Dear Rachel, Pastor Glenn, General New Church of Canada, and Readers,
When I write these blogs they are from the heart. It isn't that I wake up in the morning and say to myself "Oh I have to write another Rachel blog." Who knows maybe she or someone she knows might even read it. It is so much more than that. These are the feelings I have on my heart so today I will share with you some deep and meaningful thought that has been going around in my head.
I want to start it off with a horroscope. I hardly ever read these things and while I do believe in science and the stars it has always been funny to me how people look to these things to help them with there future on a daily or monthly basis. I do believe in the attributes I have as a Taurus and I have added this page and this quote from Wikipedia so that you may further understand where I am going with this. Please note it says that the people I am most highly compatible with are Capricorns(Which Rachel is one) and Virgos
Astrologers classify Taurus as a negative or passive (introvert) sign.[3] This gives the characteristics of being reflective, receptive to the ideas of others: typically, a 'thinker' rather than a 'doer'. But being of the earth-triplicity, Taurus is considered by astrologers to be a highly practical sign which is happiest when involved in some kind of creative process. Although generally considered easy-going and placid, as a fixed sign Taurus is renowned for being stubborn. Taureans are likened to the bull in being slow to show anger, but capable of raging if pushed too far. And they take time to eventually act on their anger and basically when they (Taureans) do, be rattled, because there's no telling what they'll unleash upon you.[4]:17 It is also said Taureans enjoy basic 'creative comforts' and don't allow others to disturb them easily, but they don't forgive and forget easily. Joanna Watters (2003) defined a keyphrase for this sign as "I possess", and summarises its strengths and weaknesses: "The positive side to this fixity is a ferocious willpower and absolute loyalty to loved ones, although they need to guard against possesiveness.[4]:17 Martin Seymour-Smith (1981) suggested "Practicality may be felt in non-materialistic and satisfying ways". As a suggestion for keywords he offers:[5]
Taurus keywords: Gregariousness, stubborness, kindliness, acquisitiveness, graspingness, affectionateness, creativity, materialism, stability, cautiousness, enduringness.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Taurus_(astrology)
Notice the parts That I highlighted in red. After reading this blog and seeing the things I have done don't you think that truly applies to me. Especially the absolute will power and loyalty to loved ones part. I am stubborn, I have been slow to anger as I could have really done some stuff to hurt Rachel instead I tried to turn it into love. Also she needs to pay attention to the part about you do not know what we will unleash and we dont forget and forgive easily. I love Rachel enough to forgive her and I am willing to forget all that happened between us that will be bad if she will just open her heart back up to me as I have never closed my heart or door to her.
Rachel Myatt you are my best friend. I loved you for all the things that were different about you and I am sorry you didnt see that as my open mindedness to learn and do new things. Being in Northern Canada for me was a lot different from being in the concrete jungle I live in in Texas but I loved it. You were the one who assumed I didnt like it and would not enjoy living there with you. I was brought up in a small country town as a child that is now a burgeoning city. I am able to live in the city or country and that is what made me sad about your assumptions. Anyways I am going to get back to my point about using astrology in this blog. I read my horroscope for the new year on yahoo the other day and it came as no surprize to me. Here is the part of my yearly horroscope about love.
You certainly won't starve for love, lust and creativity in 2012. Mars, the planet of action, will heat up your romance sector for the first half of the year. The first four months of 2012 could bring the return of old flames. Use Mars's first quarter retrograde phase to wrap up old creative and romantic business. Having both Mars and Jupiter working hard on your behalf for the first six months of the year is a glorious predicament, indeed. Between mid-May and late June, your ruling planet, Venus, will turn retrograde, so mark that period on your calendar as a reminder to slow down, reflect and re-evaluate your relationship priorities. In fact, this would be an ideal time to take a hiatus from responsibilities in favor of completely relaxing and immersing yourself in beauty. http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/taurus/yearly-overview/
I have known all along that I wasn't supposed to give up on Rachel Myatt but the part about the return of old flames and wrapping up old creative and romantic business was right on cue. The love I have for Rachel is and always will be more than some stupid romantic fling. I am truly in love with her as a woman, as a friend, as mother(which I believe she is both an awesome natural and foster mother). I truly believe in Rachel Myatt. I just wish that she could see that it is in my nature not to give up on her and Jonathan and that I am truly the man that was meant to be in her life. I had to fight the light and darkness this whole time but the light eventually wins everytime. My slowness to all the hurt and anger that was brought on by the way she treated me was because of the true love I have for her. I always pray very hard before making a move and ask God for guidance in how my actions will affect me and others. For all those reading Rachel Myatt is my sister in Christ and the love I have for her is on many levels but most of all she is my estranged best friend and I love her enough to keep fighting and believing in her and the choice is ultimately hers to realize how much I care about her. I have to do what is right in God's eyes and if I had of let the Devil and evil take over then Rachel's life would have been affected. The part about not knowing what a Taurus could unleash I know that struggle because it is one we face everytime someone hurts us. I have a friend and we are almost a month apart and the same age and we all always talk about that struggle when someone hurts us. Rachel hurting me was even more painful because not only did she attack me, she attacked my mother and said I was using her death against her which I wasn't. She attacked my love for herself by saying all the cruel things like I was damaged, sick, unstable. If you go back up to the keywords for a Taurus stability is one of the words. I hardly ever doubt people or situations I get into and the love I have for Rachel has not wavered nor was it ever a mistake. I still believe in her and I still believe in love. If I were unstable then I would have let my mothers death stop me from doing the things I loved at the time but I didn't she didnt want me to and neither did God. I went to see Rachel three weeks after my mom died 3 weeks people!!! That is how much I loved Rachel and Jonathan. I still love Rachel and Jonathan. By now Pastor Glenn should have gotten not only the Donation I made to the Church but all the love I sent Rachel and her family and that should let you people know that I am doing all I do out of love not because I want some sick introverted backpedaling revenge on Rachel Myatt. I love Rachel, Jonathan, and her family and that is all there is. I have nothing but respect and love for the people of her Church so why is it that instead of embracing this love and trying to make peace with me they want to make excuses for evil and try to make my love look bad. I will never figure that out but I want to end this blog with a little on family, friends and love.
