I am starting this blog off with a song from a 90s band I loved called Sun 60 called "Responsible"
I wanted both Rachel and Pastor Glenn to know you are responsible for everything you do just as I am. I am well aware and I take full responsibility for everything I put on here and everything I have done and will do. That being said you choose to speak of love in such a way where was it once shown to me in favor of proving yourself Theologically right. I recall a time in your life when you were sad about loved ones case and point in this blog Pastor Glenn that you wrote entitled "Eating Ashes" http://colemanglenn.wordpress.com/2011/01/06/eating-ashes/ It was ok for you though to basically take Rachel's side when I brought this to you and make things all good on the New Church front. Death is death and for a minute ask yourself had it been your parents or Rachels parents would you would have wanted me to be a douche and be non supportive of you like Rachel was to me. Would you have sounded uncaring and unkind people look to you as a spiritual leader and you sure didn't show it. I just want to point out to people how you say things and contradict what you say. I could care less now though because in February I unleash it all and the Dawson Creek New Church can deal with Rachel's unkindness and yours. I had nothing but love for both of you and tried to come at you like a Christian otherwise I would have just did what i was going to do and never prayed or try to find resolution or peace within the confines of the Church so my first act will be a telling of the story with the sketch of me and Rachel sent worldwide to religious places known only to me. Making peace with someone and realizing the damage we do when we lie and hurt others and play with their dreams would have been easier for Rachel than this but she doesn't care and so why should I anymore
Dear Readers,
Here is A Blog by one of the Pastors I encountered, Pastor Coleman Glenn of the Dawson Creek, British Columbia Church of the New Jerusalem, and though I respect this man greatly after all the love I have shown and dealt with the hypocrisy of some of the things he has said to me in regarding Rachel and the Church of the New Jerusalem this one really annoys me and reeks of ironic subjugation. http://www.patheos.com/blogs/goodandtruth/2012/01/the-little-way/#more-392
Sorry Pastor but I will call it how I see it. You treat people one way then preach to them about another way.
What has been noticed in many of the posts on this blog is an unspoken claim to an ability to recognize in others, when and where it might exist, a disparity between words and actions. This is a good ability to be in possession of, as it can help one to better navigate around the quagmires of life.
ReplyDeleteBut this is not the only thing which has been noticed.
What also has been noticed is that the author of the posts carries on as if he, and he alone, is in possession of this ability, while readers are not--or, if readers likewise are in possession of this ability, that their exercise of it is, somehow, magically suspended.
No AC I just recognize when people are full of it and maybe unless you are Coleman Glenn or Rachel Myatt you might know what you said to me. If you want me to post up the emails between us and show you what I meant then maybe I will but that is petty and unnecessary. I just know how I was treated and that is my story if Rachel was brave enough or Coleman was brave enough to realize how their actions affected me and why this is about respect and caring for your fellow human instead of trying to make philosophical points. I can argue all day with you on this but in the end I know how I was treated. Have a record of all my correspondence and maybe words may be misconstrued in some instances but that wont stop me from what I am doing. Rachel chose to treat me as such and I choose to react as such and she can live her life and I will live mine. You reap what you sow in the end. I had nothing but love and respect for her and she disrespected not only my love for God but my family and love for her and hers so if you have cute answer that will fix that fine but until then nothing you say will change my course of action.
ReplyDeleteOh and I was never the one who told another person they didnt love God, or told a person that they didnt or couldnt have a calling, or nor did I ever tell another person their way of loving and finding God was wrong so before you come on my blog with your rehearsed rhethoric and accuse me of something just make sure you actually evaluate what you are saying to me. My point is none of this would have happened if Rachel had of been kind instead of cruel. End of Story. I would have respected her, loved her, and went on and lived life but instead she had to be evil, decietful, and cold and use the New Church teachings as a scapegoat for what she was doing. How do you justfy that AC or are you just Pastor Coleman in disguise? My love and soul was played with and almost destroyed by someone elses cruel games and you and Rachel thought it was just going to be ok to treat me like dirt and no consequences would happen. I was responsible, I asked this person what they wanted. I wanted love, a family, and to be with them and if they didnt want it they should have played that. That is what people like you don't understand this meant something to me and it almost killed me so until you know how I feel, or the family life, or situations I have been through then you know what dont come on my blog saying I am judging others abilities because I never did anything but believe in Rachel. It is she who didnt believe in me.
ReplyDeleteif you have cute answer that will fix that fine
ReplyDeleteI have nothing that'll fix anything in my own past, Gene, never mind something that'll fix anything in your past, or the past of someone else. The question for me, however, is whether I'm willing to allow bad things in the past define my present and future. As I said, this is my question. Not everyone asks it or considers it, and many people are content to let lingering feelings from past harms define who they are today and what they'll do tomorrow. My way of looking at it is like this: If I want good things in my life, why would I let bad things (or even bad feelings because of bad things) incubate in my heart, rule my thoughts, govern my intentions and thereby define my life? But this isn't just my way of looking at it, it is the way I choose to live my life. Still, I'm not you, and you're not me, so I can understand that, because of your particular circumstances, this isn't a way of life you're willing to choose.
(In case you're wondering, no, I'm no Pastor Glenn in disguise. I'm also not a pastor. Or even a member of the New Church. But I am of a religion which is scorned by Protestants, i.e., a Catholic.)
Ok brother or sister all I have to say is that I have more bad things looming and I am still kicking and screaming and you can take this blog as someone who is determined or you can see it how you want. All the bad things that happened to me make me stronger and make me must try that much harder. Didn't I also write that I have dated two Catholic girls and even was going to go to Catchecizm classes for one of them so just like I didnt judge Rachel for her beliefs and was open I have been open to Catholicism. My mother changed from Protestant to Jehovah's Witness when I was young so and I have relatives that are Pentacostal ministers my family has a wide array of religious views. I myself am a philosophy student and maybe one day might get a degree in Christian theology if time permits. The point is I was the one with the open heart and writing is my way of dealing with my pain and showing my strengths. Whether Rachel ever talks to me again it is her loss this blog will be a year old on Jan 31st. I never give up on people I truly love and most all of them comeback if and when God is ready for me to lay this down I will but like you said this is my life and He hasn't revealed that to me yet and there wont be a clear concise calling but it will come in many ways but until then I know it is my path. I wish you many blessings and for you to know that I am an enlightened person who has never treated Catholics but anything but good people even when other Protestants were cruel one of the girls I was seeing was getting her Masters in Catholic theology and I supported her faith and her calling. God Bless
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