Dear AC1937 and New Church Readers,
I always believed in Rachel. I supported her love for God. I never told her what she believed was wrong. I actually read your Writings everyday and so what you say about me not thinking others have the same abilities I do is wrong. Instead of doubt others abilities and hold some elitest world view that I can see something that others don't I just believe in them. I am happy to discuss other religions. Two of my girlfriends have been Catholic and instead of tell them as a Protestant I would not go to Church with them I did. I had an Atheist girlfriend and instead of try to push my love of God on her she saw through my actions that maybe there was a God. I don't try to prove others wrong in fact I was ready to worship and love God with Rachel with an open heart and no matter what you say AC1937, Pastor Coleman or whoever comes on this blog Rachel and Pastor Coleman turned me away with both their uncaring and their attitude. I am not making unwarranted claims and take it how you want to that is how it was presented to me. Maybe they didnt think so and that is their free will to do so but how I was treated and the actions both of them took yes I am warrated in saying I was turned away. Rachel was vicious and unkind in her actions and Pastor Coleman's actions at the time were unloving and seemed only to want to prove his Theological interpretation of things right. I am a human being and one of Jesus most important commandments is to love. Rachel chose her bed and she didn't think anything would come of it. Because I had the courage to show her what lying and decieving people does you want to make me a villain. I respected her and she never showed me respect. To all you people who would make fun of a person who was grieving and call them sick, damaged, and mentally ill then that is fine that is what Rachel did to me and said that was the reason she didnt want to be with me. What a messed up person to say such things to another person then use the New Church philosophy to put me down even more. Then she taunted me on Msn Messenger made fun of me on Yahoo Questions and all sorts of things you people dont even know about that I have never even talked about. So how is a person who had just lost his mother and has a girl just dump him and try to humiliate him and embarrass him supposed to take it. I could have took a quick evil revenge but I didnt here I am still full of love and some of you cant even see that. To you I am just trying to attack the New Church and disprove you .I am telling you I believe in some of what your saying but the way that I was treated was very wrong and if people believe that and it is origin in your teachings then people need to know. I mean the Dawson Creek New Church is a collective of people not just Rachel so if that kind of attitude is being taught to others then am I not free to tell of my experience and how that could affect others. Yes it is my free will. Just as it was Rachels free will to be evil, unkind, and uncaring so she is getting what she deserves and I dont wish evil upon her I just think that God has led me to this place and I tried to make peace with all of you and show you that I love you but still you ignore the signs and the purpose. You would probably like it if I enact some cheap evil vengence on Rachel. Too bad I am going to keep loving, keep blogging, keep spreading the word and to keep believing in myself and the love God gave me because nothing you who are man can say can change the outcome only God can do that and He comes first in my life. If He truly didnt want me to be on this path then I would have acted on great evil, revenge, and retaliation long ago but love stand true in my heart and for you who doubt that , that is fine you have judged my heart and my spirituality and that is a sin.
Ive extended my hand out with love, forgiveness, I have offered to fly anywhere and do anything to make peace with Rachel and not have this rift with the New Church and I know there are lots of good people within the Church because I have felt and heard their presence so I will keep reaching out with my Christian heart and if people want to be evil and ignore the love I have for them then so be it. I wont make up a bunch of lies about Rachel because I dont have to I have the proof all over the place and her own words will tell the story. So if you want to be bias and see this as a New Church battle its not. Its one Christian reaching out to another Christian who's hurtful attitude, deceptive nature, and unkindness almost destroyed another and if AC1937 or any other Swedenborgians cant understand where I am coming from then it is their loss. When you believe in something you dont let it go and maybe this needs to be out in the open for the New Church to deal with and so Rachel can grow spiritually and stop hurting others. All I know is that I would never treat my worst enemy the way she treated me and still I am treated like the villain because I wont stop loving someone in the face of all adversity. Christ love is so much more than people actually see and I am trying to trade the hurt and vengance that could be in my heart for true unconditional love. I am sorry that it is not so obvious to you AC1937 and others.