I sent Rachel a book I think around November or December of 2010 called "Love is A Family" by Roma Downey(yes the Touched By An Angel lady) it was a childrens book about how there could be different kinds of family and that family wasnt defined by blood but by love. Rachel and Jonathan will always be my family and I will always love them as such if she chooses to keep ignoring me and being cruel and denying me in her life that is cool but I have never lost any love for her. Most of my friends I treat as blood relatives because most of them once in my life are loyal and would do anything for me as I would for them. The people who wrote and have and are helping me with the Letters to Rachel and the New Church Campaign those are true friends and when I call them brother and sister I mean it. Rachel was not only my best friend, my girlfriend, or anything like that she was my Sister in Christ. The closest and most loved one I had ever had. I loved Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart so much when I finally got on the plane to leave them I was in tears. Rachel will never know that till now. I loved you and your family so much Rachel and there is no one I will never love anyone again with the love I have for you. You want me to forget and go away it wont happen. I am not obssesed with you, I dont want to possess you, I love you Rachel and my heart belongs to you and Jonathan. I never say that I love just Rachel I want you to know that I love you and your son both and that you are missing the point that the love I have is so much greater than you ever examined. Myatt family what ever Rachel is to you Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Grandaughter, Niece I love her. I was willing to give my all to her and make true promises and court her from so far away. I was faithful and true and I still love and only want her. If any of you discouraged her from that and thought I was not worthy then you didnt take a close enough look. I love Rachel with a love that spans the universe and I am willing to go to the ends of the earth if that is what it takes. So I want to say this before I end this blog
Rachel Myatt and The Myatt Family. I love Rachel and Jonathan and I am not going to give up on them so you now know why my will and love is so strong.
Pastor Coleman Glenn. I hope when you got my loving package, my homage to the Myatt Family, and my donation to your Church you realized that this is bigger than your role as a Pastor. Your obligation is to promote love and peace and the will of God. I came to you as the act and will of God. Would you rather me seek some kind of revenge on Rachel or would you like to see that I love her enough to never give up on her? You decide buddy!
To the General New Church of Canada, I am still ready to call all of you out for what has happened dont think I am just full of talk and smoke and mirrors I have written a whole pamphlet that is ready to go at anytime but I am holding out to see how Rachel reacts to this love that is in my heart that made me change my course of action from lashing out against the Church first and not being true to my love for Rachel. It is up to you how you want to approch it but when Reverened Heinrichs visits Dawson Creek he might want to address me as being serious because I am and I will not hold back. I am strong, I am truthful, I dont back down to anyone and I will not hold back my feelings toward the Church and how I was treated I have an arsenal of things to spread worldwide in print at moments call. So that is something for you to think about. Do you choose to find peace with me or make up excuses for evil? The ball is in your court.
I thank all of you that read this and I want you to take one more look at the keywords for a Taurus before I sign off today. The ones I have highlighted in red are my most endearing qualities especially the last one Enduringness. If the New Church or Rachel Myatt think I am some person who just finally caves in and gives up then they are wrong and they only need to look at the longevity of this blog, the letters I have sent out, the emails I have sent to certain Church members and the love I have for Rachel Myatt. That will be your answer on how far this is going to go I am far from done I am just beginning.
Taurus keywords: Gregariousness, stubborness, kindliness, acquisitiveness, graspingness, affectionateness, creativity, materialism, stability, cautiousness, enduringness.
