Dear Readers,
I will never forget the day it was September 7th as I sat in the airport with Rachel waiting to go board my plane sitting with the woman who I love with all my heart. Asking her did she still want to be together. I looked her straight in the eyes and she said yes. I kissed her and asked her again two more times I did this and she said "Yes" all three times. I have written a song about it called "Judas Kiss" because it was the biggest betrayal I had ever encountered in my life.
For a person like me this was one of the happiest moments of my life. I thought I had finally after all the hurt, pain, abuse, and rejection deserved to be loved. Rachel is the love of my life but she was too scared to see that. So instead of stay with me and keep her word and support me during the most trouble timed in my life she abandoned me and then was cruel about it. She never understood that she was the reason for me wanting to die. Her cruelty made my mothers passing which I was at peace with truly sad. She used God's name in vain to as she used the worst scapegoat ever. "Even if I don't love you God still loves you Byron" I know God loves me what a load of Balderdash!! I hate when people use that line as excuse for evil. That burns in my soul to this day. It is a cowards way out and it is not what God wants you to say to anyone. God wants you to be responsible for the things you do and know that for every action there is a reaction. What did Rachel think I was going to do let her walk all over me and just take it. See it is for this reason my dear New Church friends that I want you to see why I am so upset and have had to fight so hard not to seek revenge on Rachel. But maybe I should because maybe that will be the only way she will see that by not reaching out to reconcile and make peace with me after all this time. After all the love I have shown her even if she has ignored me. I mean this is the person who sent my Christmas card back. It was not addressed but she was so hateful she put my address on it and sent it back. I want people to know that I am not the villain. For months on this blog and around the world I have told people about how much I love Rachel but maybe I should hate her. Maybe that would make Pastor Glenn and the Dawson Creek New Church happy when I not only trash her but include both him and the Church in the festivities. Or will Rachel realize that love is the only way and that by ignoring me and being silent she is adding to the pain and making it hard for me to be nice. Most of you who have read this have seen the true love I have for Rachel and I want all you New Church Members to know I will not find peace until Rachel steps forward herself and the longer she ignores the love and peace I am trying to keep in my heart for her the more I feel hated, unloved, and like I should get revenge on her.
A person like me grows up in a life enviroment around violence, abuse, drugs, broken families, and constant disappointment. She played with my biggest dream to have a family of my own and to share my love of God with that special someone. I accepted her flaws and all and she constantly found as much wrong with me as she could. Is that a New Church trait to just look for all the bad in people because if so that is Satanic. It is evil and it is not of God. Rachel and Jonathan were a chance to leave my past beyond, let my mother go because she was sick all her life and her dying freed me from watching her in pain constantly, I wanted since I was 12yrs old to have a family and I told Rachel if she didnt truly want to explore that with me then dont play with me but she did. In the end she was the cruelest person I ever met and a lot of it had to do with the way she percieves God. So that is why I include the New Church in my hurt because she was constantly using her religion to justify her being cruel to people.
I ask you Church of The New Jerusalem is this what you want for me to seek revenge on Rachel and to include you in this?
If you truly cared then you would be looking to Rachel for answers about her cruelty and using her religious upbringing to hurt and put down people of other faiths especially people who did nothing but love her unconditonally.
Rachel needs to know that once I put the course of events in to action there is no turning back. It will hurt her family, it will effect the Church and it will be seen to many. Rachel isnt sorry for anything she said or did to me. She is so selfish that she told me there were no consequences for anything she did and she said I was trying to make her feel guilty. The only person who can make you feel guilty is yourself when you know you have done something wrong. She tries to hide now because she doesnt want others to know what she done. I have had a year plus to think about getting revenge and once I decide to there will be no turning back. I wont feel guilty. I wont care what happens to Rachel because I spent all this time trying to make peace with her and trying to save the beautiful friendship we had. So nobody but God can judge me in the end and I have done nothing but love her. Rachel Myatt stand up and face yourself either I am your enemy or your friend. I choose to be your friend you choose to have me as an enemy. So in the end it is your choice of how things go. The ball is in your court Rachel Myatt
I am trying to reach out to her with love and peaceful resolution and I am not making a threat because I dont live that way. I am truthfully telling you how I feel in my heart and what will result in us not talking and her continuing to ignore my call to peace, love, and reconcilation.
Will Your Selfish Pride allow you to let Evil win over Good? After all this love and believing in you even after you almost destoyed me and all the good and love I had for you, you would rather me just put it all out in the open and let others know our personal business? Is that what you want Rachel? I guess so. All I want is peace with and for you to evolve past this hate you have for me. You dont love me even if you told the Pastor you did you dont even love me as your fellow human because everyday you commit a crime against my love and my willingness to make peace with you and you were the one who transgressed against me. I feel sorry that you feel that way.
The choice is yours Rachel Myatt and Church of the New Jerusalem!!!
