video I put up it is where Obi Won tells Anakin only a Sith deals in Absolute. I remember when Rachel and I were arguing on the phone I told her that her Absolutes were evil she always used the word Never. She told me I would never be with her and I was I put my faith in God not in man and I still do. All the things she said I wouldnt do I have or I am doing them. The only absolute we are sure of is God and His Love. So Church of the New Jerusalem members if you truly understand the correlation between science, the Bible, and Swedenborg's teachings then you will understand the love I have for Rachel and why in this equation I cannot give up. God's love is infinite and He instilled my love for Rachel therefore my love for her is infinite no matter how she treats me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSwy412nttI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrqYKFft324&feature=related
I dedicate this song to The Church of The New Jerusalem, Rachel Myatt, any Pastors who thought I would just walk away and to Jesus Christ who has kept me up through this whole ordeal. I really do love Rachel and I cant make her realize the true love I have for her but I will stand tall. With God we may stumble but He will always lead us back to the straight and narrow.
Im Still Standing - Elton John http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5JfvAPZGjds
God Bless All
If you are reading this I wanted to say quickly that I believe in you. I believe in you because I believe in the Most High God. I believe in Lord Jesus Christ. I believe Our Heavenly Father loves me and He loves you. He never lets us go through anything He doesn't think we can handle and if you think you are being tested or that I am doing this to hurt you I am not. I am doing this because I love you with all my heart and soul. Why cant you and your family realize that? I have so much love for them all and I truly miss you and Jonathan. You know what would be cool is if by February you and I were talking, laughing, sharing music again and putting this all behind us. You know what would be cool is if I got the most amazing friend I ever had back and we got to know each other again. You know what else Rachel Myatt. I do love you and Jonathan so I just wanted to say to you I believe in you even if you dont believe in me. I wanted to leave you with a quick song today to let you know how much you mean to me. I am sorry if you feel hurt by my actions but I cant give up on you and Jonathan and I wanted to show you I never would. If you want to make fun of me and put me down and call me names. Say I am obsessed and crazy that is fine. Im used to being hurt abandoned and put down but I believed you were different. I needed you because I believed in you and loved you and Jonathan. I hope you read the words to this song and you know how much I truly care about and how everyday you ignore me another piece of my heart and hope breaks. When other little boys were listening music that was harder than this in 1988 I was dreaming of being love and having a family I was 12 years old when this song came out.
I Believe by Chicago - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TklIbTjB5o&feature=related
I believe and still love you and Jonathan, Rachel Myatt I just dont know what I did for you to give up on me and treat me so cruel and not believe in me.
I often feel like the part in Star Wars right before Anakin becomes Darth Vader with Me being Obi Won and Rachel being Anakin, She turned on me I saw all the good in her and then she showed all the bad and evil toward me. You only need to watch the first 13 seconds of the first video I put up it is where Obi Won tells Anakin only a Sith deals in Absolute. I remember when Rachel and I were arguing on the phone I told her that her Absolutes were evil she always used the word Never. She told me I would never be with her and I was I put my faith in God not in man and I still do. All the things she said I wouldnt do I have or I am doing them. The only absolute we are sure of is God and His Love. So Church of the New Jerusalem members if you truly understand the correlation between science, the Bible, and Swedenborg's teachings then you will understand the love I have for Rachel and why in this equation I cannot give up. God's love is infinite and He instilled my love for Rachel therefore my love for her is infinite no matter how she treats me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pSwy412nttI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrqYKFft324&feature=related
I dedicate this song to The Church of The New Jerusalem, Rachel Myatt, any Pastors who thought I would just walk away and to Jesus Christ who has kept me up through this whole ordeal. I really do love Rachel and I cant make her realize the true love I have for her but I will stand tall. With God we may stumble but He will always lead us back to the straight and narrow.
Im Still Standing - Elton John http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5JfvAPZGjds
God Bless All
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