When I write these blogs they are from the heart. It isn't that I wake up in the morning and say to myself "Oh I have to write another Rachel blog." Who knows maybe she or someone she knows might even read it. It is so much more than that. These are the feelings I have on my heart so today I will share with you some deep and meaningful thought that has been going around in my head.
I want to start it off with a horroscope. I hardly ever read these things and while I do believe in science and the stars it has always been funny to me how people look to these things to help them with there future on a daily or monthly basis. I do believe in the attributes I have as a Taurus and I have added this page and this quote from Wikipedia so that you may further understand where I am going with this. Please note it says that the people I am most highly compatible with are Capricorns(Which Rachel is one) and Virgos
Astrologers classify Taurus as a negative or passive (introvert) sign.[3] This gives the characteristics of being reflective, receptive to the ideas of others: typically, a 'thinker' rather than a 'doer'. But being of the earth-triplicity, Taurus is considered by astrologers to be a highly practical sign which is happiest when involved in some kind of creative process. Although generally considered easy-going and placid, as a fixed sign Taurus is renowned for being stubborn. Taureans are likened to the bull in being slow to show anger, but capable of raging if pushed too far. And they take time to eventually act on their anger and basically when they (Taureans) do, be rattled, because there's no telling what they'll unleash upon you.[4]:17 It is also said Taureans enjoy basic 'creative comforts' and don't allow others to disturb them easily, but they don't forgive and forget easily. Joanna Watters (2003) defined a keyphrase for this sign as "I possess", and summarises its strengths and weaknesses: "The positive side to this fixity is a ferocious willpower and absolute loyalty to loved ones, although they need to guard against possesiveness.[4]:17 Martin Seymour-Smith (1981) suggested "Practicality may be felt in non-materialistic and satisfying ways". As a suggestion for keywords he offers:[5]
Taurus keywords: Gregariousness, stubborness, kindliness, acquisitiveness, graspingness, affectionateness, creativity, materialism, stability, cautiousness, enduringness.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Taurus_(astrology)
Notice the parts That I highlighted in red. After reading this blog and seeing the things I have done don't you think that truly applies to me. Especially the absolute will power and loyalty to loved ones part. I am stubborn, I have been slow to anger as I could have really done some stuff to hurt Rachel instead I tried to turn it into love. Also she needs to pay attention to the part about you do not know what we will unleash and we dont forget and forgive easily. I love Rachel enough to forgive her and I am willing to forget all that happened between us that will be bad if she will just open her heart back up to me as I have never closed my heart or door to her.
Rachel Myatt you are my best friend. I loved you for all the things that were different about you and I am sorry you didnt see that as my open mindedness to learn and do new things. Being in Northern Canada for me was a lot different from being in the concrete jungle I live in in Texas but I loved it. You were the one who assumed I didnt like it and would not enjoy living there with you. I was brought up in a small country town as a child that is now a burgeoning city. I am able to live in the city or country and that is what made me sad about your assumptions. Anyways I am going to get back to my point about using astrology in this blog. I read my horroscope for the new year on yahoo the other day and it came as no surprize to me. Here is the part of my yearly horroscope about love.
You certainly won't starve for love, lust and creativity in 2012. Mars, the planet of action, will heat up your romance sector for the first half of the year. The first four months of 2012 could bring the return of old flames. Use Mars's first quarter retrograde phase to wrap up old creative and romantic business. Having both Mars and Jupiter working hard on your behalf for the first six months of the year is a glorious predicament, indeed. Between mid-May and late June, your ruling planet, Venus, will turn retrograde, so mark that period on your calendar as a reminder to slow down, reflect and re-evaluate your relationship priorities. In fact, this would be an ideal time to take a hiatus from responsibilities in favor of completely relaxing and immersing yourself in beauty. http://shine.yahoo.com/astrology/taurus/yearly-overview/
I have known all along that I wasn't supposed to give up on Rachel Myatt but the part about the return of old flames and wrapping up old creative and romantic business was right on cue. The love I have for Rachel is and always will be more than some stupid romantic fling. I am truly in love with her as a woman, as a friend, as mother(which I believe she is both an awesome natural and foster mother). I truly believe in Rachel Myatt. I just wish that she could see that it is in my nature not to give up on her and Jonathan and that I am truly the man that was meant to be in her life. I had to fight the light and darkness this whole time but the light eventually wins everytime. My slowness to all the hurt and anger that was brought on by the way she treated me was because of the true love I have for her. I always pray very hard before making a move and ask God for guidance in how my actions will affect me and others. For all those reading Rachel Myatt is my sister in Christ and the love I have for her is on many levels but most of all she is my estranged best friend and I love her enough to keep fighting and believing in her and the choice is ultimately hers to realize how much I care about her. I have to do what is right in God's eyes and if I had of let the Devil and evil take over then Rachel's life would have been affected. The part about not knowing what a Taurus could unleash I know that struggle because it is one we face everytime someone hurts us. I have a friend and we are almost a month apart and the same age and we all always talk about that struggle when someone hurts us. Rachel hurting me was even more painful because not only did she attack me, she attacked my mother and said I was using her death against her which I wasn't. She attacked my love for herself by saying all the cruel things like I was damaged, sick, unstable. If you go back up to the keywords for a Taurus stability is one of the words. I hardly ever doubt people or situations I get into and the love I have for Rachel has not wavered nor was it ever a mistake. I still believe in her and I still believe in love. If I were unstable then I would have let my mothers death stop me from doing the things I loved at the time but I didn't she didnt want me to and neither did God. I went to see Rachel three weeks after my mom died 3 weeks people!!! That is how much I loved Rachel and Jonathan. I still love Rachel and Jonathan. By now Pastor Glenn should have gotten not only the Donation I made to the Church but all the love I sent Rachel and her family and that should let you people know that I am doing all I do out of love not because I want some sick introverted backpedaling revenge on Rachel Myatt. I love Rachel, Jonathan, and her family and that is all there is. I have nothing but respect and love for the people of her Church so why is it that instead of embracing this love and trying to make peace with me they want to make excuses for evil and try to make my love look bad. I will never figure that out but I want to end this blog with a little on family, friends and love.
