Dear Rachel and Readers,
We all have someone we would do anything for and whether she knows it or not Rachel and Jonathan were the ones I would do that for. I knew about a month into things that she was the one I would lie down my life for. I would give anything for and the one I would love with all the love I have to give. She doesn't really understand the love I have, while others have failed her and abandoned her she abandoned me and here I am still standing trying to show her that no matter what God put someone on this earth to love her unconditionally. I wanted to dedicate one of my favorite songs to Rachel this morning. It is a song by Blue October "Calling You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4HMxxN_3GA&feature=related Rachel you always meant the world to me. I was always proud to have you in my life. You made me believe in love again after all the times I had been burned, used, and rejected. I was ready to give up on everything and everybody then you came along and changed all that. I believed in and still do believe in you and Jonathan very much. Everyday we talked it meant something to me. I always dreamed of all the kids we would help together and all the love we would share together. I wanted to write songs with you and show you into my heart. I wanted to be there for you and Jonathan in everything. I wanted to worship with you, but in one cruel moment all that changed and you abandoned me. I had every right to feel the way I did because they day you turned me away a part of me died. I dont regret how I reacted nor am I ashamed of it. I was grieving and anyone who has truly studied socialogy and psychology understood what I was going through. They were very hurt with the way you treated me but instead of want revenge I just decided to let you know on a grand scale how much I love you. So taking it to the Church was one way. Putting up messages for you on Youtube is another. I actually have a whole block of videos called "Letters to Rachel" which is a diary of all the love letters I wrote for you coupled with your emails to me to post up but I am taking my time doing it. Rachel Myatt why cant you see that I truly love you and Jonathan and that even though you put me through all this pain and heartache I truly love you. When a man finds a woman who will love her even at her worst she should take not of that. You treated me horribly and here I sit at your doorstep full of love, forgiveness, and open arms. To me you were always Someone Worth Fighting For!!! I would have stood up against my family, my friends, and anyone to prove my love for you and no one would ever get in the way of the Love I have for you and Jonathan. That is the case now people say I should just stop loving you and get revenge on you and be done with it but no I turn to the Bible and tell them that love is patient and I have to keep loving you and give you time to decide if this love is true. Rachel I am not going anywhere and the things I am doing are only getting bigger. I held off on the book last year but I do have some songs ready to put up on Youtube I wrote especially for you in the next month or so. I would hope after what happens in the next week or so that you would see that I am worth giving a call and making peace with and that I am truly your best friend. I will just continue to pray and wish you and Jonathan well and that you are safe. I hope that soon you will put aside your pride and come back to my heart. My heart will always belong to you and I am sorry you feel the need to shun me and hate me.
God Bless All
We all have someone we would do anything for and whether she knows it or not Rachel and Jonathan were the ones I would do that for. I knew about a month into things that she was the one I would lie down my life for. I would give anything for and the one I would love with all the love I have to give. She doesn't really understand the love I have, while others have failed her and abandoned her she abandoned me and here I am still standing trying to show her that no matter what God put someone on this earth to love her unconditionally. I wanted to dedicate one of my favorite songs to Rachel this morning. It is a song by Blue October "Calling You" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4HMxxN_3GA&feature=related Rachel you always meant the world to me. I was always proud to have you in my life. You made me believe in love again after all the times I had been burned, used, and rejected. I was ready to give up on everything and everybody then you came along and changed all that. I believed in and still do believe in you and Jonathan very much. Everyday we talked it meant something to me. I always dreamed of all the kids we would help together and all the love we would share together. I wanted to write songs with you and show you into my heart. I wanted to be there for you and Jonathan in everything. I wanted to worship with you, but in one cruel moment all that changed and you abandoned me. I had every right to feel the way I did because they day you turned me away a part of me died. I dont regret how I reacted nor am I ashamed of it. I was grieving and anyone who has truly studied socialogy and psychology understood what I was going through. They were very hurt with the way you treated me but instead of want revenge I just decided to let you know on a grand scale how much I love you. So taking it to the Church was one way. Putting up messages for you on Youtube is another. I actually have a whole block of videos called "Letters to Rachel" which is a diary of all the love letters I wrote for you coupled with your emails to me to post up but I am taking my time doing it. Rachel Myatt why cant you see that I truly love you and Jonathan and that even though you put me through all this pain and heartache I truly love you. When a man finds a woman who will love her even at her worst she should take not of that. You treated me horribly and here I sit at your doorstep full of love, forgiveness, and open arms. To me you were always Someone Worth Fighting For!!! I would have stood up against my family, my friends, and anyone to prove my love for you and no one would ever get in the way of the Love I have for you and Jonathan. That is the case now people say I should just stop loving you and get revenge on you and be done with it but no I turn to the Bible and tell them that love is patient and I have to keep loving you and give you time to decide if this love is true. Rachel I am not going anywhere and the things I am doing are only getting bigger. I held off on the book last year but I do have some songs ready to put up on Youtube I wrote especially for you in the next month or so. I would hope after what happens in the next week or so that you would see that I am worth giving a call and making peace with and that I am truly your best friend. I will just continue to pray and wish you and Jonathan well and that you are safe. I hope that soon you will put aside your pride and come back to my heart. My heart will always belong to you and I am sorry you feel the need to shun me and hate me.
God Bless All
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