I always believed in Rachel. I supported her love for God. I never told her what she believed was wrong. I actually read your Writings everyday and so what you say about me not thinking others have the same abilities I do is wrong. Instead of doubt others abilities and hold some elitest world view that I can see something that others don't I just believe in them. I am happy to discuss other religions. Two of my girlfriends have been Catholic and instead of tell them as a Protestant I would not go to Church with them I did. I had an Atheist girlfriend and instead of try to push my love of God on her she saw through my actions that maybe there was a God. I don't try to prove others wrong in fact I was ready to worship and love God with Rachel with an open heart and no matter what you say AC1937, Pastor Coleman or whoever comes on this blog Rachel and Pastor Coleman turned me away with both their uncaring and their attitude. I am not making unwarranted claims and take it how you want to that is how it was presented to me. Maybe they didnt think so and that is their free will to do so but how I was treated and the actions both of them took yes I am warrated in saying I was turned away. Rachel was vicious and unkind in her actions and Pastor Coleman's actions at the time were unloving and seemed only to want to prove his Theological interpretation of things right. I am a human being and one of Jesus most important commandments is to love. Rachel chose her bed and she didn't think anything would come of it. Because I had the courage to show her what lying and decieving people does you want to make me a villain. I respected her and she never showed me respect. To all you people who would make fun of a person who was grieving and call them sick, damaged, and mentally ill then that is fine that is what Rachel did to me and said that was the reason she didnt want to be with me. What a messed up person to say such things to another person then use the New Church philosophy to put me down even more. Then she taunted me on Msn Messenger made fun of me on Yahoo Questions and all sorts of things you people dont even know about that I have never even talked about. So how is a person who had just lost his mother and has a girl just dump him and try to humiliate him and embarrass him supposed to take it. I could have took a quick evil revenge but I didnt here I am still full of love and some of you cant even see that. To you I am just trying to attack the New Church and disprove you .I am telling you I believe in some of what your saying but the way that I was treated was very wrong and if people believe that and it is origin in your teachings then people need to know. I mean the Dawson Creek New Church is a collective of people not just Rachel so if that kind of attitude is being taught to others then am I not free to tell of my experience and how that could affect others. Yes it is my free will. Just as it was Rachels free will to be evil, unkind, and uncaring so she is getting what she deserves and I dont wish evil upon her I just think that God has led me to this place and I tried to make peace with all of you and show you that I love you but still you ignore the signs and the purpose. You would probably like it if I enact some cheap evil vengence on Rachel. Too bad I am going to keep loving, keep blogging, keep spreading the word and to keep believing in myself and the love God gave me because nothing you who are man can say can change the outcome only God can do that and He comes first in my life. If He truly didnt want me to be on this path then I would have acted on great evil, revenge, and retaliation long ago but love stand true in my heart and for you who doubt that , that is fine you have judged my heart and my spirituality and that is a sin.
Ive extended my hand out with love, forgiveness, I have offered to fly anywhere and do anything to make peace with Rachel and not have this rift with the New Church and I know there are lots of good people within the Church because I have felt and heard their presence so I will keep reaching out with my Christian heart and if people want to be evil and ignore the love I have for them then so be it. I wont make up a bunch of lies about Rachel because I dont have to I have the proof all over the place and her own words will tell the story. So if you want to be bias and see this as a New Church battle its not. Its one Christian reaching out to another Christian who's hurtful attitude, deceptive nature, and unkindness almost destroyed another and if AC1937 or any other Swedenborgians cant understand where I am coming from then it is their loss. When you believe in something you dont let it go and maybe this needs to be out in the open for the New Church to deal with and so Rachel can grow spiritually and stop hurting others. All I know is that I would never treat my worst enemy the way she treated me and still I am treated like the villain because I wont stop loving someone in the face of all adversity. Christ love is so much more than people actually see and I am trying to trade the hurt and vengance that could be in my heart for true unconditional love. I am sorry that it is not so obvious to you AC1937 and others.
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