I sent Rachel a book I think around November or December of 2010 called "Love is A Family" by Roma Downey(yes the Touched By An Angel lady) it was a childrens book about how there could be different kinds of family and that family wasnt defined by blood but by love. Rachel and Jonathan will always be my family and I will always love them as such if she chooses to keep ignoring me and being cruel and denying me in her life that is cool but I have never lost any love for her. Most of my friends I treat as blood relatives because most of them once in my life are loyal and would do anything for me as I would for them. The people who wrote and have and are helping me with the Letters to Rachel and the New Church Campaign those are true friends and when I call them brother and sister I mean it. Rachel was not only my best friend, my girlfriend, or anything like that she was my Sister in Christ. The closest and most loved one I had ever had. I loved Rachel and Jonathan with all my heart so much when I finally got on the plane to leave them I was in tears. Rachel will never know that till now. I loved you and your family so much Rachel and there is no one I will never love anyone again with the love I have for you. You want me to forget and go away it wont happen. I am not obssesed with you, I dont want to possess you, I love you Rachel and my heart belongs to you and Jonathan. I never say that I love just Rachel I want you to know that I love you and your son both and that you are missing the point that the love I have is so much greater than you ever examined. Myatt family what ever Rachel is to you Daughter, Sister, Aunt, Grandaughter, Niece I love her. I was willing to give my all to her and make true promises and court her from so far away. I was faithful and true and I still love and only want her. If any of you discouraged her from that and thought I was not worthy then you didnt take a close enough look. I love Rachel with a love that spans the universe and I am willing to go to the ends of the earth if that is what it takes. So I want to say this before I end this blog
Rachel Myatt and The Myatt Family. I love Rachel and Jonathan and I am not going to give up on them so you now know why my will and love is so strong.
Pastor Coleman Glenn. I hope when you got my loving package, my homage to the Myatt Family, and my donation to your Church you realized that this is bigger than your role as a Pastor. Your obligation is to promote love and peace and the will of God. I came to you as the act and will of God. Would you rather me seek some kind of revenge on Rachel or would you like to see that I love her enough to never give up on her? You decide buddy!
To the General New Church of Canada, I am still ready to call all of you out for what has happened dont think I am just full of talk and smoke and mirrors I have written a whole pamphlet that is ready to go at anytime but I am holding out to see how Rachel reacts to this love that is in my heart that made me change my course of action from lashing out against the Church first and not being true to my love for Rachel. It is up to you how you want to approch it but when Reverened Heinrichs visits Dawson Creek he might want to address me as being serious because I am and I will not hold back. I am strong, I am truthful, I dont back down to anyone and I will not hold back my feelings toward the Church and how I was treated I have an arsenal of things to spread worldwide in print at moments call. So that is something for you to think about. Do you choose to find peace with me or make up excuses for evil? The ball is in your court.
I thank all of you that read this and I want you to take one more look at the keywords for a Taurus before I sign off today. The ones I have highlighted in red are my most endearing qualities especially the last one Enduringness. If the New Church or Rachel Myatt think I am some person who just finally caves in and gives up then they are wrong and they only need to look at the longevity of this blog, the letters I have sent out, the emails I have sent to certain Church members and the love I have for Rachel Myatt. That will be your answer on how far this is going to go I am far from done I am just beginning.
Taurus keywords: Gregariousness, stubborness, kindliness, acquisitiveness, graspingness, affectionateness, creativity, materialism, stability, cautiousness, enduringness.
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