The Scope of Doubting Others

Proverbs 27:5 Better is Open Rebuke Than Hidden Love


For Anyone that still thinks I am still out for hate or revenge. No I truly want Rachel in my life and want to make peace with her but I wont find peace until she has the courage to see that God has a hand in this and that I have truly loved her all along. She would rather be full of pride and ignore me and hide in the shadows.  I am out in the open you know my name. I dont put up the picture of she and myself because she is ashamed of me.  I am and have never been ashamed of her she was my best friend so I dedicate the video "Say the Words" by DC Talk a Christian music group


Dear Rachel and Church of the New Jerusalem,

I am amazed at how many other people take my blog and put it on their site as a top blog. Rachel thought that nothing I did would matter and that she could just return to living her life carefree after treating me with such disrespect and in such an unkind manner.  In the end I proved her wrong again. See when people constantly doubt other people such as people doubting others love for God as Rachel did me then they tend to be the ones with the real insecurities in their lives.  As much crap as I have been through in the past year and a half.  I still press on. There were three months where I thought I was going to die and I didn't now with the campaign looming and me about to give up faith on Rachel's ability for good and just go all out on her and the Dawson Creek New Church I am feeling a strength and a power of tremendous proportions.  I think this is what was meant for me so that the self righteous people in this religion will think about what they do or say.   I will not be haughty, I will not be untruthful, I will tell my story both the good and the bad.  I do believe there are many great people in the New Church and I wont mention their names because they are the ones I respect but I will mention the names of those who took the true love and kindness in my heart and miscontrued it and only tried to make themselves seem right theologcially instead of understand the nature of the situation I was bringing to them about Rachels cruel, insensitive, and morally bankrupt attitude using the New Church doctrine.  So to Rachel Myatt and the Church of The New Jerusalem, february will be the month I finally get tough and I will release my arson worldwide in places you wouldn't imagine.  If Rachel can sit up in Church today and  Pastor Coleman Glenn can sit up and preach today when they know they have hurt someone so bad that it has led to this then that is cool I admire their non caring and push things to the side attitude but they must also know that I can do what I choose to also and for their inconsideration, the evil, and the uncaring attitude the truth will set me free...............................

If you want to go down as the religion that turns people away, shuns them, and treats people certain ways according to belief  system, creed, color of skin or otherwise you have succeded in at least starting a way to be outted.  I came at all of you with nothing but love and a caring heart so remember this all could have been changed with a couple of words from Rachel.

I wanted to end this with a song called "I Was Wrong" By The Sisters of Mercy                         http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O499jyENw5M
It has one of the best lyrics in the chorus and maybe Rachel and the New Church need to apply this lyric to the love and forgiveness and to Swedenborgs Writings instead of be hypocritcal towards me for wanting what Christ wants us to do and that is to not hold grudges and forgive and forget things and without Rachel stepping up to the plate to do that she is going against just that. I am willing to wipe the slate clean if she is willing to come forth and face it. I love her and I have seen this all before my other Canadian ex is one of best friend and she hurt me almost as much. Anyways I leave you with this lyric from the song and the rest can be viewed with the above video.
I was wrong
I was wrong to ever doubt
I can get along without
I can love my fellow man
But I'm damned if I'll love yours

God Bless All