I will never forget the day it was September 7th as I sat in the airport with Rachel waiting to go board my plane sitting with the woman who I love with all my heart. Asking her did she still want to be together. I looked her straight in the eyes and she said yes. I kissed her and asked her again two more times I did this and she said "Yes" all three times. I have written a song about it called "Judas Kiss" because it was the biggest betrayal I had ever encountered in my life.
For a person like me this was one of the happiest moments of my life. I thought I had finally after all the hurt, pain, abuse, and rejection deserved to be loved. Rachel is the love of my life but she was too scared to see that. So instead of stay with me and keep her word and support me during the most trouble timed in my life she abandoned me and then was cruel about it. She never understood that she was the reason for me wanting to die. Her cruelty made my mothers passing which I was at peace with truly sad. She used God's name in vain to as she used the worst scapegoat ever. "Even if I don't love you God still loves you Byron" I know God loves me what a load of Balderdash!! I hate when people use that line as excuse for evil. That burns in my soul to this day. It is a cowards way out and it is not what God wants you to say to anyone. God wants you to be responsible for the things you do and know that for every action there is a reaction. What did Rachel think I was going to do let her walk all over me and just take it. See it is for this reason my dear New Church friends that I want you to see why I am so upset and have had to fight so hard not to seek revenge on Rachel. But maybe I should because maybe that will be the only way she will see that by not reaching out to reconcile and make peace with me after all this time. After all the love I have shown her even if she has ignored me. I mean this is the person who sent my Christmas card back. It was not addressed but she was so hateful she put my address on it and sent it back. I want people to know that I am not the villain. For months on this blog and around the world I have told people about how much I love Rachel but maybe I should hate her. Maybe that would make Pastor Glenn and the Dawson Creek New Church happy when I not only trash her but include both him and the Church in the festivities. Or will Rachel realize that love is the only way and that by ignoring me and being silent she is adding to the pain and making it hard for me to be nice. Most of you who have read this have seen the true love I have for Rachel and I want all you New Church Members to know I will not find peace until Rachel steps forward herself and the longer she ignores the love and peace I am trying to keep in my heart for her the more I feel hated, unloved, and like I should get revenge on her.
A person like me grows up in a life enviroment around violence, abuse, drugs, broken families, and constant disappointment. She played with my biggest dream to have a family of my own and to share my love of God with that special someone. I accepted her flaws and all and she constantly found as much wrong with me as she could. Is that a New Church trait to just look for all the bad in people because if so that is Satanic. It is evil and it is not of God. Rachel and Jonathan were a chance to leave my past beyond, let my mother go because she was sick all her life and her dying freed me from watching her in pain constantly, I wanted since I was 12yrs old to have a family and I told Rachel if she didnt truly want to explore that with me then dont play with me but she did. In the end she was the cruelest person I ever met and a lot of it had to do with the way she percieves God. So that is why I include the New Church in my hurt because she was constantly using her religion to justify her being cruel to people.
I ask you Church of The New Jerusalem is this what you want for me to seek revenge on Rachel and to include you in this?
If you truly cared then you would be looking to Rachel for answers about her cruelty and using her religious upbringing to hurt and put down people of other faiths especially people who did nothing but love her unconditonally.
Rachel needs to know that once I put the course of events in to action there is no turning back. It will hurt her family, it will effect the Church and it will be seen to many. Rachel isnt sorry for anything she said or did to me. She is so selfish that she told me there were no consequences for anything she did and she said I was trying to make her feel guilty. The only person who can make you feel guilty is yourself when you know you have done something wrong. She tries to hide now because she doesnt want others to know what she done. I have had a year plus to think about getting revenge and once I decide to there will be no turning back. I wont feel guilty. I wont care what happens to Rachel because I spent all this time trying to make peace with her and trying to save the beautiful friendship we had. So nobody but God can judge me in the end and I have done nothing but love her. Rachel Myatt stand up and face yourself either I am your enemy or your friend. I choose to be your friend you choose to have me as an enemy. So in the end it is your choice of how things go. The ball is in your court Rachel Myatt
I am trying to reach out to her with love and peaceful resolution and I am not making a threat because I dont live that way. I am truthfully telling you how I feel in my heart and what will result in us not talking and her continuing to ignore my call to peace, love, and reconcilation.
Will Your Selfish Pride allow you to let Evil win over Good? After all this love and believing in you even after you almost destoyed me and all the good and love I had for you, you would rather me just put it all out in the open and let others know our personal business? Is that what you want Rachel? I guess so. All I want is peace with and for you to evolve past this hate you have for me. You dont love me even if you told the Pastor you did you dont even love me as your fellow human because everyday you commit a crime against my love and my willingness to make peace with you and you were the one who transgressed against me. I feel sorry that you feel that way.
The choice is yours Rachel Myatt and Church of the New Jerusalem!!!
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