I Believe In You Rachel

Dear Rachel,

If you are reading this I wanted to say quickly that I believe in you. I believe in you because I believe in the Most High God.  I believe in Lord Jesus Christ.  I believe Our Heavenly Father loves me and He loves you.  He never lets us go through anything He doesn't think we can handle and if you think you are being tested or that I am doing this to hurt you I am not. I am doing this because I love you with all my heart and soul.  Why cant you and your family realize that? I have so much love for them all and I truly miss you and Jonathan.  You know what would be cool is if by February you and I were talking, laughing, sharing music again and putting this all behind us.  You know what would be cool is if I got the most amazing friend I ever had back and we got to know each other again.  You know what else Rachel Myatt. I do love you and Jonathan so I just wanted to say to you I believe in you even if you dont believe in me.  I wanted to leave you with a quick song today to let you know how much you mean to me. I am sorry if you feel hurt by my actions but I cant give up on you and Jonathan and I wanted to show you I never would.  If you want to make fun of me and put me down and call me names. Say I am obsessed and crazy that is fine. Im used to being hurt abandoned and put down but I believed you were different.  I needed you because I believed in you and loved you and Jonathan.  I hope you read the words to this song and you know how much I truly care about and how everyday you ignore me another piece of my heart and hope breaks.  When other little boys were listening music that was harder than this in 1988 I was dreaming of being love and having a family I was 12 years old when this song came out.

I Believe by Chicago - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TklIbTjB5o&feature=related

I believe and still love you and Jonathan, Rachel Myatt I just dont know what I did for you to give up on me and treat me so cruel and not believe in me.

I often feel like the part in Star Wars right before Anakin becomes Darth Vader with Me being Obi Won and Rachel being Anakin, She turned  on me I saw all the good in her and then she showed all the bad and evil toward me. You only need to watch the first 13 seconds of the first video I put up it is where Obi Won tells Anakin  only a Sith deals in Absolute. I remember when Rachel and I were arguing on the phone I told her that her Absolutes were evil she always used the word Never. She told me I would never be with her and I was  I put my faith in God not in man and I still do. All the things she said I wouldnt do I have or I am doing them. The only absolute we are sure of is God and His Love. So Church of the New Jerusalem members if you truly understand the correlation between science, the Bible, and Swedenborg's teachings then you will understand the love I have for Rachel and why in this equation I cannot give up. God's love is infinite and He instilled my love for Rachel therefore my love for her is infinite no matter how she treats me.
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I dedicate this song to The Church of The New Jerusalem, Rachel Myatt, any Pastors who thought I would just walk away and to Jesus Christ who has kept me up through this whole ordeal. I really do love Rachel and I cant make her realize the true love I have for her but I will stand tall. With God we may stumble but He will always lead us back to the straight and narrow.

Im Still Standing - Elton John http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5JfvAPZGjds

God Bless All

I Love Rachel Myatt Worldwide Campaign

This is to Rachel, Her Family, and any true believers of love out there that read this.

I am about to put my faith, my love, and the limits of my heart to the test.  Starting in April I am going to let the world know how much I love Rachel through part of the book I have written.  "Letters To Rachel" this book is true story. It is only culminated from out Emails, Text, and Messenger conversations with some commentary thrown in from me because it is my story and my heart.  I do care about Rachel and how she feels and it is not put out to slander her or hurt her but rather to show her that she hurt and abandoned a true friend who loves her so much that they would go to the ends of the earth to let her know that.  There are crazy stalker guys and girls out there I know I have a stalker but this is different. I live thousands of miles away from Rachel. I haven't tried to call anyone but Rachel though I did write letters to her sister and mother. Both of which I adore but they might never know it.  I have been steadfast in my love and I haven't backed down and that is what Unconditional love and friendship is about.  Rachel maybe you have never had that kind of love outside of your family.  The other guys gave up on you or didn't want or need what I need. I needed a best friend who was willing to accept me for who I was and still after you left me you said you loved me and accepted me.  It also seems that you are so enmeshed in your family and the kids you take care of that you don't even know how to manage a relationship with another adult. You are hostile and cruel to people who otherwise love and care for you.  It is sad because the woman who loved me was just that. She was full of love and hope then she became this ugly monster contradictory to her faith, her attitude, and the beautiful person I fell in love with.  You don't give yourself a chance to be truly loved. You spend so much time finding faults in others when they overlook yours and love you for who you are.  I just wanted you to know that this blog is just the start and in a couple of months I hope we have put this all behind us and I can stop all this writing and campaigning but I won't give up till we mend what was broken and make peace. That is how much I love you baby.  So I will give you a hint of where the first 1000's people will know about Rachel Myatt.  Its a big U.S. festival in one of the biggest states. Oh and I gave you a t-shirt from last years event. Yep you know how big that audience and lots of Canadians will be there so I will keep my promise. Hope this inspires you to bury the hatchet I'm waiting with open arms and all the love in the world still and take a listen to Blindside's song again "Time Will Change Your Heart" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0YmTkY1nJaE&playnext=1&list=PL4BD64D12E9DBE626
Remember a true friend will weather the storm and do anything for you.  You chose to see my diligence and my unabashed love for you as a burden and a curse. Even though I was hurting and wanted you to hurt end the end God lifted me to a higher place.  Can you reach that higher place Rachel and forgive and forget as I had to or will you hold onto your pride continue to be selfish and treat me like an enemy.  Your Choice as you always used to tell me.

love to all